Ok, so my plan to stick to SE for a week went completely out the window and I've ended up in a 3 day mega binge! I'm feeling so so bad about myself right now, I know I've gained a stupid amount of weight this week because of this ridiculous binge and at the moment I'm hating myself for it! Why did I do it?! I don't even want to think about what I've eaten, I'm just ashamed of myself and feeling horrible! I have no excuses, I was just weak and ended up sabotaging myself again!
I know that I can't go back and change what I've done and I know that I have to draw a line under it right now but that's easier said than done. I know I'm not going to eat any more rubbish and this binge is now over as I hate feeling like this but I just don't feel like I can forgive myself for it yet. Haha that sounds stupid when I say it out loud but I don't know how else to describe it. I'm just so disappointed in myself.
Anyway, I'm going to have an early night and tomorrow hopefully I'll wake up with some new determination and start to fix the damage I've done. Ergh, I feel like I spend more time fixing these stupid mistakes than actually losing enough weight to see the scale numbers that have been out of reach for so long! Sigh.
Sorry for the rant, just had to get that out somewhere!