Thread: ups and downs and catching up - FatFairNForty(ish) - my diary

I'll have to continue this later.. as Sarah needs the pc.. so.. part 2 of NYE to follow! (sorry - I know it's a lot to plough through.. but I want to get it all out.. lol - there's stuff about my first hub..about 'Eric'.. about my step-sister.. and that's without the events of the evening!!! Arrfgh... no wonder I've put it off!! See you later xxx thanks for hanging in there with me on all of this.. xx

Blimey - that was a week ago!

Ok... potted history time!! (if that's even possible for me!!)...
31st Dec was first hubs' (the one who died) birthday, so always a bit of a lump in the throat so that made me a bit emotional and we (the girls and I) talked about him a fair bit.. lots of lovely memories though of bygone parties.. cakes baked (I used to do novelty birthday cakes.. all kinds.. kiddie ones to um.. adult ones ).. past friends.. family..etc etc. So a reflective day..
In the morning (as you know) I visited my mum and darling stepdad.. not sure he realise who we were but he is a poppet. Think I told you all what my mum had to say and how chuffed I was.. ahh.. Eric! Eric lives about 10 miles from my mother so I called him and asked if he would be in as I had his Christmas presents with me and was planning to drop them off.. he was out visiting family so I said we (the girls and I) would leave them in his porch. He suggested that we meet up for a drink in the new year so I can give them to him in person.. I said ok if I didn't have time to deliver them (knowing full well I was gonna drop them off and skedaddle! lol). That's what we did.. the girls and I, having left mums we shot over to Erics and left the parcels on the doorstep. BEFORE that though I managed to spend some time with my stepsister 'P'. She is going through a dreadful divorce at the moment. Very complicated - lots of stress and not aided by a snotty family, unsupportive stepmother (my mum, who is doing her best it has to be said, but has no compassion for P at all... she has her reasons..but it makes for a hard environment as P is staying there at the moment!! - how complex this all is! lol).. anyway... P usually lives in NZ but is over here trying her level best to sort out divorce and I could see it's taking it's toll on her. So I managed to sneak upstairs and give her a hug and spend a few minutes letting her get it off her chest. She so desperately needed someone to talk to who understands how she feels.. she isn't a bad soul but is very misunderstood.. as soon as my abscence downstairs was noticed I was summoned so had to wish P well and exchanged email addresses so she can sound off at will! I feel sad for her. Her ex has poisened the kids against her and in a big way, despite their having lived with it all these years... anyway.. I feel for her. Right, onto the evening.. wore the sparkly top I bought with Mich, with a pair of smart black trousers and some dolly shoes (if you know what I mean). Not the most comfy footwear for me, but it looked smartish. Felt very fat though.. and not in the mood to go out. Felt I had pre-TOTM belly on me! Well, anyway.. picked up Lucy and went to the party! What a shock.. lol.. walked into this massive room to see loads of oldies! lololol Lucy (at 36) being the youngest there!! DJ was in his late 40's if he was a day.. and , well, it wasn't very inspiring but hey, we were there and determined to have a good evening!

We asked the barmaid to recommend a table (it was all 10-seaters and loads were already seated!).. as we didn't know a soul! We sat with a couple who were, as it turned out, the best company! We laughed loads.. they drank loads.. lol.. we heard all about their trip to the Erotica exhibition at the NEC.. (or was it Earls Court?) and what that involved! lol (checking diary now whilst I remember!)

