Hi everyone. I'm in my late 30s and really quite fat
I've just been feeling worse and worse about myself lately and something happened the other day that just spun me around and I've got up with the will to really do something about my weight.
I haven't been on the scales for months but must weigh around 220 -230lbs judging from the size clothes I'm having to buy (20-22 UK size) and I just feel awful about how I look. Every time there is a social event (that I should be enjoying because I like going out and dancing and being with people), I dread finding something to wear. Or I buy something new and feel great in it until I catch a glimpse of my reflection and think "who am I kidding"...
It's now at the stage where it is affecting my confidence at work and with clients - I've recently moved to a new location and have the opportunity to really make a splash in my career, but I need to be full of confidence to do it.
The problem was every time I felt rubbish, I'd go and eat to feel better. Obviously this isn't working for me as a solution! A few years ago I lost 60lbs and got down to 180lbs so I know I can do it and I know I look GREAT when I do but after an injury I couldn't exercise for nearly 2 years and have piled it all back on again. I look with longing at the lovely clothes I wore as a size 14 and how confident I was. For me, the main thing is a) my mindset b) determination/motivation c) support of others.
So what's happened? Well completely out of the blue, I ended up talking at the works Christmas drinks with someone I'd always quite liked from afar and he told me that he thought I had a lovely smile that lights up my face - that he shouldn't say it but he was just going to throw it there and see what happens.
Needless to say I was gobsmacked It's been so long since someone chatted me up or paid me a compliment like that. We were interrupted by others but his parting words were "I have to go before I do something...that smile of yours is killing me" (he's quite a serious guy - not a flirty tease at all). It was the push I needed to get going and make the outside match how I am on the inside - flirty, fun, outgoing, friendly, dancing, sporty, up for a laugh. And then when I'm happy with me, we'll see if it's got me anywhere with him
For the first time in a long time I feel strong enough to do this. I thought - why wait until after Christmas? And all of a sudden food doesn't seem to have the hold over me - I can suddenly take it or leave it. I haven't eaten chocolate or crisps or junky snacks since the "compliment bombshell".
So the plan is to cut down on how much I eat, try not to mix high GI foods/carbs with proteins and get back to running again. I'm going to see if I can build up to running 5k on my treatmill then build up to 5k a couple of times a week and go from there.
I would really really appreciate support and encouragement as it will make all the difference and I'd love to get to know people here on the board and help you on your weight loss journeys as well.