Diary of a sicknote

victoria1

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Hello!

I am going to use this wonderful site to keep my diary. I was a very active member some years ago while at SW, it honestly helped me immensely. I have rejoined with a different username because that was my old life and I have became a very different person. Marriage and life got in the way and I well and truly fell off the wagon.

I have some health problems, a chronic pain illness and an Iron overload problem. Also I am diabetic and have PCOS. My diet is not for everyone and I can't follow any other diet plan because of certain foods I can and can't have.

I changed my diet last year. It was not due to my weight but because of pain, although I was very big. I wanted to put into practice all the information I had gathered re foods linked to pain. I was taking a considerable amount of pain medications, about 150 tablets per week which is scary to think of.

I had not exercised for 5 years, because of pain which made my weight worse, I ate terribly, I was unhappy, my marriage was abusive, I ate more, got more pain....it was a cycle.

The first day getting back on my cross trainer nearly killed me. I did 2 minutes. That was my goal and I did it. Within a week of no painkillers apart from co-codamol, my new diet and exercise, I was on it like a car bonnet for 30 mins every day. After 1 month it was an hour every day.

I lost 7 stone within months and felt unreal. I fell off the wagon again, something happened within a relationship I was in that turned my world upside down. So now 5 months later I have regained about 1 stone and with Christmas my diet has been terrible. I am chewing painkillers like sweets and its time to have a change.

I am going shopping tomorrow to stock up on the things I need so officially starting on Tuesday. As I said, this isn't all about my weight. I need to lose approx 4 stone to be considered healthy but its about pain and how I can control it.

My diet is mainly raw fruit and veg and a large cooked meal in the evenings with a small amount of meat. If I can't pick it or kill it then I won't really eat it.

I can't flippin wait!
 
Keep up the good work, you can do it!
 
Thank you!

I took the brave step of standing on the scales this morning. I knew I had put on half a stone since the summer when my life went a bit boobs up but I've comfort ate... a lot. I've gained another half stone over Christmas. I'm actually ok with the extra stone, it could be worse.

It is a lot easier to go from the weight I am now to say 10 stone, it was a daunting task for me when the scaled screamed 21 stone. Small steps, like everything in life.

The one thing that will actually hurt my heart and soul is giving up coffee again. I can almost feel tears lol. It is a big contributor to pain within the body, for me anyway so goodbye Mr Americano.
 
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