Diary of a boredom eater....this is my story.
I've never really been overweight until just recently. I used to be the girl that could eat what I wanted and never put on weight...up until I was 18 I was a size 10-12. I turned 18 and started drinking heavily, resulting in the next day 'hangover food'. The more I drank the hungrier I was the next day. I got into the habit of eating junk and lots of it. I got into a vicious circle...
Hate my size
I find that I eat loads when I'm bored or sad and working in an office 10 hours a day gets pretty boring, so it got to the point I was munching constantly throughout the day. If I wasn't eating at work I'd be hungry when I got home so I'd walk to the shop and buy food I didn't really need whilst dinner was cooking and then stuff my face. I'd then proceed to eat dinner after eating sharing bags of crisps and big bars of chocolate.
I have no excuses for why I eat the amount I have done. It just seems to be that bigger I get the worse my eating habits get. I've decided its time for change in my life. I'm a lot happier now in my life than I've been for a few years, all thanks to an amazing boyfriend coming on the scene. Now I don't feel as miserable about everything I think it's time to change. I am doing this for myself though as he says there's a big difference between wanting to lose weight and needing to lose weight (he says I don't need too;he obviously doesn't know the difference ;))
I've started the Tesco's Ultra Slim shakes this week (04/03/2013) and I'm going to see how this works for a few weeks then decide whether I need to adapt what I'm doing.
I've gained over 4 stone in 2 years and previous attempts at WW have failed. I managed to lose 11lb in 6 weeks there but then put that all back on over Christmas 2011 and then gained a further stone and a half in 2012. Whilst doing WW I kept a diary myself to track how well my days had been etc, however I didn't find it very useful. I feel like if I keep track on here, other people will be able to see it and will be there for advice and support, helping me stay motivated.
So this is me. Sian, a 20 year old girl, 14st 5lb with lack of will power.
Monday started off a good day.....not. I woke up late for work and therefore didn't have time to make my shakes up for the day. I took the stuff with me to work and mixed one up at lunch time when I started to feel hungry...note to self, shakes do not mix well with a fork - The shake was disgusting and lumpy and could only manage half of it. I wasn't overly hungry so just kept drinking water and made it through the rest of the day on water. Got home and was so hungry I couldn't decide what to eat (I cried about it) and ended up cooking chips, Yorkshire puddings and gravy. (My comfort food)
I went to bed and decided I'd try again Tuesday.
Tuesday was a better day! The boyfriend phoned me when he got in from work to make sure I woke up. (He's on nights this week so gets in at 6am) I got up and got ready for work, making two shakes with a blender. Had one shake at 10am and one at 1pm on my tea break and lunch break. They tasted so much better being made with the blender. Had a raisin and oat bar(89cal) at 3pm, then came home and had a jacket potato, tuna and salad at 7pm. I drank lots of water today aswell and this seems to stop me feeling hungry.
Feel as if I've had a good day today so I'm looking forward to feeling the same this time tomorrow night!