Music was ok, bit too much of the old jive and rock n roll for my tastes, but, me and Lucy strutted our stuff with the rest of em! So much so my foot was screaming at me by midnight.. Auld Lang Syne was fun.. linked arms with a bunch of strangers but a lovely atmosphere. Just after midnight my mobile rang and it was Mr K.. I scuttled into the chair cupboard and had a lovely chat and Happy New Year chat with him I was so thrilled that he had managed to call as I knew it wasn't going to be easy for him. Zoe texted me to say she had won £50! (turns out she had the lucky ticket for the door prize!).. that's my girl

Eventually we (Lucy & I) said our goodbyes to the couple we'd met and I took Lucy home.. she did look amazing in her red beaded bustier. I got in and Sarah was still up (she didn't go out because she was really sick with some bug!).. had a hug and then she went to bed! I jumped onto msn and had a wonderful talk with Mr K. In the end I put the web cam on (Sarah & I talk on it all the time! lol) and he was so complimentary, so he has the advantage now.. he knows what I look like proper! I only have his photo and, it now transpires, it is an old one!!! So really - I haven't a clue what he looks like!! There was also a love poem waiting for me in my email.. I was so moved.. it was lovely. Got to bed, finally, around 3am!

New Years Day... can't really remember it much to be honest.. Mr K rang me first thing in the morning... made me smile. Then I got the call that you know about. My lovely friend Debbie had a stroke. I can't say too much or I shall get upset again.. but you will recall it was (and is) a massive shock to all. None moreso than Debbie! In the afternoon I logged onto MSN hoping to see Mr K when I got a message from an old contact from last year.. asking me what I was doing . His name is David. He lives somewhere in Norfolk and is full of flannel.. lol.. if I were to give him a nickname it would be towelhead! (coz of all the flannel).. he whittered on about what a lovely day,.. would I like to go out on his boat for the afternoon.. blah blah blah.. well, to be honest... I can't even remember talking to him that much.. and it was yonks ago..and it was just msn for a day or 2 and I didn't have him on my msn list.. so not altogether sure how he messaged me??? Anyway.. not interested in anyone other than my Mr K so blew him out.. lol Think he was a bit taken aback (flannelheads tend to be that way if you don't just do what they want, or so it seems.. tendency for macho arrogance there! ).. so wished him Happy New Year and did the offski (blocked him from seeing me online.. lol). I could hear mutterings eminating from the living room by this time.. SKY had stopped working!! Oh quelle horreur (or however you spell it)..

Sarah was NOT a happy bunny.. so.. everything switched off and the good old reboot thingy done and all was restored.. just in time for Half A Sixpence.. I LOVE that film and am seriously thinking of buying it on video or DVD if I can get it. I could watch it again and again.. see, I'm a soppy mare!! Love a good story, musicals a fave, and romance too! Ahhhh...

Had a distressed call from my sis, her latest beau was playing silly beggars.. *sigh.. why does life have to be so complimicated!??

The rest of the day was spent on here, on the phone finding out how Deb was and then telly watching before going to bed and worrying about going back to work on the 2nd!

2nd January 2007
Bless him. Mr K woke me with a call Went to work in a bit of a daze, did sod all, when I got home I rang NTL to pay my bill and then moaned about the late fee they had charged me when I had already paid! They refunded me so that was ok in the end (bit of festive spirit still hanging around I think.. lol)... to be continued....

January 2nd.. continued.. (sorry, I know I go on.. but one day I might want to print all this guff out and hand it to my girls.. lol.. or just read it back to remind myself I had a life once! ROFL)..after work (where I did sod all) I had my first session at the gym.. well, let's just say.. my instructor has set me a hard task BUT,. he was lovely and very encouraging and I did break into a sweat and realised how incredibly unfit I truly am!! After over an hour doing Treadmill, Rower, Cross trainer, stretches and the recumbent bike (I like that bit.. get to sit down! lol).. he talked me through some of the machines.. and the resistance work and weights I'll be doing... now THOSE are what I want to do most as I want to try and help my skin go back to how it should be.. I realise it won't be THE solution, but I want to do all I humanly can to help my body adjust. Anyway.. by the time I left I was exhausted.. not invigorated... lol.. just thinking about all the things I still had to do at home.

