I began dieting at beginning of January 2011. I lost 97lbs (just under 7 stone) within the year, the first 5 stone came off quite easily within about 7 months, the last 2 stone I really struggled with plateau's and eventually give up. I need to lose about 12 stone, so I was over half way there, but completely lost motivation and can't get it back.
In 2012 I've put back on 5 of the 7 stone lost and I'm now feeling absolutely awful. I literally cannot stop eating. I'm binging every night, even driving out to the garage to buy large bags of crisps, large bags of sweets...I'm binging on white bread...takeaways (something I never ever ate even before beginning the diet in 2011). I just can't seem to get started. I tell myself every weekend I'll start on Monday and it never happens.
The weight has gone back on quite quickly, 5 stone in a year is a lot. All of my clothes are tight and uncomfortable, I've no motivation, I have no energy, am sleeping a lot, can't be bothered doing housework, definitely can't be bothered cooking, it's all such an effort. I work all day and then just binge all night until I feel stuffed and then I get angry with myself. Have just finished off curry, fried rice and chips from the takeaway, 3 slices of white bread and butter, 6 packets of crisps and 2 large cans of energy drink. Now I feel sick and am sitting here crying. I'm so frustrated with myself and I hate it.
I've asked for gastric surgery, I have to do 6 months with the LOSS team before they'll refer me. My appointment is tomorrow and I've cancelled it because I've put on about half a stone since I saw them last and feel bad. My appointment is now for the end of Jan and really need to pull it back, show them I'm committed, but I just can't stop. Am driving myself nuts with it.
Please someone kick my rather large arse into gear. This place kick started me in 2011, so am hoping it can do the same again.