Today is the first day of my diet. Im serious this time!
My current weight is 217lbs.
My goal weight is 140lbs or thereabouts dependant on clothes size and overall shape and appearance.
This means I have 77lbs to lose, 77?? Is it just me or does that seem like an unachievably large amount? I will get there, I have to, for my health mental as much as anything else.
I have a food plan, I am calorie counting while also watching carbs and cutting down fat/salt.
Now to just make a tiny confession - I'm an addict, a diet coke addict, its like liquid gold I genuinely cannot get enough of it, however I need to kick this.
So my daily food plan looks a little like this:-
Breakfast - Bowl of Museli
Lunch - Sushi/Salad
Pm Snack - Fresh Fruit/Veg Sticks
Dinner - M&S Eat Well Ready Meal
This is not a rigid plan from now til goal, this is to control my portion size as 90% of my problem is not being able to recognise that I am full.
Right now I look in the mirror and I am disgusted, how did i let myself get this big? I've always disagreed with 'nothing tastes as good as skinny feels' and my body is a bleak reminder of this.
I'm not happy in myself, all I can think of is my fat chin and my enormous stomach 3 children in 4 years did nothing to help my body image and gave me a much welcome excuse to pig out, and my gosh i did!
I love takeaways and eating out, mainly for the social side, me and my friends have always included lunch/dinner into our plans to see each other and who wants to pay £10 for a salad when you can get a burger and chips, right?! But this has to stop, I have to be confident to say no. No to the last doughnut, no to the childrens leftover nuggets, just no no no!
Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels!
Well thats misleading, i do not want to be skinny, i do not want to have visible ribs or hip bones. I want to be curvaceous but small, think Kelly Brook.
I want me back, the sexy confident fun girl that I seem to have lost somewhere along the way, maybe she's hiding under a few takeaway boxes :/
I never wanted to be this big, it was never my intention but thats what happens when you eat constantly and dont even think about what damage you are doing.
WOW this is a long essay! I've even bored myself! So this is me, my story xxx