Still worrying about Debbie I was pleased to hear a little encouraging news about her (she moved her toes). When I got home the kitchen looked like a bomb had hit it!! So... as no-one else home/awake (Sarah had gone to Northampton to visit her mate and Zoe was asleep).. I cleared it all up. The evening flew by, not quite sure how.. but I must have just got on with things as I can't recall doing anything else.. I did go over and have a chat with my mate Lisa (she with the complicated love life).. and then it was time for Desperate Housewives.. (which I LOVE!!).. so, forced myself to stay awake and watch that.. hee hee hee.. then off to bed.

January 3rd 2007
My lovely morning caller rang to wake me and it was off for another wasted morning at work.. I can't believe how de-motivated I feel there at the moment. I'm hoping it is just post-Christmas blues or something.. it didn't help that TOTM arrived just about on the stroke of blooming midnight New Years Eve/Day morn! So not feeling my best in any case! Got a call from the girls.. out of leccy again! At this rate it's costing me about £5 a day!! I keep telling them to turn off lights, unplug everything.. but when I get home the house if Blackpool flippin illuminations and every telly is on, the pc is on, 3 lights in the study!!!!!! and all the bedroom lights are on.. phone chargers plugged in and switched on but no phones attached.. you know the kind of thing! lol

So.. moaned about that and had to go to the shop and get the key loaded up again! Was due at Ailsa for weigh in but because Sarah had missed her bus to meet me at work I had to race home, pick her up and then haul her into Northampton town centre to meet her mate., then hurtle down the A45 for me weigh in.. thankfully Ailsa is a diamond and when I rang to explain she was very forgiving! Got to her place about half an hour later than planned (or it might have been an hour..) anyway.. got on the scales and discovered another 2.9lbs had gone! I was well chuffed and, when she had done her calculations.. we worked it out that another 4.4lbs and that will be 5stone in 12 weeks!! I was well chuffed! (Must be all the dancing I did New Years Eve!!) lol

Sarah texted to ask when I could pick her up on my way home, then Zoe rang to say she was finished at college (in Northampton) but was getting a lift to Welly (Wellingborough) and could I pick her up from tescos... lol (got a great memory from the car park there!! involves a very dishy bloke and lots of tongues! ROFL ),, anyway... moving swiftly on.. lololol... fetched Sarah, picked up Zoe and headed for home! Sarah had been shopping and had gone to Contessa and been fitted for a new bra! I was so impressed as she raved about the difference it made to her shape.. and I recalled how I was when I got my Jordans under control at last t'other week.. lol

Once home she did a fashion show.. lol.. she bought a gorgeous bra and brief set AND a nightie for under a tenner in the Contessa sale!!! (She's a great bargain hunter!).. so.. as I was going to get her a new bra from the shop in Rushden, I gave her the tenner and was well chuffed coz she saved me about another fifteen quid! lol

Really can't remember Wednesday evening.. probably spent it on here.. lol.. so you have escaped my rambling on about that! only a slight reprieve though as I am only onto Thursday!!... lolololol

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Good Luck. If you realise you can't stand him and need a "gotta go, family emrgency" call then let me kow, I'll happily oblige.

You probably already know this, but meeting IRL is diferent to SMS / chats / MSNing. You're getting to know him all over again, but this time face to face eye to eye. Please be careful, regardless of what you know.

Have a fantastic time.

Thursday Jan 4th 2007
Hateful kind of day.. haven't said as much, but on all the other days I was in a very very reflective and emotional frame of mind.. not entirely sure why, perhaps the fears of a potential relationship with Mr K and that feeling of sailing into unchartered territories.. and , as I wear my heart on my sleeve I am scared witless of being hurt again.. and all the memories of lost loves, old hurts and stuff like that is cramming into my head!

On top of all that.. I am worried about my nana.. when I spoke to her over Christmas she sounded very down and not at all herself.. said she was tired and that even getting out of bed in the morning was hard work these days.. so I resolved to visit her when I go to the Toon at the weekend. I know its a major detour.. but she is the only nana I have.. indeed, the only grandparent I have left. She'll be 94 this year! I was also down as I had to drop Sarah off at the bus station... it's been good having her home.. but I am glad she is going back.. just would have been nice to have her here a bit longer..

