The Only Way is Weight Loss!!

Hi everyone,*

I go by the name of Miami Brown. This is my THIRD! time at attempting weight loss and I'm back stronger and even more determined to lose this stubborn weight. Y'all know what I'm saying.

So my back story kinda goes like this. I'm a serial yo-yo dieter. A Reneè Zelweggar if you will (except I'll be obese for most of the time). It's been a real struggle to keep it off what with the teasing, the little snide comments and stares that I get from strangers, friends and would you believe family. Y'all know how it is.*
So anyway. I had great success at losing weight the "right" way. Bland food and exercise. I don't exactly know how much I lost, but I went from a size 20 to a 12. Needless to say I was feeling great. A lil too great because then I started to relax my healthy eating habits and exercise regime and quickly gained the weight back and then some after a year or so Of course breaking up with me fiancè sucked too so I just stopped caring.
Then last year, I decided to go back on this TFR (total food replacement) diet called 'Lipotrim'. Y'all know about that right? Right. So I went on that last year to lose some weight for my brother's first wedding. The diet was for 4 weeks but I only completed 3 because the last week would've been the week of the wedding so I kinda left my dreams of keeping the weight off at home while I was living it up in Jamaica and of course gained the weight back. I weighed 236lbs, and lost like 26lbs? So I must've been 240 or more lbs. I never checked.*
My second attempt came when I signed up to the gym. Everything seemed to be going great. My weight started at 107.3kg. *By week 2 I was at the gym everyday for 3 weeks! That's Monday-Sunday y'all. I'd be on that treadmill for at least 1 and a half hours just to burn 600kcals a day. But something went wrong. I wasn't losing weight the way I wanted to. Like it wasn't enough. I could see how toned my legs were but I wanted to be slim.... not Miss Universe. I was hungry all the time, but it wasn't like I wasn't *eating healthy. I had my porridge, grilled chicken, boiled potatoes, veg, salads... I was losing weight, but 2lbs one week after so much hard work? I was just done. The weight was just holding me back and I needed to see some results today.
A month later, I turned to my old friend, Lipotrim. *This time I was gonna do it. Week 1 as expected was tough, but I was determined. My weight started out at 104.4Kg, so I knew I had a long... long way to go.
End of week 1 got down to 100.9Kg. Week 2, 98.6Kg. Week 3 95.8Kg. Today I just weighed myself and I'm now 94.3Kg. That time of the month.*
Now that've I've cleared 4 weeks I know that I can see this through. Living on my own has made it easier and I've given myself time away from friends. Though I don't have much of a social life right now? It doesn't bother me because I have a goal which is for myself. I'm putting myself first for the first time in a long time. I have 5 more stones to go but I will do it. My love of eating food feels like a memory because all I can see is a slimmer, healthier and happier me. To think that my BMI rose from 36 to 37.5. I think that's what really switched me because I'm not ready to give up on life. I never feel like I can't go on because my determination, my reason for wanting to lose my excess weight is stronger than my desire for food.

Thank you for reading. And I wish you all the best in your journey whether you're just starting out, half way or close to the finish line. We can do this!

PS Keep in touch if you wanna follow my progress during my fifth week. Woo whoo!

Hi Miami

You diary had me laughing & nodding............we've all been there..........lose weight then relax & put it all on a again.

Keep going girl!

A lot of what you said I can totally relate to. I'm a yo-yo dieter too, lose a few pounds here, a stone or 2 there and put it back on. Good luck!
Ferne

Thanks ladies! You guys can do it to. Just stick to it every day and sure enough you'll be there where you wanna be! *Group hugs!*

