Charlenes Paul McKenna Gasric Band & I Can Make You Thin, 90 Day Success Journal

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The Prodigal Daughter
Okay i've been away from here for a while and am suffering the consequences! I've gained about a stone since i was properly active on here and binged like a mofo'! Thats about to change though. I have been dieting and using MFP, but its time i learned to have a healthy relationship with food! I'm onto my second week of Paul McKenna's I Can Make You Thin (i think i'm on day 12). I'll know when i update this tomorrow or tonight! If anyone has had success with this i'd love to hear from you. It'd be great encouragement, which i'd appreciate!

Start Weight & Bodyfat:
11st 3lbs (157lbs)
39% fat
 
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Day 12

Not feeling the best today. I started this because I was getting too obsessive about dieting & binging a lot. I promised myself I'd stick this out for the full 90 days before going back to dieting.
Sounds great right?
Not when you're borderlining obesity with zero self-esteem. Not to say this is bad for self-esteem. Actually self-esteems one of my main motivators for choosing to follow Pauls method. All was going good until today... Or was it yesterday? It started with my remembering it's my boyfriends mothers birthday Sunday and we're going for a meal for it. That was bad until I realized they'd hardly comment on my weight.
But today we bumped into his friend (who I'm certain hates me), and he's asking Shane to meet up with him - which is code word for Nightclub. Yup... A room full of half-naked gyrating skinny girls. I spend my life in pyjamas or clothes that hide my bulges. Kill me. Just kill me now! Anyway I've come to the realization that I can't hide forever. I'm going to have to face social situations and people are going to know I've gained quite a bit of weight.
:(



Todays Average Success %:
72%

I ate when i was hungry? [50%]
I ate what i really wanted? [100%]
I ate consciously (20 bites)? [10%]
I stopped when i was full? [50%]
I left food on my plate [40%]
I drank water [2 litres / 100%]
I moved my body [9500 steps, 1800 cals / 100%] (anything above 1700 = 100%. Below = 0%)
I listened to the CD [100%]
I did the mirror exercise [100%]

One Positive thing i Noticed Today:
I found it easier than usual to relax after being majorly stressed.

What I'm Looking Forward To Tomorrow:
Improving my conscious eating.
 
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Day 13

My first two meals today were a failure. Firstly because i had to run to catch a bus, and secondly because I had a hot chocolate. I did get exercise though.
Meal 3 was a total success. Ate consciously, stopped when full, and didn't clean the plate. In fact, i still have half my dinner left.
Meal 4 was my leftover dinner, but I stuck to all the rules! Must learn to leave more food on my plate though.
Meal 5 was okay. Followed all the rules except 2: eating when I'm hungry - i mean, I THINK I was hungry, but it could have just been a craving. Also it was a snack bar so i ate the whole thing.. (I can make exceptions right?!)
My last meal was also more craving than hunger (chocolate, obviously). I ate slowly & consciously but didn't leave a crumb... :-/


Todays Average Success %: 66.5%

I ate when i was hungry? [33%]
I ate what i really wanted? [100%]
I ate consciously (20 bites)? [66%]
I stopped when i was full? [50%]
I left food on my plate [33%]
I drank water [2 litres / 100%]
I moved my body [50%]
I listened to the CD [100%]
I did the mirror exercise [100%]

One Positive thing i Noticed Today:
I avoided the scales when they were screaming to me!

What I'm Looking Forward To Tomorrow:
A day free of errands.
 
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Day 14 - Review And Renew

1. The best things that happened this week were:​
I craved bananas

2. My biggest challenges this week were:
Leaving food on my plate and telling the difference between hunger & cravings.

3. I did these things for the first time:
Complimented myself.

4. What I learned was:
I need to make an effort myself and not rely wholly on the CD to make me change my habits.

5. My top three priorities for the week ahead are:
-Eat consciously.
-Exercise more.
-Don't give up.
 
Day 14 - Review And Renew

Today wasn't bad since I managed to avoid a takeaway and bought yummy stuff in Tesco instead. I am scared though. I have my first weigh-in tomorrow, and to make things worse, I'll be seeing my boyfriends family who will see that I've put on weight. :( Though I could be okay and actually lose weight! My main hope for now is that my body fat has gone down. I'm at frickken 39% - that's way too fat! Gawd i need to stop being so negative.... This doesn't exactly help either: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/art...e-short-stay-New-Year-diet-little-longer.html

Todays Average Success %:
85%
I ate when I was hungry? [83%]
I ate what I really wanted? [100%]
I ate consciously (20 bites)? [83%]
I stopped when I was full? [83%]
I drank water? [100%]
I moved my body? [100%]
I listened to the CD? [100%]
I did the mirror exercise? [100%]
I left food on my plate? [16%]

One positive thing I noticed today:
I didn't order a takeaway when i was feeling lazy.