We (all 3 of us) had to get up early to leave in time to get to Northampton station in time.. thankfully my lovely Mr K rang me very early and I was up and ready to go by 7.. the girls managed to get in the car by 7.30 (which was cutting things fine).. I got sarahs 2 suitcases in the boot and we set off. Got stuck in traffic (rush hour into Northampton starts at about 7!).. and I was beginning to panic as to whether we would get there in time! We arrived at 8.20am! The coach was due to leave at 8.30!! Quickly unloaded the cases and bid Sarah a very tearful and tight-hugging goodbye. Felt so horrible watching her get into the lift.. getting all teary-eyed now at the memory! (daft cow I know!).. she's such a long way from home.. although she calls Falmouth her home now.. and that's ok... coz it is.. and I am very very proud of her.. I love her so much.. (oh Lord,,.. am bluddy crying now!.. but I do.. and I am.. and she's my little girl all grown up.. and working.. and living 300+ miles away.. and I miss her but at the same time I can't live with her full time again.. mass confusion reigns in this emotional bucket head of mine!!

Anyway... Sarah off.. dropped Zoe at college and then headed to work in even more pensive mode... heavy day ahead.. lots to be done...still not done any packing for the weekend!! Got to work and sat Zombie-like at my pc.. staring at the screen and logged on here.. going to have to stop doing that though.. I feel guilty about not doing any work so might not put in any hours even though I was there and did answer some calls and do a few teensy things... rushed home at lunchtime and necked down a tomato soup and a muffin (have to have 2 packs no less than an hour before going to the gym!)... so did that.. got changed for the gym and dashed off there...did my hour, sweated heaps.. didn't feel too bad and did better than on Tuesday so looking good for future trips.. although I struggle to remember the stretches I have to do! He had to show me (again) lol.. He's got the patience of a saint! (I know.. you have to when dealing with me., lol). So.. gym done, sweaty betty now.. and it's a mad dash home to get washed and changed before keeping appointment with the Doc. I made the appointment especially to ask if I can come off my BP meds. I have only had high BP since the day my ex hubby left me. I am convinced it was partly stress, partly the whole shock of it and hugely emotional response, and, partly my size! (although never had a prob before with it.. except when pregnant with Zoe and had a mega row with neighbours over their damned car tooting habits of an early morning.. and I lost the plot.. stormed across the road and jabbed at their doorbell and screeched at them like a freakin banshee!!! Umm, needless to say.. my BP shot up, they never did the car tooting thing again in the morning and Zoe had to be induced... ROFL).. oh, and I would hazard a guess that they might have needed a new doorbell as I would have put a mechanical bell push testing machine to shame that day!!

Anyway.. that was reason for seeing Dr AND I wanted to warn him to let the local trust know I would be hankering after some surgery when the weight is gone and that forewarned is forearmed so to speak

My appt was at 4.40.. I got there in time.. didn't get to see him until almost 5.30!! lol Thing is, I always have the mindset that it doesn't matter how late he is seeing me, if he is willing to give the time needed to his patients then I can wait as he will do the same for me if I need it too.

I love my GP, he's a lovely man. So understanding and so nice, speaks honestly and frankly too, and that, I like and appreciate (as you might have guessed.. lol).. so.. I walked in and his face was a picture! lol (I haven't seen him much since he signed my medical form to do the diet!).. lol He was delighted and told me how much better I looked, asked me how I felt, was I hungry, how was it all going... how was my love life.. lol.. he always asks that and what contraceptive / protection I use.. ROFL.. (chance would be a fine thing!! lol ) .. he seems to forget I don't need contraception any more.. lol.. but I'll let him off as he wasn't my Dr then.. so.. we chat,.. he looks at my notes and is amazed to see that at one point in the last few years I weighed over 150kg.. and now.. according to their scales.. less than 120! lol (I like their scales but I ignore them.. lol.. Ailsa's are the only ones that count now). So we talk about the girls, my life.. I tell him about Mr K.. lol.. he is shocked that things ended with last years man.. (that's how out of date he was on my life.. lol) and then I get to the nitty gritty.. and I am stunned! I thought he would say, ok, let's reduce the dosage but no.. he tells me that my bp has been great and nicely stabilised and that the dosage I was on (25mg a day) is so small that I can stop taking the tablets immediately! I am so chuffed! I grin like the Cheshire Cat and tell him I could kiss him but won't ... LOL.. although I love my GP it's not in THAT way!!! lol