OK guys. Today is the end of week 5 and in just a few hours I will be weighing myself for the 5th time since starting the Lipotrim program.
As per usual I have followed the strict programme and will expect, that since my *time of month* is over, to see a great loss of weight. At least 3lbs.
Throughout the week I have been eating the coconut and peanut flapjacks without feeling the need to skip meals. I feel completely satisfied, no cravings at all. I've drunk so much water which has helped greatly in my digestion as it should without taking laxatives. (You guys know what that's like!).
This weekend I thought it would be difficult to babysit my nephew since I had to buy groceries and treats. But so far nothing has changed. My "food reactors" have completely shut off which is brilliant. There's no "accidently" or "automatically" popping things I shouldn't be eating into my mouth. I am completely repelled. Also, I've managed to do a lil exercise. Just sit ups and press ups now and again to tighten the muscles so they're more visible as the lard that is my body fat, slowly melts away.
Already, people who haven't seen me since I started the Lipotrim have been shocked by my sudden loss of weight. And you know what? Doesn't it just make you feel good to know that what you're finally doing to lose weight is actually working? Well that's exactly how I feel. Just 5 weeks on this program and already a stone (be in water retention or fat) has gone! 5 weeks should feel like a long time, but it hasn't. My mind used to spend each day, all day thinking about food. And I know you guys reading this have been there too. Such a struggle. As soon as you open your eyes it's "What's for breakfast?" then mid morning you're still craving food cos that bland, healthy porridge or wheat toast just didn't cut it. Or perhaps that greasy bacon, sausage and egg got you wanting seconds. Then it's lunchtime, maybe I'll have a sandwich or a bag of fries....more snacks and then dinner with dessert all washed down with alcohol or your favorite fizz or fruit juice. Forget tap water!
Your mind constantly thinking about and desiring food. Now that I'm well and truly stuck in the lipotrim programme, many of those thoughts have left me and I find that I can concentrate on other aspects of my life.
Everyday I look in the mirror and I can see where the weight is coming off. Around my neck and shoulders. The other day I felt my chin rest on my collarbone when I turned my head. That kinda freaked me out. Normally I have soft padding, instead I got bone. I have slight concerns that my breasts will turn out like Grandma Klumps, so I'm mentally preparing myself. Also. I can feel a lot more of my ribs. It's been years since I've felt them, I wonder how I'll react once I really see 'em.
Each week I have something to look forward to about the changes in my body. I can't wait til I'm finally out of this fat suit. Each week I just feel stronger and more determined. The one thing that keeps me going is knowing that by the end of the week my numbers are dropping

Lol. Well done on skipping the "accidental" eating. I'm day 8 of a VLCD (optifast) and I'm not hungry, but food seems to try to creep into my mouth all the time! The worst is when i'm cooking for the boyfriend. I suddenly find a bit of cheese just inches from my lips. Sneaky sneaky food...

EllaC said:

Lol. Well done on skipping the "accidental" eating. I'm day 8 of a VLCD (optifast) and I'm not hungry, but food seems to try to creep into my mouth all the time! The worst is when i'm cooking for the boyfriend. I suddenly find a bit of cheese just inches from my lips. Sneaky sneaky food...

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Hi Ella,

I've never heard of this VLCD but it sounds great if you don't hungry. Day 8, you're still fresh on the diet and old habits haven't been kicked yet but hold on and try to get through to the end of week 2. But I think you're doing great!

Being around people who eat the foods you wanna eat makes us go crazy when we're just kick starting our new diets. Even if what we're eating healthy, we still want more. At least that was my experience after a tough gym workout
The best thing about the Lipotrim diet for me? is that by week 2? My cravings had completely subsided. Have you ever started a diet when your will power was so long that you kept putting it off just so you could have more ice cream? more chocolate? more fizzy drink...more takeaways and just more to the point where instead of trying to lose the weight you just kept piling it on because you had plans to lose it anyway? Well that was me just before I said April 1st. For 6 months I know I am going to be on the lipotrim diet so if I was gonna say goodbye to life long friends, Ben & Jerry? then I was gonna do it properly. But see, now I have even more weight to lose which is gonna take longer. How dumb is that? lol
I've got 5 more months to go and today's weigh in was miserable. However, I wasn't as devastated as I thought I would be. I lost 0.4kg y'all. Which is cool. Not quite a Kg but any weight loss is good. And I have been toning up so many my muscle mass has something to do with it. Doesn't really matter. As long as the numbers are going down rather than up and I don't feel like amma'bout to faint? It's all good.
I now weigh 93.9Kg and I'm really looking forward to seeing myself finally out of the 90's this May 2012z Imagine. I started out at 104.4kg and now I'm knocking on 80's door. Get in! Persevere and you will succeed.