What I'm looking forward to tomorrow:
Eating extra consciously at Shane's mams birthday meal.
 
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Day 15- Today i weigh 11 stone frickken 4! :(

I weighed in for the first time since I started today. GAINED a pound, and I'm still 39% body fat. Can I just die now?? Or at least get lipo?! I'm too depressed for words. Like, i genuinely want to die. I'm going to have to start doing more exercise. From this day forward I'm aiming for 1845 calories burned each day. Not going to be easy... I need to start losing weight because i can't handle obesity. I wish i was at a weight where i could feel comfortable leaving the house... F**k sake, whats wrong with me. Can't even lose half a pound!
:mad:
 
Hey Sweetie. RawrGirl feels your pain. She is a major binge eater too. :( This is the first time in 14 years that she's ever come close to her goal weight...and she binged liked mad last night (4000 calories). Somehow we need to beat this...and figure out what is at the root of it. :sigh:
 
Hey Sweetie. RawrGirl feels your pain. She is a major binge eater too. :( This is the first time in 14 years that she's ever come close to her goal weight...and she binged liked mad last night (4000 calories). Somehow we need to beat this...and figure out what is at the root of it. :sigh:
4000 calories is my usual binge amount - though i've been known to go waaay over, on a regular basis. Doesn't help that I can't keep track of calories at the mo. *cries* I'm not sure i want to know fully what caused mine - i just want to beat it! Thats why i turned to Paul McKenna. Hoping lifting will save me at my next weigh-in!
 
Day 15 - Your first Check-in

Todays Average Success %: 81%

I ate when i was hungry? [66%]
I ate what i really wanted? [100%]
I ate consciously (20 bites)? [66%]
I stopped when i was full? [83%]
I left food on my plate [66%]
I drank water [2 litres / 100%]
I moved my body [52%]I listened to the CD [100%]
I did the mirror exercise [100%]

One Positive thing i Noticed Today:
My hair felt nice.

What I'm Looking Forward To Tomorrow:
My Mad Fat Diary & Eastenders


What I've already noticed about how things are changing:
I'm drinking a lot more water and beginning to focus on exercise.

​TODAY I WEIGH:
11st 4lbs (39% body fat)
 
Day 16 - Accentuate The Positive

I lifted weights today for the first time in months. I should have never stopped because I'm gone so weak & unfit! I can't wait to do it again Wednesday. After my horrible weigh-in yesterday, I've decided I'm going to buy Pauls Hypnotic Gastric Band and do it along with ICMYT. I need to succeed for once. Also met my OT today for the first time. Seems like she's really gonna help me get my life back to that of a normal 24 year old (crippling anxiety prevents me from doing things). I did mostly good today, though at my main meal I ate past my full signal. I'm so weak!
 
Day 16 - Accentuate The Positive

Day 16's exercise is to think about something I'm unhappy about in my life, and to come up with at least 3 ways it could be seen as a good thing. So here goes!:

1.
I'm unhappy about my weight.
a. It keeps me warm
b. It defends my bones from breaking.
c. Women won't get jealous & attack me if their man looks in my direction.




And here's my daily stats:

Todays Average Success %: 91%

I ate when i was hungry? [100%]
I ate what i really wanted? [100%]
I ate consciously (20 bites)? [83%]
I stopped when i was full? [66%]
I left food on my plate [83%]
I drank water [2 litres / 100%]
I moved my body [100%] I listened to the CD [100%]
I did the mirror exercise [100%]

One Positive thing i Noticed Today:
I stopped eating Ben & Jerry's after a few spoonfuls.

What I'm Looking Forward To Tomorrow:
Entering a few giveaways.
 
Day 17 - Eliminate The Nagative

Today was productive. I went & bought the Hypnotic Gastric Band - another McKenna book. I'm not giving up on ICMYT but I'll need to make allowances for the HGB. For instance, starting tomorrow & lasting -2 weeks, I've to go on a preparatory low fat/low sugar diet - just as if i was undergoing the physical surgery. I'm excited and nervous. I usually eat like a drunk stoner dog. This low fat & sugar thing is totally alien to me!! I'll be living on sugarfree jelly & Weight Watchers soups! I'm not sure if i can have fruit but hope i can!!

Todays Average Success %: 75%

I ate when i was hungry? [50%]
I ate what i really wanted? [100%]
I ate consciously (20 bites)? [50%]
I stopped when i was full? [35%]
I left food on my plate [50%]
I drank water [2 litres / 100%]
I moved my body [50%]
I listened to the CD [100%]
I did the mirror exercise [100%]

One Positive thing i Noticed Today:
Muscle pain from yesterdays workout.

