Thread: what the hell am I playing at?

Just found your thread Artemis and can soooo relate to it.

Oct 05 I started LL then transferred to CD.- stuck to it solidly for 4 months lost 4 stone. Came off in February 06 11.3 size 12/14 having starting weight of 15.3 and size 20/22. Then last year was a s*** year for me, my mum was seriously ill, my brother was in prison etc etc etc. And I have ended up putting on 2 stone. I have messed about over the last 6 months gaining a few pounds losing a few pounds - and each time I gain I gain a pound more than I lose which = more and more of the weight I originally lost being eroded. It is soooo hard to get back on SS and I'd really urge anyone thinking of a "break" - DON'T do it!!

I'm restarting on CD SS next Monday and fully intend to continue for 2 and half months to lose 2 and half stone. Then I have some lessons to learn ....... like what do I do when I am stressed and want to binge to make myself feel better??? I have a cycle of feeling sad, followed by comfort eating to make myself feel better - followed by being sad because I've put on weight and so yes you've guessed I eat again because I'm sad.

Not sure this is constructive in telling you how to achieve it for yourself and think CC is right take it in managable time slots ... an hour at a time. You'll have all the support you need on here - so come on and post - let us know how you are doing, good or bad - and if you get it sussed you can help me next week!

Good luck and take care.

*hugs Flirtyeyes and CahChing and Geri*

Thanks for your support ladies. It means loads to me!!! Its comforting to know I am not the only one going through this. My developers gruop has dwindled to 4 people, everyone else seems to have met their goal.

Like you flirtyeyes I would have been at goal and well into management had I stuck with it.

I did fall of the wagon ladies, I had the worst period cramps and sugar cravings, infact I would have eaten one of you to get to chocolate. So that knocked me out of Ketosis and I put on 2lb on my weigh in last night.

Ive woke up this morning tempted to go to the sugar, but quickly dismissed it. Im not upset about the 2lb, I think mostly it was TOTM fluid (and poss my body getting used to Psyllium husks) , cos I had been doing well.

So today is another day, and I can get through it, Im feeling positive about it, and my choc/period monster is gone. I feel human again even my critical parent cut me some slack today.