I can't help grinning as I tell him about the cpap machine and my time at Leicester General hospital, and how I can't wait for them to discharge me.. especially as I have lost almost another 2 stones since the study.. and the girls told me I don't snore in the chair if I fall asleep there anymore.. (It used to be that if I nodded off they would wake me and make me go upstairs as they couldn't hear the telly over me!! and even then they could hear me from upstairs!!!!).. so.. that's another positive

I left that surgery on cloud 9 and the promise that I will continue to see the nurse and have my BP monitored. Also, he said the trust have no funds for the surgery but who knows.. when they do the new budgets they might allocate some.. only time will tell... but.. as I hope not to have it done until next year (or maybe this Christmas during time off work?).. then I can wait.. and if I have to wait even longer then so be it.. but I will have it done.. and, I know it sounds daft to some, but if it means re-mortgaging the house to do it then so be it! (MUST get a new job though!).

So.. VERY happy about that outcome.. got home and started packing for the weekend.. rang my mum and sister and told them the news and spent the evening on the phone to Mr K too. He was delighted for me and very impressed too He has a weight problem too (I think he will be about the same build as the chap I went out with for 9 months last year...).. will let you know after I meet him!!

Sarah rang to say she had got back ok and that one of her flat mates was there and she was really glad to see him. They had pizza and were going to watch dvds.. she has loads! lol I think the other students treat her room as a cinema.. lol She's so happy there. It's wonderful.

Anyway.. moving on.. or will get emotional again! lol TOTM was continuing and I felt VERy bloaty bloaty, and emotional.. still lots of memories whirling around.. must be the time of year.. maybe its Deb too.. as loads of great memories about bike rallies and weekends away together came to mind.. know what I mean??

Ok.. we're getting closer now.. lol Still with me??? (Jeez you've got staying power! )

i'm still wiv ya

Friday January 5th 2007

Took the morning off in the hope of being organised enough to set off at midday to Newcastle (via Scarborough to visit my nana).. Mr K called again in the morning and that set the tone for me.. He's such a darling. Loaded the car up with mega suitcase complete with 3 tops to choose from and all other necessary essentials.. CD packs, mug (travelodge mugs are way too tiny for CD!).. water flavouring, bouillon, made 2 muffins (i know, I know,, there is a 15 minute rule but I couldn't face 2 and half days of only soups! lol).. so made 2 of them and wrapped them in foil.. also took phone chargers, straighteners.. every toiletry known to man and some not! lol Jeans.. socks.. pants.. (all big sucky-in-da-flabby-belly ones!), me gorgeous red bra.. scarves, gloves.. (well 'tis cold oop north tha knows..).. nanas extra Christmas presents.. maps.. books.. (Peter Kay one.. dying to get into it but determined to finish book I'm struggling through first).. more maps.. water.. perfectly clear strawb & kiwi... chewing gum.. kitchen roll... well., you get the picture.. Remember (thankfully) that washer bottle is empty and struggle to remember how to open bonnet (have to twizzle ford badge, insert key, turn one way, then the other - all very complicated!!).. then identify washer bottle filler bit.. and then it took 2 litres!! Didn't have a lot of screenwash so its very diluted (must make a note to buy some more although I think there may be some lurking in the shed...)... managed to get of roughly on time.. filled up the car, zeroed the trip.. oh, cleaned the kitchen up again and left message on the blackboard for Zoe asking her to ensure house was clean and tidy on Sunday for when I got home but promising to give her several hours notice of my impending arrival! lol.. posted a final toodle pip type thing on her and then off I set! (route kindly sorted by Sarah, on her laptop whilst I was topping up washer bottle and scribbling notes at same time! - mega- multi - tasker eh. lol)..

