Thread: I feel

Fat
Frumpy
Worthless
Invisable
Old
A No-body
Miserable
UGLY
Lethargic
Lonely
Alone
A Recluse
Stupid
Sick Of Life
A Failure To My Kids!!

Sorrry To Be a Miserable So & So On My First Post but i want To Feel Alive!! I Don't Want To Conquer The World Or Win The Lottery well Mabye I Would Like The Latter. I Would Just Love To Feel Alive Again i can't remember the last time i looked forward to something. Anything!! I eat when im Hungry Angry Upset Happy ( althought can't remember last time i was truly happy) emotional down lonely tired i could go on and on!

Im 39 now and feel?? Well to be honest i don't know what i feel apart from the obvious (above)
Im numb.

I seem to have lost all motivation!

Thanks For Being Patient

Ronnie

Gosh Ronnie - I'm really sad to read how low you sound. Have you been following a plan and come up against a brick wall? or not started a plan yet? Or just finding it too daunting to even contemplate?

We're here to listen and offer support so please vent whenever you need to.

Sending hugs your way xx

Thanks Russiandoll,

Thank You For The Support.

I have been on every plan there is i think and i seem to have lost all confidence in them all im not a person to sit down and be open with my feelings so writing them down on here seems the next best thing.

Yes i seem to have come against a brick wall it's as if oh well im Forty this year so what's the point?? I really don't want to feeel like that but if only it was that easy.

Thanks Again

Hi Ronnie

Sorry to hear that you are so down on yourself. I bet if you asked your kids/friends/family to come up with some adjectives to describe you there'd be lots of positive lovely ones in their lists! Try to see yourself as I'm sure others must do.

I'll start you off....
I think you are brave to bare your soul here and tell us how you are feeling. I also think you are intelligent as your post is well written with good grammer and spelling! There you go, I know these positive things about you and we've only just met!

Hugs

No problem Ronnie - we're all here to get each other through this as best we can ... and I'm sure when I'm down you'll do the same for me (I seem to remember being down a LOT last year!)

As for being forty so 'what's the point' .... there's EVERY point. In 2006 when I was 44, I managed to lose a good amount of weight on CD and di many things I hadn't done since I was a kid ... I went swimming (which I hadn't done for 20 YEARS!), I rode a horse, I went on a funfair ride and went to a studio to have pics taken. I know these don't sound like huge things but to me they were a real breakthrough.

Unfortunately, I've regained most of what I lost but am ready to have another go ... the memory of how it felt to be so liberated is still so fresh that I want to be there again!

I know you've tried almost every plan but you might have tried them at a time that was just wrong for you and if you had another go, you may see some real success.
You'll get TONS of support on here (and god knows we need it) and can post every hour if you want: there will always be someone there to reply.

You can reach out and grab what is rightfully yours Ronnie - a more fulfilled life where you don't feel all those negative emotions ... you just need the right plan and the right support.

Keep posting and keep reading the inspiring stories ... very soon I'm sure you'll feel ready to take the plunge again.

Sorry of course it's not all about turning the big 40 i suppose im using that as an excuse to carry on the way i have the last 20 years!!

I would live to change my life!

I would love a busy life i seem to thrive on being busy but unfortunatley that's not very often mabye once every year if im lucky!

Originally Posted by Russiandoll

No problem Ronnie - we're all here to get each other through this as best we can ... and I'm sure when I'm down you'll do the same for me (I seem to remember being down a LOT last year!)

As for being forty so 'what's the point' .... there's EVERY point. In 2006 when I was 44, I managed to lose a good amount of weight on CD and di many things I hadn't done since I was a kid ... I went swimming (which I hadn't done for 20 YEARS!), I rode a horse, I went on a funfair ride and went to a studio to have pics taken. I know these don't sound like huge things but to me they were a real breakthrough.

Unfortunately, I've regained most of what I lost but am ready to have another go ... the memory of how it felt to be so liberated is still so fresh that I want to be there again!

I know you've tried almost every plan but you might have tried them at a time that was just wrong for you and if you had another go, you may see some real success.
You'll get TONS of support on here (and god knows we need it) and can post every hour if you want: there will always be someone there to reply.

You can reach out and grab what is rightfully yours Ronnie - a more fulfilled life where you don't feel all those negative emotions ... you just need the right plan and the right support.

Keep posting and keep reading the inspiring stories ... very soon I'm sure you'll feel ready to take the plunge again.

I was posting same time as you, sorry.

Thanks and i will gratefully return the support you have given me tonight god knows we all need it!

Im rooting for you and will be following your progress every step of the way.

Im off to bed now but will be reading all about your journey in the morning.

Good Luck we all need it

If you're not getting all you want out of life Ronnie, then it's in your hands to change it!

In 2005 I was a 43 year old housewife with a part time job in a catalogue shop. I was bored, unhappy, unfulfilled - frankly going crazy with frustration!