What I'm Looking Forward To Tomorrow:
New glasses!
 
Day 18 & Gastric Band Prep Day 1

So I'm supposed to eat a low sugar low fat diet this week - which basically means no fast food. Also I have to walk 20 minutes each day - i can do that effortlessly 'cos I'm always busy. Ooh just remembered I've pre-cooked chilli & bolognaise in the freezer so yay! Cooking from scratch is gonna annoy me but i guess it has to be done... Sugarfree jelly & Philly & Ryvita will be my only friends this week!

Weight at start of preparation diet:
159.25lbs (11st 5.3lbs)
40% fat

Another gain? Really?! Ugh... This hypno-band better work fast or I'm gonna have to starve myself to death...:cry:

Todays Average Success %: 78%

I ate when i was hungry? [100%]
I ate what i really wanted? [100%]
I ate consciously (20 bites)? [80%]
I stopped when i was full? [60%]
I left food on my plate [60%]
I drank water [2 litres / 100%]
I moved my body [100%]
I listened to the CD [100%]
I did the mirror exercise [0%]
I ate without distractions [80%]


One Positive thing i Noticed Today:
I was very motivated!

What I'm Looking Forward To Tomorrow:
Relaxing!
 
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WOW!!...I was glued to your diary :) but can I just say something... Give yourself some slack, step back and look at the full picture and stop being so hard on yourself maybe keep away from the scales for a while that way they won't have the strength to dictate your mood with what it shows on the dial, don't be your harshest critic :) xx
 
WOW!!...I was glued to your diary :) but can I just say something... Give yourself some slack, step back and look at the full picture and stop being so hard on yourself maybe keep away from the scales for a while that way they won't have the strength to dictate your mood with what it shows on the dial, don't be your harshest critic :) xx
Aw thanks! I thought I bored people to death. <-----oops there i go again being hard on myself! Its second nature to me. I need to stop though. I only got on the scales to keep a record of my weight before the preparation diet. I could be weighing myself weekly for the next two weeks but after that it'll be bi-weekly. Fingers crossed this thing works tho 'cause i'm so close to getting actual surgery!
 
Low sugar (and low carbs) should really help. If you want tips (RawrGirl personally was gutted and desperate back when doing WW and barely losing anything despite 100% on plan and jogging 3 miles a day 5x a week), you can try the following. If you don't, ignore the rest of this post. :p

Keep your net carbs (carbs minus fiber) to around 25-30 grams and your protein to around 80 grams. That will pretty much dictate your fat and calories (your calories would be around 1000-1200 a day unless you went wild on pure fat stuff like oil, butter, mayo or full fat salad dressings). Then, start lifting weights either 3x a week total body, or 6x a week alternating with upper body one day and lower body the next. Don't worry about cardio at this point, unless it's just walking or something light that doesn't require alot of oxygen (you don't want to be panting).

This may sound like the opposite of what you've heard, but if you are keep your carbs low, you don't want to do aerobic exercise as that requires carbs. And if your body doesn't have carbs, and you do aerobic exercise, it will break down muscle to convert to carbs (less muscle = lower metabolism). Also, I'm sure you've heard anything below 1200 will also lower your metabolism, due to the dreaded "starvation mode", but if you lift weights (as heavy as you can with correct form for 12 reps, break for a minute, then repeat 2 more times), you won't lose muscle due to eating less, because you are building it right back up again. In other words, let's say eating 1000 calories forces your body to lose .25 lb of muscle a week but you lifted weights all week and built .25 of muscle. Therefore, you're body didn't lose any muscle and your metabolism stayed the same. (This is why it's important to make sure you get 80 grams of protein a day, to feed the muscle.) But since you are still eating less than your body requires, it has to pull that energy from somewhere...it's not pulling it from muscle because you're not doing cardio; it's not pulling from carbs, because you aren't eating enough carbs to create energy (just the very low amount needed for proper brain function -- about 25 grams); thus, all your body's energy to function, digest, walk from house to car, wash dishes, etc. is pulling straight from your fat stores. You are basically living off your fat (called Ketosis) even when you're sleeping. (When you first drop your carbs, it takes about 3-4 days to get into Ketosis.)

That is what RawrGirl does, and for the first time in 14 years of dieting, she finally got back into her size 8 jeans (after being a 12-14, every now and then a 10), and is now at her lowest adult weight (129, previously lowest was 138) and a never seen before size 6. No other plan ever worked for her...14 years of struggling, losing very little, giving up discouraged, gaining weight...and then she found the above plan (based on a medical study), and dropped over 25 pounds in only 4 months.

So, it's just a thought, in case you wanted to give it a go since you are trying low-sugar anyway. :)
 
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