So.. off up the A45, A14, M1 and A1 I went! In a funny kind of mood.. anticipation, nerves and a little bit sorry I wasn't going to be able to msn with Mr K and also get on here all weekend.. knew that might make SSing a bit tougher as I get so much support on here and also BIG time from Mr K (in a completely non-pressured way I hasten to add.. lol).

Put on some great music (Terry Shaughnessy, then Brian Houston.. then more of their stuff as I have loads of cds in car) lol.. Got to the turn off for York (A64) in good time as roads pretty clear for a change.. and headed east to Scarry-bow-row (our pet name for it).. drove to my favorite viewpoint first.. it's right where that hotel slid into the sea a few years back... and the view is stunning.. I love it.. and my nana's home (residential not nursing) is on that road.. got there at 3.50 (exactly 205 miles from home) and went in to surprise her.. well.. she was surprised.. lol

She was, at least initially, very pleased to see me, but soon reverted to type.. I told her my news, gave her love from my girls and my sis and her boys... gave her her presents... told her about coming off all my tablets since starting on the diet.. talked about the girls.. and about my neice who is expecting a little girl in May and who they are going to call Emily (such a pretty name).. and how well my mum looked and although Edward (my step dad) is clearly never going to improve, he still seemed in good spirits.. that covered most of the visit and after an hour I started to make noises to leave as I still had a fair journey to go, and by now it was pitch black outside and I was beginning to feel tired...

When I stood up she said.. "Oh, you have lost a little bit of weight haven't you" (bear in mind I've not seen her since way before I started on CD!).... and continued with.." still, you were a tremendous size and you never walked you know, you waddled!" and that was that.. her thoughts and views done and dusted.. I was extremely hurt but smiled through gritted teeth and simply said., yes.. that's right, I was. I couldn't get out of there quick enough and remembered why it was I had no compunction to visit her in November when mum last went up!! I bade her farewell and for the first time in years of visiting her, I wasn't sorry to be leaving her behind.. I feel bad for that but you know what.. it wouldn't have killed her to say something nice to me for a change.. just this once... just this once...

So, very deflated and tired, I left for the onward journey - one I had never driven before.. and I tell you now.. never again either!!! It was, as I said, pitch black.. the road was the A171 (I think) via Whiby and around to Middlesborough and along the A19 and back onto the A1 again. Nightmare road.. music blaring (party animal this time to pick up me spirits).. I set off.. 2 hours or so later I reached my home for the next 2 nights. The travelodge at Washington Services on the A1 Northbound. The girl on reception was lovely - so helpful.. gave me a ground floor room as she saw I had so much stuff with me.. in fact.. she gave me a disabled room as it was free all weekend.. the bathroom was enormous! the wardrobe half height which was ok except for my coat, lol.. and no tv remote but she soon got me one that would turn it on and off and volume up and down.. I didn't mind getting up and down to change channel.. was just glad to have got there in one piece! lol

I unpacked and rang my neice.. (she lives in Hetton-Le-Hole).. she was thrilled to hear I was in the area and promptly volunteered to jump in her car with hubby and 4 year old Joshua and come and see me (to save me doing any more driving) bless her..

Well, lol, their reactions MORE than made up for my granny from hell.. their faces were an absolute picture! lol (I haven't seen her for many many months., and, she told me later, although her mum had told her of my loss she couldn't picture what I would look like.. ).. lol.. they both stood open-mouthed as I ushered them into the room.. lol It was too funny.

