I don't want to be 25 and 25 stone!

Ok,

So I have been advised to complete a diary to help me only weight loss journey.

I'm Kelly, 24 from Chesterfield, Derbyshire.
I work in insurance in a job I enjoy.

I've struggled with my weight and body images for about 14 years. At the moment I'm in a very determined place as my weight has started to have a huge effect on my life especially my healthy. I've always been active but recently this has dropped and I've noticed I'm out of breath so easily.

I've tried every diet possible from
Slimming clubs such as Weight Watchers and Slimming world, to fad diets, meal replacement products of which Juice Plus made me very Ill.
I always do well for a little while then fail within weeks.

Maybe the thing I haven't said it's the most important, I have an eating disorder or I'm a food addict which ever way you would like to put it. I've been a binge eater for years now and it's only recently I've realised it's a compulsion I struggle to control. It was always considered I was an emotive eater as I've had some emotional trauma throughout my life, but this is something I feel is incorrect. I am currently waiting for an appointment with the eating disorder clinic.


After my most recent visit to the doctor, I started taking Orlistat last Monday and I'm using this along with My Fitness Pal app which I am having some success with at the moment. The dr advised me not to weigh myself as it may lead to psychological actions based on the result but I know I've lost approx 10lb this week.

I welcome comments, advise, and questions!

I hope you will follow and help me on this journey, because I don't want to be 25 and 25 st!

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Welcome Kelly.

I think some other folks on here have had success with Orlistat - I guess you have to be very strict or face the er, consequences of the medication's side effects right ?! You are very young and have your whole life in front of you so now is the perfect time to make the changes and change your life

I can sympathise with your binge eating as once I start I am like a savage! I think the thing that has prevented me from ever gaining too much weight is the fact I don't do it often. Like once or twice a week and the rest of the week I am literally the most motivated, disciplined person in the world. Talk about a split personality!

It's great that you've been referred to someone to actually address that - I think that's the key.

So very best of luck, and if you stick around on here they'll be plenty of support here for you.

Cat
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hi Kelly,

good luck with orlistat, it certainly looks like it's helping you to lose.

Hopefully whilst your taking them you can start to deal with your food issues so that when you are off them you can keep on with the good habits.

mfp is a great app for keeping track of things too. .. Just be careful that you don't become obsessed with it all!

Hopefully your clinic appointment will come through soon and help with your plan.

xx

Hi Kelly

Welcome to minimins

Sounds like you've started at a good time and are taking steps to control your weight, 10lb already is amazing - well done!

I find having somewhere to talk about weight loss and keep track of it really helpful, I also like looking at the inspirational pictures people upload showing their losses. It gives me hope and perspective as sometimes I just wish I could unzip myself out of my fat self and be slim! Seeing how other people have lost weight reminds me that it takes time and effort, but is totally worth it

Hopefully your appointment with the clinic will come through soon so you have as much support as you need. Check out some of the other diaries and get to know some of the people, everyone I've met on here is lovely and very supportive.

Best of luck chick

Ali x

Thank you for the replies!

It means a lot, I honestly do feel this site will help me as I have support but not everyone understands how hard it can be

Thanks again x

A little bit of a downer today, my eating is still going great.

Here's the but I am in between sizes and brought a top in the smaller of the two sizes a couple of weeks ago knowing it would be a little tight but thought that's ok because I'm going to lose weight. Tried it on this morning and it's just as tight, I am unsure what I expected because I know it's not a miracle just expected it to be looser that's all. Oh well just hoping It fits better next week as I brought it for my best friends hen party which is a week on Friday.

I'm also looking for dresses for the wedding I hate being so restricted with clothes shopping, not only that but they are so much more expensive for larger sizes!

I will keep thinking .. I don't want to be 25 and 25 stone!

X

Well done on keeping up with the good eating! It can be hard when you don't see results as fast as you'd like but bear in mind that you don't want to lose too quickly otherwise you might be left with saggy skin. Please don't put too much pressure on yourself or you'll set yourself up to fail; I've done the same myself and ended up bigger and heavier than previous attempts to lose weight.

Maybe you could wait a while until you notice your current clothes feel a bit looser, or maybe get creative and make some adjustments yourself? I've taken in a pair of my work trousers as I don't want to buy another pair just yet. I know what you mean about clothes being more expensive - it's shocking really.

Do you have something else you could wear, just in case? x

It's horrible being between sizes. .. especially if you need to get something for a night out :-(

maybe try primark for something cheap and cheerful?

