Fighting my demons

Raq2014

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Hi Everyone,

Hoping to start Exante 100% from tomorrow.

Ok time to write the truth and face my demons. Right now i'm scared, scared of failing yet again, scared of being fat all my life, scared of charging towards ill health and an untimely death - leaving my son without a mum. I know its supposed to be "easy eat less and burn more". So why can't I just eat less and move more... Oh dear this is getting to heavy even for me! I'm crying but don't know why i'm crying or why I can't just eat less calories than I burn.

As I embark on this journey I promise myself intend to update my diary regularly even if i'm failing maybe just maybe i may learn something.

I feel positive today that tomorrow i will be 100% - wish me luck x
 
If it was easy none of us would be here :)

You are not alone. We're all here looking out for eachother because we all need support.

I think people fail because they don't really want it enough at that given moment. So you haven't really failed in the past - you just didn't want it enough to fight for. And it is a fight! As soon as you really want it more than anything else it will happen.

Very best of luck xx
 
Thanks Blondcat, you may have hit the nail on the head x.

This morning an acquaintence was making polite conversation talking about the weather etc when out of the blue she said you should go on a diet. She then proceeded to tell me how many calories she thought I should be consuming. Normally I would have been really upset but instead I have come in and looked up what is happening in the local gym. Off to aqua class tonight and feeling excited. So thank you lady you made my day ;-)
 
on PC now so can see your stats. Our start point almost the same!

I cannot tell you the difference between 11st 11 and 10st 3 - that was a really big change for me :)
 
Thanks Blondcat, you may have hit the nail on the head x. This morning an acquaintence was making polite conversation talking about the weather etc when out of the blue she said you should go on a diet. She then proceeded to tell me how many calories she thought I should be consuming. Normally I would have been really upset but instead I have come in and looked up what is happening in the local gym. Off to aqua class tonight and feeling excited. So thank you lady you made my day ;-)

And btw - that's a bit bloody rude of your friend !! Cheek!!
 
Blondcat our stats are very similar. You have done really well. Fab losses.
Yes so called friend is a bit rude but then she's just said what most people probably think..
Well I went to aqua aerobics thoroughly enjoyed the class. First class in about 9 years. Hope I can keep it up. Feeling quite hungry but strangely satisfied. The day is nearly done and I've managed to control what I put into my mouth :)
 
Blondcat our stats are very similar. You have done really well. Fab losses. Yes so called friend is a bit rude but then she's just said what most people probably think.. Well I went to aqua aerobics thoroughly enjoyed the class. First class in about 9 years. Hope I can keep it up. Feeling quite hungry but strangely satisfied. The day is nearly done and I've managed to control what I put into my mouth :)

Slow losses!! Haha

5lbs in July, August and September!

But it all adds up and at our weight it makes a massive difference !

I flirted with getting in the 9s for ages and am doing exactly the same with the 8s! Just need to break through this plateau! Worked so hard this week - it better pay off!
 
Blondcat slow and steady will win ;-) . I agree even small losses make a fair a bit of difference. Im sure you will be in the 8s real soon.
Thanks Sandrews91 - I know if it was that easy then we would all be at our ideal weights - i was just fed up and it was all "oh woe me". Pulled my self together now and had chat with self:D

1 kg off this week - hope to lose another this week.
 
Blondcat slow and steady will win ;-) . I agree even small losses make a fair a bit of difference. Im sure you will be in the 8s real soon. Thanks Sandrews91 - I know if it was that easy then we would all be at our ideal weights - i was just fed up and it was all "oh woe me". Pulled my self together now and had chat with self:D 1 kg off this week - hope to lose another this week.

Well done - a great loss :)
 
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