Josh didn't recognise me at all and then kept calling me nana (thinking I was my sister) lol.. so.. we sat on the bed and chatted.. for hours.. it was lovely.. I gave them their Christmas presents.. I had bought Joshua Battleships.. (a game I adore!!) and promptly put it all together and showed him (very basically) how to play it. He was thrilled with it. David kept saying how amazed he was at the change in me and Claire just stared and said she had never ever seen me this size before.. which is about right as she is 21 and won't ever remember me this size because in her lifetime this is the lightest I have ever been!! (which is bizarre! lol)

They asked about the diet and I told them. David is a very large man, he is only 5ft 9 and considerably obese, morbidly so. He is desperate to lose weight now as he has become almost agrophobic with embarassment.. I felt very sad for him but told him that he has the power to change things and we had a lovely chat. If I had the money I would pay for him to do CD but I don't and they don't either.. what a shame you can't get it on prescription. He is out of work and has applied to loads of places but is convinced they turn him down because of his size, and you know what.. I think he'r probably right..

We had a bit of a heart to heart about lots of things.. and I really hope life improves for him soon. As for my neice - she looks wonderful.. baby due in May, she showed me the scan photos.. lovely! I went all gooey inside. .lol.. So good to see her looking so well, but a lot of responsibility for one so young. Married, one 4yr old and a baby on the way, only her income coming in.. not good really. Hope they will be ok. I'm sure they will, she is a strong woman just like her mum, auntie and grandma! lol

We agreed that if I wasn't too tired, I would give her a call in the morning and go shopping. They left and I had a lovely bubble bath and turned in for the night.. already very tired.. got a text from Mr K to say he would ring me in the morning.. I was chuffed about that.

I rang Mich and told her I was there and not coming out to play.. boring old fart I was.. wish I'd gone now.. lol.. anyway.. I didn't and instead I unpacked and went to bed (having had 2 muffins and a soup in the space of 3 hours.. lol).

Saturday 6th December

Toon time! Mr K rang to wake me.. it was so lovely to chat to him.. he told me that he missed me and that at 2 am he had sent me a text only to realise he had sent it to his ex who was asleep upstairs!!! lol I did giggle as he told me how he had tippy-toed up there and into her room, retrieved her phone from the bedside table, deleted the message, replaced the phone and tippy-toed back to his room.. LOLOLOL Bless him... lol lol I rang my neice and she came and picked me up and we set off for the Galleries shopping centre.. now.. I'm not really all that keen on shopping per se but I did want to get another pair of my hiking style boots, and in pink this time.. and what do you know! lol First shop I went into I got some! We mooched around the shops and Mr K called

Mich rang and we arranged to meet at 1.30 so we could have a natter before everyone else arrived.. I carried on shopping (spoilt my great-nephew rotten.. lol) and then filled up my neices car for her and went back to get ready for the afternoon.

What a freakin nightmare Newcastle is to drive in!!!! I can't even begin to tell you how much I hated that journey!!!

Despite Irene's sister-in-law (or might have been her sis) giving me directions I got totally and utterly lost.. everyone I asked sent me somewhere new and not where I needed to be.. in the end... and an hour and a half later (grrrrrrrr) I found myself being talked in by Irene (thank the lord for Irene!!) and I finally parked in a car park that was, at least, almost near where I needed to be!!

to be continued...

Hi honey

How the heck do you remember so much details about several days ago??? lol

I really LOVE reading your diary, it's so entertaining...

I TRULY hope that you and Mr K like each other in the flesh tomorrow cos he sounds ace!

Luv

Hi Jennie

Wow that's some diary entry, but fab reading as ever, hope you have a wonderful time tonight with your wonderful Mr K - he sounds an absolute sweetie.

x

Originally Posted by Summerskye

Lovely to meet you at the weekend, honey. What an inspiration you are! I was gob-smacked (genuinely! ) when I realised how much you've lost in such a short space of time. Truly remarkable

Good luck with Mr K - keeping my fingers (and others bits and pieces - no bluddy choice these days *lol*) tightly crossed for ya!

