Thread: my weight loss diary - Started again 18/07/2011 for good! still no sign of baby #2 :(

Hi, i think keeping a diary will really help me so here goes, well i have been big all my life, well insce i can remember, i was 10lb born so i guess it has been all my life lol i have been through it all being a fat child bullying, starving myself, depression, self harm, counselling etc etc. When i was 15 and around 14 stone, i got together with my partner, we had known each other since we were 11, my confidence soared, i didn’t think anyone would want me being like that. When i was 18 i was around 15 stone, i decided i wanted to lose weight, in a month a lost a stone, and then i got a big shock, i was pregnant, i was elated, young yes but we were both sooo happy, my pregnancy went fine, and the birth went fine, painful but the most amazing experience i have every had. After all of the hype of a newborn died down a bit, i looked at some photos and noticed a difference, i faced the scales and to my shock i saw 18 stone, i kind of forgot about it and being so busy with the baby i ate whatever i could get my hands on whenever i had time. 2 years later i faced the scales again 20st 10lbs, how could i have got to that, this was last November, i joined this site and started to lose weight with healthy eating and excercise. In 2 months i went down to 18st 13lbs. Then xmas and my 21st birthday came and started binging again and eating crap. At this moment i am 19st 13lbs and i am back to it again. I now have 2 incentives, my partner proposed on valentines day and we hope to get married in 2012, i don’t want to be a fat bride. We have been trying for another baby for a year and i think my weight is holding me back.
Anyway i will be logging my food and my feelings and also when it goes wrong as sometimes it does.
xxxxxxx

thought i would put up a photo taken before i started last november, at 20st 10lbs. at least i can look at them when i feel like binging and they will be here everytime i write here, so no escaping them lol

Hi Chick. Well done you for starting this journey, and I notice you have lost 11lb too... way to go!

Congrats on your wedding, you must have been thrilled when he proposed!

Keep up the good work, you'll be exactly where you want to be in no time!
xxx

PS - Cradley Heath eh? I come from Blackheath, but live in London now... Can't say I miss it mind

Hi Assj,

Just wanted to wish you good luck! You sound very determined and I'm sure will succeed.
I can so relate to the baby weight and after baby weight. With both of my pregnancies I put considerable weight on and more after births! All the hype about losing weight while breastfeeding and caring for your baby/toddler just wasn't true for me. I remember being so tired all the time that any food any time of the day would do just to keep the sanity.

Anyway keep at it and keep us posted.

Kat

hey, thanks for your replies. i am soo glad i am doing this. its hard work, but i need it. i am atm looking for a job as a care assistant so i think that will help me too, i am lucky enough that my partner earns enough and we have some small property that we rent out so i have been a sahm, but my daughter starts nursery in september so i am ready to get myself back into work. its quite exciting.
i am doing really well havent posted for a couple of days as my internet had been cut off due to some problems, but i am back today and will be posting my food diary later, i am going to be weighing in on friday and will post my loss too. it is my oh's birthday tomorrow so we will be going out for a meal eeeekk lol i have just about every restaurants nutrition page in my favorites though so should be okay lol.

I used to be a care assistant around there, did it for about a year, lost quite a bit of weight doing it too , I used to be under Halesowen, Old Hill and Blackheath. Good fun. I know the company I used to work for were always looking for new starters, they couldn't get enough on their books! You should have no problem finding a job in this field.

Have a great meal, don't worry too much, it's only once a year, just make sure you enjoy it. Where you going? xxx

did you? can i ask what company it was please?
not sure where we are going yet, maybe carvery, tis up the the other half really though. ooo i will enjoy it though, i love going out for dinner lol probably half my problem lol
yesterday i had

B: go ahead yoghurt breaks.
L: crumpets with low cal/fat butter
D: Beef casserole.
Snacks: Muller light yog

my food today:

B: 3 Jammy dodgers, pack of walkers baked crisps. (oooppps)
L: Chicken Breast, cucumber
D: Marinated barberque sauce chicken breast, brown rice and salad

Snacks: Walkers baked crisps, options hot choc, satsuma, muller light yog.

Bit heavy on the snacks today, i am feeling soooo hungry, not giving in though too much, need to think about getting back to the gym, but i just feel so self concious in there lol need to not overthink it too much.

i am half wondering whether to give myself one day every couple of weeks to have what i want and loosen up, atm i am getting low cal crisps and choc and stuff and eating it most days, now i am thinking if i am stricter every day and dont have any stuff like that, then one day every 2 weeks i can have that stuff and maybe a takeaway for dinner and a drink, etc. i think it will help keep me sane and the strict days will hopefully give me a better loss on m weigh in days.

I think alot of people do that kind of thing and it doesn't normally affect heir weig in's either as they have been so good throughout. Maybe if you hold back on around 2 points per day the week you intend to do it, then it won't feel like you have really done any damage when you do get to that "splurge" day, if you do go over them then it wouldn't be so bad, plus don't forget your AP's you are earning through exercise. xxx

yesterday's menu was.

B: Go head yogurt breaks (just one biscuit)
L: crumpets with low fat butter
Mid aft: 1 piece wholemeal toast with low fat butter
D: extra lean Minced beef and spinach in wholemeal pittas.
Snacks: Small yazoo choc milkshake, Muller light yogurt.

Weighed in today, and lost 1.2lb in just a couple of days, so really glad.

Tonight is going to be a true test as my other half will be at work so thats when i get bored and usually eat loads of crap, hopefuly tonight i wont.

Hi Assj

Welcome to the board and have just caught up on your diary I love a good weeding me hehehehe i can help! im a newlywed six months

The thing about eating bad on one day, you need to try make sure it doesnt go to two to three, im one of the people who have been doing this type of diet for the last few weeks and sticking to weekend eating only and cambridge on weekend and i was pretyt strict, but i went on holidays and have prob put on a few pounds.....will know at WI tomorrow hehehe

Either way , i say do it how you feel it will suit you best, only you know yourself your motivation and how you can yeild to temptation, there is no right or wrong way per se, you just need to find 'the way' for you and stick to it.

Keep up the good work and well done on the 1.5 loss!

Amber

Hey assj, just checking up on ya after just spending a week on Blackheath - How did it go on the job front? Have you found anything yet? Hope you're still going strong chicklett. xxx

havent been on for a long time, hey najh nah i havent found anything as yet, applied for a few places, and still looking around.
We have booked our holiday for september, we are off to tunisia and i cant bloody wait, i need a good break lol so its my mission to lose a few stone for it, i want to sit in the plane seat more confortably than last time, I am aiming for 2lbs a week with regular excercise, so i will be having 1900 cals a day for a while till i hit a go slow then reduce it.

welcome back! I was only thinking about you the other day (because my friend called and mentioned Cradley Heath) and wondered how you were getting on.

Very jealous of the holiday - Love North Africa and all it has to offer.

2lb per week is very doable, I am still hitting that mark so you (without sounding offensive, I hope) will have no problem and don't be surprised if you hit alot more than 2lb for the first few weeks.

Good luck with the continued job hunt, did you try prestwood in the end? xxx