yo-yo

6lb off! Hooray!

After my horrific 11lb gain over the weekend I was absolutely thrilled to have shifted so much of it in 2 days.

Dare I hope that I could get the other 5 off by my weigh in on Tuesday?? Na - I probably shouldn't in case I end up disappointed! And disappointment could result in another binge!

I have SS'd to perfection since Tuesday. 2 packs, 1 bar, 3 litres of water and 4/5 balck coffees every day (tonight I had a berry jelly too) but boy have I felt hungry! I really wanted to get back to my exercising today but I fainted in the shower thismorning so thought I'd better give it a miss till the weekend when hopefully I won't be feeling as hungry.

Ha! Just realised that I wrote 'wanted to get back to my exercising today' as if I previously had a strict regime! It was actually half hour on the rowing machine last wednesday, and half hour on the cross trainer (otherwise known as 'the beast!') on thurdsay!

I really need to start doing it religiously every night now as my holiday is fast approaching (11 weeks today ) when I will be lying on a sun lounger next to slim sister in law with NO stretch marks, NO cellulite, and skin that actually fits her body! I know it probably won't help much as the stretch marks are obviously here to stay and I don't hold out much hope for the 17 and a half stone overcoat either but it can't hurt. I just want to go away feeling that I've done all I can - and this year I can't afford any surgery!

On that note, I am going to head off up the wooden hill to ensure am rested enough for my date with 'the beast' tomorrow!

xxx

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westiegirl

Hi hun

Just wanted to say


You've been so fabby and supportive during my mardy moo moments.

Well done on 6lbs. Take each day as it comes and we'll see where we end up, eh?

We have to get this sussed somehow, don't we? In fact I KNOW WE WILL!!!



Catch you soon hun and have a good weekend.

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yo-yo

Hiya - was on your thread - posts crossed again!

You are welcome. I was most disturbed when you said you were going to stop posting for a while - it would be like ITV announcing they were taking Corrie off the air! Don't know what I'd have done with my evenings!

Yes we will do it. These ups and downs are even worse for the mind than they are for the figure. We don't want to end up bonkers as well as overweight! Although a spell in a straight jacket would certainly help the SSing process - off to google it and see if can purchase one!

xxx

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westiegirl

Lol, can you see if they do discount for bulk buying? In fact ask if they can do getting rid of bulk buying!

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yo-yo

Relatively good days dieting under my belt but I had an extra pack .

An about to faint feeling came over me today at work, but luckily I got to a chair just in the nick of time. I knocked 2 cups of coffee over on the way though! Oh well would have been much more embarrassing if I hadn't made it to the chair!

I used to faint ALL the time - dodgy hormone levels I think as was having a lot of ovary touble at the time - but doesn't happen so much now. Think it's because TOTM arrived yesterday with a vengance. Am lucky as I'm usually quite light and don't get much pain but this one's been horrendous so far. I guess it's only fair I get a bad one every now and again though!

So - since the incident in the shower yesterday morning CB has been telling me that this heavy TOTM is zapping my energy so I need to eat. Ignored her yesterday but she stepped up her campaign after the near miss at work - in the end I decided I'd pacify her with an extra pack. I'm trying not to class it as a cheat/failure as that kind of thinking could lead to.......malt loaf

Bloody malt loaf! I don't even like it but OH has been eating it thisevening and I have been dying to have some??? there is still half left in the cupboard torturing me. DD just asked me if she could have some toast - I said "why don't you have some malt loaf instead" she looked at me as if I was mad and said "because, as you know, I don't like malt loaf". I spent 10 mins telling her she should give it a chance, that I used to think I didn't like it, that it's tastes much nicer than it looks etc but she wouldn't budge. I just gave in and made her the toast in the end as I was beginning to sound like a campaigner for malt loaf rights! Why stop there? Malt loaf for Prime Minister!

I think I have made an important discovery today about this grumpy mood that keeps descending on me on Friday evenings. My OH works evenings/nights Mon to Thur! Coincidence??

Myself and DD have our little routine. While she has her tea I have my pack, we can watch whatever WE like on the tv, she goes for her shower at 9 then off to bed - so there's no food around after tea time to make me feel hard done by. I can get a decent sleep cuz there is noone lying beside me snoring like a warthog with a bad head cold. All is good in the yo-yo house.

Compare that with thisevening.

They had Mcdonalds for tea, I've had to watch 3 lots of news and a couple of documentaries on how hostages cope with the trauma they've been through - while he eats MALT LOAF! and 2 bowls of cereal. This is when stumbled across the important discovery BTW - he was eating the cereal SO loudly that I was overcome with an overwhelming urge to punch him in the face. I actually pictured myself doing it! I had to go ino the kitchen, and this was when DD come pestering me for toast!

Eureka!! It turns out that HE is the reason for black Fridays/weekends - or rather my irritation with him is. Don't really know what I can do about it?

*Kick him out? - Hmm, perhaps bit drastic.
*Get him a weekend job? - Tempting!
*Tell him no to be such a selfish git by stuffing his face in front of me all evening? - maybe a little unreasonable, not his fault I can't eat.
*Ask him to try to eat quietly and stop watching such a load of boring ***** on the telly?

I'll mull it over and speak to him in the morning (but not over his cornflakes or I'm certain to pick option 1!).

Will let you know how it goes......

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westiegirl

Lol Yo-yo about OH troubles! Option 1 is possibly a bit a drastic. How about a mixture of options 3 & 4. I know not eating is your choice (that's what I always say to people who get apologetic to me) but I think a bit of support from OH is not unreasonable.

Hope the conversation goes well and he's not already weating the cornflakes!

Well done on SSing success. I think just having 1 extra pack is definately progress. Compare that to last weekend. Just how different do you feel - much less stuffed, and if you're not you should be dead proud!

Have a good weekend hun, I'll check back with ya later x.

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yo-yo

Just posting to say thanks to anyone who has read my diary so far and goodbye.

I won't be posting on it anymore as OH snooped and read all my posts while I was out yesterday.

I feel so hurt that he felt the need to do so and really don't feel able to write any of my derranged thoughts and feelings on here anymore. I won't be able to be totally honest if I know that he will read it - and being able to be honest, without the fear of being judged, is why I found it such a help.

Thank you to everyone who was on hand to offer support when I needed it. I've felt understood (sadly OH - not by you - just incase you're reading this!) and it has been really nice to feel that way.

Will still pop on and see how everyone else is doing though.

Sarah - I really hope you can crack it xxx

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westiegirl

Yo-yo.

That is the saddest news that I've had all weekend! How horrible that your trust has been violated!

Please don't be a stranger on here even if you're not writing your diary. I will miss you so much! You sound just like me. It's always nice to have that outlet for all the emotional crap that goes on in your head. I have always kept journals (since a 14 year old) and they are very precious and private to me. The thought of someone else reading them makes me cringe. Luckily my ex was very supportive and would have never dreamed of doing such a thing.

Good luck and I think that you can crack it too.

I will really miss ya hun :booh oo:.

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fitter at 51

Hi i can so relate to your story . Mine was the same until i realized that like the alcoholic i am addicted to sugar and once i eat anything with sugar ( i avoid white flour,rice and pasta ) so after my weight loss the the G.I diet suits me)i crave anything ediable or what ever is around. I would do anything for my fix so now i avoid it like the plague i dont want to spend any more time,head space energy and life now that i have the solution. Sorry if it sounds a bit serious but well done on all your hard work and the forum is fantastic.
Love Simone