Love

Thanks Sharon, I'm really looking forward to seeing you again. Thanks for the good luck wishes.. tonight's the night (and I fully intend to play my cards right.. lol) and SO nervous and excited ! Tummy already gurgling... lol Same here on the other bits and pieces being crossed!!! LOL thanks though, seriously. Can't tell you how glad I am to have met you.

Originally Posted by cah-ching

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Good Luck. If you realise you can't stand him and need a "gotta go, family emrgency" call then let me kow, I'll happily oblige.

You probably already know this, but meeting IRL is diferent to SMS / chats / MSNing. You're getting to know him all over again, but this time face to face eye to eye. Please be careful, regardless of what you know.

Have a fantastic time.

LOL You know, I have read this post over and over and all that grinning and giggling has me in bits.. lol... it sums up perfectly how I feel.. lol

I know about the meeting IRL honey but you know what.. I would say exactly the same stuff to you too, and so I totally appreciate it Thanks, you are a sweetheart.

I will be very careful... my mate has my phone number.. and his too (little does he know! ) and I am gonna text her his car reg as soon as I spot it... lol PLUS I'm under strict orders to text from the loo to say Yay or Nay ...lol.. if Nay then she will call me with some emergency! lololol See... I got it all sussed... lol

Got such a good vibe about it though.. and I mean that.. seriously good vibe. Will get on when back later or mebbe first thing in the morning.. depending on how it goes.. and NO I don't mean if it goes well I will spend the night with him.. I mean.. if I come home on cloud 9 I will hop on and very briefly (yeah right) let you all know... if, however, things go pear-shaped I shall prob be back on again by 8pm! lol (meeting him at 7!!!!)

Can't wait to look in his eyes.. (soppy cow eh? lol).

Originally Posted by pandora

Jennie
1 - i look forward to reading your post so don't you DARE shorten them !
2 - way to go girl, your weight loss is fab !!
3 - good luck meeting Mr K, hope it is all you want, need, expect & so much more !!
xx

You are such a love, thank you As you can see, I took to heart your 1, and smiled in a kinda proud way about 2 and am very grateful for the comments in 3! lol

Will let you know!!!

Originally Posted by Karen1972

Hi honey

How the heck do you remember so much details about several days ago??? lol

I really LOVE reading your diary, it's so entertaining...

I TRULY hope that you and Mr K like each other in the flesh tomorrow cos he sounds ace!

Luv

Hiya Karen, thanks hon, I cheat at the memory thing.. I carry a little notebook with me and when something happens that I think I will need a word to trigger the memory I write it down.. seems to work.. it's a strategy I learned years ago when life was very stressful at work.. it helped me remember key points in meetings.. and phone calls.. lol.. so.. I just jot down triggers and they open the flamin floodgates! lol

Glad you enjoy reading my diary. I really hope we do too.. he does doesn't he? Hope he's as lovely in person as he has been in all those other ways..

Originally Posted by MadamDotty

Hi Jennie

Wow that's some diary entry, but fab reading as ever, hope you have a wonderful time tonight with your wonderful Mr K - he sounds an absolute sweetie.

x

Thanks MD.. am so nervous! Will write more later when home.. been working hard today (for a change).. loads to do this afternoon... gym.. weigh in.. then date!!! OMG!!!!!

Last night I didn't finish diary coz we had a series of powercuts! (always happens where I live) .. so VERY glad it was after I'd posted that last entry though or I would've been major league peeved! Still it forced me to go to bed! So not all bad..

Hi FFnF

Just catching up on your diary thread. What a memory you have! I can hardly remember what I did yesterday, let alone in such detail.

Hope you are still coming down to Portsmouth for the meet, as I can't wait to meet up with you in the flesh, so to speak!

Jennie
I hope you have a great day and let us know how it goes at Ailsas
Irene xx