Kick up the bum required!
As it says really!
Background - I've lost 5st 3.5lbs so far and have 2st 5.5lbs to go until target. I have a bit of a time limit on this as I need to be at target (and under BMI 30) for 30th July which is when I have my next appointment at the fertility clinic regarding our treatment. If I'm not light enough they won't refer me and any chance of me getting on the IVF list will be delayed. At the age of 34 and a half I can't really afford much more delay so I need to get the weight off and quickly!
So here I am with one of the best reasons you could think of to lose weight. Up until recently I have been very good and 100% on plan other than a couple of days off for birthdays/Christmas etc. Over the last few weeks I have been finding that bad habits are creeping in - I've been picking at the ever present kitchen snacks at work for starters and I never used to do this. I was always so strong in the face of temptation. Now I eat things I know I shouldn't in the day and tell myself I'll make up for it in the evening but when the evening comes I feel miserable and deprived of my evening snackie that I generally use my syns for and eat it anyway despite the fact that I don't deserve it and have no syns left!
Today was a classic example - stuffed myself with toffees from the kitchen at work, I wasn't even hungry, just wanted the sugar hit. Used all of my syns and more but still ended up eating half a massive bag of popcorn after tea which I didn't need or really want, husband was eating them and I just joined in. So now I am uncomfortably full from over eating, feeling a bit sick and completely miserable.
I don't know what's changed. Since I was given my target of getting to BMI 30 by end of July over a month ago now my losses have been erratic and I am drifting off plan in ways I never did before. I had a very good loss last week but I've already had two dodgy days out of four since WI so I'll be lucky if I don't gain it back. I'm exercising but that isn't really helping my losses. Getting a target and a motivation should have helped me but I feel like I'm falling further and further behind and sabotaging any chance of happiness I have in the future by failing to lose the weight...
Congratulations to anyone still reading! If anyone has any advice I would be grateful to hear it, I'm struggling massively with this whole thing and I don't know how to get the single mindedness back that I used to have. I know how to do SW, I know it works and I want and need this to work more than life itself.... so what's wrong with me? x
Kick up the bum required!
I can't offer any advice but didn't want to read and run. :hugs:
Re: Kick up the bum required!
Oh hun we all feel like this time. Why don't you write down the pros and cons of you losing weight it may help you refocus. If you go to group ring your consultant that's what she is there for and maybe ask for a SAS log. Good luck x