Here I am at the start of 2008 in my second year at University studying English and History. ME ... a career mum and ex-hospital cleaner at Uni!!
I went to college in 2006 for a year to get the qualifications I needed (I left school in 1978 at 16 with precious few qualifications) and then took the plunge. I graduate next year (hopefully!) and then - who knows? Maybe teaching - maybe something else.

Yes, it's very difficult - we're constantly skint because we now have to live on one income but the positives outweigh the negatives.

Don't wait for life 'to happen' Ronnie ... MAKE it happen.

Originally Posted by Cheb

Hi Ronnie

Sorry to hear that you are so down on yourself. I bet if you asked your kids/friends/family to come up with some adjectives to describe you there'd be lots of positive lovely ones in their lists! Try to see yourself as I'm sure others must do.

I'll start you off....
I think you are brave to bare your soul here and tell us how you are feeling. I also think you are intelligent as your post is well written with good grammer and spelling! There you go, I know these positive things about you and we've only just met!

Hugs

Thanks Cheb

Originally Posted by Russiandoll

If you're not getting all you want out of life Ronnie, then it's in your hands to change it!

In 2005 I was a 43 year old housewife with a part time job in a catalogue shop. I was bored, unhappy, unfulfilled - frankly going crazy with frustration!

Here I am at the start of 2008 in my second year at University studying English and History. ME ... a career mum and ex-hospital cleaner at Uni!!
I went to college in 2006 for a year to get the qualifications I needed (I left school in 1978 at 16 with precious few qualifications) and then took the plunge. I graduate next year (hopefully!) and then - who knows? Maybe teaching - maybe something else.

Yes, it's very difficult - we're constantly skint because we now have to live on one income but the positives outweigh the negatives.

Don't wait for life 'to happen' Ronnie ... MAKE it happen.

That's fantastic Russiandoll you must be so proud of yourself i like your quote Don't wait for life 'to happen' Ronnie ... MAKE it happen. I really should i know.

Hi Ronnie and welcome to Minis. Its a great place for advice, support and help.

Whatever diet you choose, I wish you success. My lopsided way of thinking is "if I don't succeed and give up, what's the alternative - stay as I am, put on more weight and get even more negative about myself" This is what saw me through.

The answer is in your hands entirely hun, and you will get all the support, encouragement and above all friendship from this forum.

Sending you lots of hugs xxxx

Thanks Cheryl i was a bit down on myself last night but today is another day so no more feeling sorry for myself i just wish i had someone to give me a massive kick up the backside it's what i need right now

I've just re-read my post and think maybe it sounds a bit harsh ... I didn't mean it to. I'm not barking an order or preaching - honest ... it's hard to convey feelings in type isn't it.

It's hard to contemplate changing things if our heads aren't in the right place but once you make a move - however small - then everything else seems to shift too.

When I started college in September 2006, I weighed 19st 4lb. When I started CD 7 months later in March 2006, I weighed 18st 13lb. Now, that doesn't sound like much of a difference but my weight had stopped INCREASING and was even a bit lower despite Christmas and in no way was I dieting. I put that down to the fact I was challenging myself and doing something completely different.

I was taking 4 A levels and 2 GCSEs ... the only things I'd written in the previous 27 years were shopping lists and christmas cards!

Maybe you could think about making some small step in this new year to do something you've never done before - a class in something that you would never have thought of or even go the whole hog and enquire about college courses in September.

What are you doing now? What do you WANT to do?
There is NOTHING you can't do you know ... at 40 you have another 25 potential working years to have a go at something you've always fancied.

Hi RD

Ohh noo your post wasn't harsh at all that thought didn't even cross my mind.

Im not working at the moment don't think i could hold down a job just now i have a hubby and two kids he works full time but no i couldn't even contemplate getting a job or college courses at the moment. Im not as brave as you im afraid.

Hi Ronnie - I echo everyones warm welcome to Minimins

I'm 47 and had given up hope almost of ever getting thinner again having tried 'everything under the sun' but here a year later - much is different.

Diets are nothing but tools for getting from Weight A to Weight B - without support, motivation and guidance - it takes a rare person to do it exclusively on their own.

I too felt unable to talk about how I felt and why I was the way I was - even found it difficult to express the self -loathing I felt. However, here is an environment for 'letting it all hang out' so to speak - amongst those who are at all stages of weight loss

starting
Underway
nearing target
maintaining
slipping
restarting
in despair
etc

and to be honest - there are many who have gone through all of the above !

We all have one thing in common - a desire to be thinner. and another thing that most seem to have in common, is a desire to help others in the same boat. Sometimes it can be incredibly motivating in your own struggle, to help and advise others - and there are always plenty of people prepared to help in whatever way is needed (if its legal and non-financial LOL) - IF YOU ASK.

So good luck in getting underway in whatever way you choose

keep posting and asking for help (by PM if you feel its too much to openly ask) - post on other peoples threads to help and advise them

Read other peoples stories and threads - there are some stunners here

Start a thread yourself and be open and let it all hang out - no-one judges because we all have needed to do it at some time or other

And be successful and do it for YOU - my mantra was 'I deserve better' and its fine being a little selfish about this being for you

Hope to see and hear more from you