Thread: Tracey's Diary. Slow and Steady - again.

Last night I ate 200 cals worth of sweets, I was so annoyed with myself - still today is another day and another calorie allowance.

I've been very good this afternoon and made 6 diet fish pies. 1 for tonight and the rest for the freezer so I've got a easy supply of meals. No excuse now if I can't be bothered to cook anything.

Tracey

OMG, What a last couple of days!

First computer went dodgy, it's been going worse for a while, going slower, curser freezing, and wouldn't switch off. Managed to save all my photos onto disc then had to wipe it completely, so now I'm in the process of reloading everything onto it.

I managed to get back onto internet but with no security. After about the 6th phone call to hubby asking where discs, leads etc are and how he set it up in the first place he got annoyed (can't really blame him, coz he's in a place where he has very little food, only occasional electricity and was being bitten to death by mossies), trouble is he's the only one I can ask coz he set it up.

Anyway, after he got annoyed, so I got annoyed and mucked about with the thing myself till I did it. What a job it was, balancing up a ladder laptop in hand because the lead they give you is about a foot long!

Foodwise I managed to be very good even though I felt like eating my way through the entire contents of the fridge. I must've drunk about 20 cups of coffee - I know it's not good for me but it was binge on food or coffee.

I have had a couple of weeks where nothing had broken so I suppose it was too much to ask for that to carry on.

Tracey

Bit better today - nothing broken as yet.

Menu today is

2 hash browns
2 slices bread with 2oz prawns and rocket
6oz salmon, 6oz new pots, carrots, cauli, sprouts

greek yogourt, tinned strawberries (in juice)

cadburys magical elf
225 cals for tonight

Tracey

Nothing to write really, other than to tell myself, 'stick with it girl - weigh-in tomorrow.' Writing this is keeping me on the straight and narrow.

Tracey

My stomach is rumbling. I think this is a good sign coz it means I'm eating when I'm hungry not all the time. Now, when was the last time my stomach rumbled? Dohhhh????????

Off to get a butty.

Tracey

Had another jelly sweet moment last night so 100 cals less for me today.

Food today

2 hash browns
2 slices bread, 2oz tuna
Fish pie

greek yogourt
strawberries
small glass wine

100 cals left

Did 30 mins on total gym - was ok, I put a cd on and the time flew by. The problem is not doing the exercise, it's starting it. Once I make the effort I'm fine.

Tracey

How stupid am I? Blackburn lost at football so I ate chocolate!!! I started today 100 cals down so now I'm gona do the same tomorrow. 100 cals down again!!!

Better go to bed before I do any more damage.

Night night

Tracey

So far so good today,

2 hash browns
2 slices bread, 1oz cheese, rocket on butty
6oz salmon, 6oz pots, loads of carrots

greek yogourt
strawberries
merangue nest; made into eton mess

150 cals choc (100 owed yesterday and 50 for merangue)

No more cals for me today but I feel ok about it - provided nothing goes wrong tonight. If I think I'm getting peckish I'll have a diet coke and go to bed.

Tracey

It's hard going this week - I've got lots of treats in for Christmas and everything seems to revolve around food. I suppose I'm making it worse for myself coz I'm daft enough to watch the food and cooking programmes.

I've even resorted to re-watching the football even though we lost. I can watch the soaps after this but no doubt they'll be eating on them as well.

Tracey

All the Christmas treats are still calling me. I've hid them all in a cupboard till my son comes. Yep, I will put a little bit of weight on over Christmas coz I intend eating everything he puts in front of me but if I can limit it to the days he's here and not start now that'll help.

The less I put on over the Christmas period the less I'll have to lose after.

Tracey

Well, here comes Christmas. I've decided no weighing or measuring now till next Monday. I'm hoping the last few weeks will have curbed my tendancy to pig-out on everything - cross fingers.

I've decided that the New Year is not as important to me as Christmas so I shall try to keep to my diet over the New Year coz I don't want to get too much into bad habits.

Come Monday all goodies will be put out of sight, I will eat them as my extras - just not all at once.

Tracey

It's Monday and I'm just about to move all the goodies out of sight. I've done the damage and I'm determined that's as far as it's gona go.

I'm quite pleased coz if I had waited until Christmas was over before I started I'd not have lost the weight I did do before Christmas. I think despite not sticking to my diet for the last 4 days, there's still been a bit of restraint there that wouldn't have been there otherwise.

The worst bit is now over - the weighing and the recording on here so let's get back on track.

Tracey

On track but only just, everything seems to be about food and drink. I've stuck to my meals today but it's like there's a little demon in my head telling me to eat more. I'm not even hungry! To be honest I'm still stuffed from my dinner but I just want to eat more. Why is it I can't think of anything but eating. My cat has got the right idea, he eats till he's full then stops. Think I'll have an early night, can't think of what else to do so I don't overeat.

Tracey

Am I stupid or what!

I know I'm only supposed to get weighed once a week but what do I do? Get weighed every morning of course!

On Monday, I had only put on 1 and a half pounds over Christmas and I was pretty dammed happy about it considering what I'd eaten. This morning I got weighed (after sticking to my diet since then) and OMG I've put about 3 pound on!

I'm now gona try really, really, really hard not to get weighed again till next Monday after the NY and everything else is over with.

Fish pie for tea so I think I'll put it in the oven and have a bath while it's cooking.

Tracey

2nd Jan 2010

To do List

Back on diet - done 2nd
Christmas tree down - done 2nd
Start exercise again
Clear out fridge ruthlessly

Tracey