I like ali's idea of taking something in. ... Although it would be a disaster if I attempted it! !!!!

Thanks for the replies, Well I'm hoping it will fit but it's still in stock in the bigger size so I will just order that if it gets to that.

My eating is still going well... Got quite a few challenging days coming up.

Going out for a meal tomorrow night, away for the weekend this weekend and next which is my best friends hen party so lots of drinks here plus it's all catered for, then away on business and family meal! Very little control over my meals here! Going to need a lot if self control. I am worried I won't get back into it especially as I feel I'm doing so well.

Just about to have my random lunch, rivita crackers, tuna, Philadelphia and salad.

I'm doing this because, I do not want to be 25 and 25 stone!

X

If you can't control the food in your plate try and leave a little from each meal/course to cut back x

with drinks you could go for shorts with a diet mixer, if drinking wine have it with soda to make it last longer or have a diet soft drink between each alcoholic drink. ... You'll be less drunk and save on calories x

Where I can especially on restaurants I'm planning on having chicken or steak with potatoes or salad. Hopefully it will help me stay on track.

Great advice about the drinks too

Thanks

X

Well done for addressing how you feel and starting on your journey

I have to say I relate a lot to your original post as it felt like I had written it given the similarities.

How much weight do you have to lose Hun?

I understand what you mean Kelly, what helps me is remembering that just because it's on the plate in front of me doesn't mean I have to eat it all.

Part of the problem I had was with portion control, I tested it recently at my mums as she made a Sunday dinner for us and LOADED our plates, but I ate maybe half to three quarters of it. The longer you cut down your meal sizes the easier it'll get as you will feel fuller much quicker.

Another thing I've learnt was to make the meal last - slow down and enjoy each mouthful. After around 20 mins of eating your body releases a hormone telling your brain you've had enough x

Katie85 said:

Well done for addressing how you feel and starting on your journey ? I have to say I relate a lot to your original post as it felt like I had written it given the similarities. How much weight do you have to lose Hun?

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Well I'm very glad that it's not just me.

To get to my goal weight I have 14st... Or otherwise known as a bloody lot!

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ali28 said:

I understand what you mean Kelly, what helps me is remembering that just because it's on the plate in front of me doesn't mean I have to eat it all. Part of the problem I had was with portion control, I tested it recently at my mums as she made a Sunday dinner for us and LOADED our plates, but I ate maybe half to three quarters of it. The longer you cut down your meal sizes the easier it'll get as you will feel fuller much quicker. Another thing I've learnt was to make the meal last - slow down and enjoy each mouthful. After around 20 mins of eating your body releases a hormone telling your brain you've had enough x

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I understand the portion control thing, I have already noticed my stomach must be shrinking, as in getting full or should I say satisfied on much less food.

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k333oly said:

Well I'm very glad that it's not just me.

To get to my goal weight I have 14st... Or otherwise known as a bloody lot!

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It's not just you, I am currently 24st so I have a similar amount to lose. Seems like a mountain to climb doesn't it?

Katie85 said:

It's not just you, I am currently 24st so I have a similar amount to lose. Seems like a mountain to climb doesn't it?

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It really does, I'm not one for regrets but I do think it would have been a whole lot easier at 15 st. Oh well not a lot I can do now other than stick with it.

I wish you a lot of luck!

X

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It really does, I'm not one for regrets but I do think it would have been a whole lot easier at 15 st. Oh well not a lot I can do now other than stick with it.

I wish you a lot of luck!

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no point looking back as you cannot change it, just look to the future I wish you a lot of luck too .. As we are on the same journey then you can message me anytime if you need any help, whether it's to rant or for inspiration. Things are often easier when you've got help x

Katie85 said:

no point looking back as you cannot change it, just look to the future I wish you a lot of luck too .. As we are on the same journey then you can message me anytime if you need any help, whether it's to rant or for inspiration. Things are often easier when you've got help x

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Katie you'll think I'm a loon and just looked to see if you had a thread so I could subscribe and offer some support and posted but just realised it was a really old diary, sorry!! Xx

Katie85 said:

no point looking back as you cannot change it, just look to the future I wish you a lot of luck too .. As we are on the same journey then you can message me anytime if you need any help, whether it's to rant or for inspiration. Things are often easier when you've got help x

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That's brilliant Katie, and feel free to do the same! It's extremely comforting to have support

You are a star! X