What is it, my 5th?...6th week? and already I feel like throwing in the towel.
This week has been an absolute nightmare.

It all started when I my 5 yr old nephew came to spend the weekend with me as he often does (already you can tell where I'm going with this). Everything was going great. Until the disappointing results of my weight loss that week slowly began to irritate me just that lil bit more.

It's like. You know once you start seeing great results in your weight loss, it spurs you to go on and do even better, right? Like maybe taking up some form of exercise or doing more exercise...then you're all excited by the end of the week because you wanna find out just how much all that hard work has paid off, only to discover that it didn't really make much of an impact at all. And it wasn't even because you did anything wrong. Well, it just discouraged me and I did the one thing that I said I would never do on this diet. Cheat!

Uh! Just saying it out loud hurts me. Not only was I feeling depressed, I'd caught my nephew's cold as well. The chicken and the cupcake with the buttercream frosting was just there. I'd made it all for my nephew, but he couldn't eat it all. I tried to resist the cupcake but he kept telling me to eat it! eat it!
I looked at the cupcake. It was so pretty. I thought to myself, "I baked it. Why shouldn't I just taste test it?" With a fork I ate the cup cake piece by piece. It was like I'd committed murder. Yea. Murder to my LT diet. But it was hard to feel the guilt at the time because it tasted so darn good!
But it wasn't until I came back down to reality that I felt very ashamed, upset and guilty and without any further delay I immediately brought it all back up. Or at least as much as I could. But it didn't stop there. I went ahead and ate the baked chicken to. I reasoned with myself that it was better than eating a cupcake.

For the rest of the week I just behaved myself. Maybe I have gotten away with it! Still. I know what I did was wrong. I left myself down. Did I mention I also had a glass of whole milk with that cupcake too? Man. I was not playing. I mean if I was gonna cheat why not cheat good. Which I did and now I have my weigh in results in just a few more hours.
Last week. Week 5. I lost less than a pound (shaking my head). Week 6, let's see what it's gonna be.
I've decided that if I haven't lost at least a pound I'm gonna start the refeed week and trying some other weight loss programs.
I'm not gonna get back to the fat person I was. So I will continue to lose weight til I reach my goal by any means necessary.

Don't vomit honey! It's a way worse thing to do than eat a little cupcake. It damages your teeth, your oesophagus, your stomach. And by the time you've got it to your stomach a lot of the calories have already been absorbed. Digestion starts when you start chewing!
Don't beat yourself up. You're doing amazingly! And you've lost 6.6kg in a month! go you!

EllaC said:

Don't vomit honey! It's a way worse thing to do than eat a little cupcake. It damages your teeth, your oesophagus, your stomach. And by the time you've got it to your stomach a lot of the calories have already been absorbed. Digestion starts when you start chewing!
Don't beat yourself up. You're doing amazingly! And you've lost 6.6kg in a month! go you!

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Yea. I know all about bulimia. I had it at a very young age. I may have done some oral damage, but not enough to worry about getting a hole in my throat. I recognize that it is a dangerous thing to do, but what's done is done and I just need to keep pushing on

So! As you can see from my signature I got great news today. 3.8lb weight loss. Frrrrreakin' awesome is what it is y'all! Honestly I did not expect that. I don't know what my body is on. I've had a cold so I'm thinking maaaybe that had a little bit to do with speeding up the fat burning process. Yeah baby!
Obviously I'm prepared to see a drop in my weight loss next week, but as long as weight is being lost how can I complain.
It's been 2 weeks since I switched from shakes to flap jacks and I'm finding it much easier to stick with. Drinking at least 2 litres of water a day has been a doddel because the flap jacks are so dry (I mean seriously, what are these flapjacks made of? soaked discarded cardboard boxes mixed with peanut butter then dried?).

Anyway. I'm just so pleased with how the weigh in went down. It's given me back my confidence and even the staff are getting a kick at how the fat person I was 6 weeks ago is slowly deflating before their very eyes. So far not many of family members have seen me and I wanna keep it that way until I've really lost some weight. The best thing about losing weight is the reveal. I wanna shock them so much that they'll want to do something about their weight too. And if I'm doing it? so can they!!!

How are you going Miami? Haven't heard from you in a while.