bronski

Aww bless ya, yea, I bet Christmas was pretty rough. I'm glad you're enjoying it now though

Hehe, icecream for medicinal reasons. Excellent! It does sound amazing, and I wouldn't beat yourself up it. You only had half the fries, and you'll have burnt a lot doing all the house work.

You're definitely doing the right thing sticking to a healthy lifestyle instead of a strict calorie regime. It's so hard if you're out and about, or buying something in, and for some reason there's no chart on the packet trying to work out how much is in something. Use what you've learnt as a guideline, and you'll definitely make the right choices

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Thanks Bron, I already feel better about it, and it's only been one day! It was just nice today not worrying about how much everything was and whether i'd gone over and whether it would affect me overall....pah, i'm too lazy for all of that thinking!

Today was a good day. I LOVE saying that! It started off a bit oddly, as in, last night I couldn't sleep. Don't know what was wrong but try as I might, nothing was happening. I finally drifted off around 3 but then promptly woke at 8am and couldn't get back to sleep. This did not bode well for a good day. I am like a 3yr old, I need at least 10 hours sleep or I get grouchy and start throwing tantrums. I spent a good few hours mailing friends and watching tv and just having a good laze before hitting the gym at 11.30am. I attempted my usual 4mile run on the treadmill and failed abysmally. I've only been out of it for 9 days but it seems like i'll have to re-train back into it. I did about 2.5 miles, but that was with some fast walking as well as running. Still burnt a good 250 cals though as most of it was on an incline. Then I did 15mins on the stepper, which worked out at 130 cals burnt and 50 flights of stairs, it always feels like a really good work out and seems like the only machine that works me up a good sweat! I got upstairs and did some stomach crunches, about 30 which is abysmal and then headed off for work.

I had a lovely time, which doesn't usually happen. Especially when one guest was about to ask me for advice on the best place locally for desserts, then looked me over and said 'nevermind, you obviously don't eat them, with that tiny waist'. I could have kissed her! I almost did. She was being quite rude in her manner, but I don't care, because she said I had a tiny waist! Woop! It's a bit of a kop out I suppose, my waist has always been the smallest part of me, but it's nice to hear it nonetheless.

Food wise, breakfast of a glass of orange juice and frosted mini wheats (a bit high in sugar but soooo good), lunch of a turkey caesar salad with low fat dressing, I snacked on a cereal bar when I got to work and then for dinner they were giving leftovers out in one of the restaurants so I had a small piece of puff pastry, some mashed potatoes and some fingerling potatoes. I try to avoid carbs like the plague, but this was free and it was late so I had a little bit.

I managed to not weigh myself for 3 days, and I have to fully admit to being petrified this morning before weighing, I was so worried that I would have gained after the chocolate and ice cream but it was fine, i'd got to 149 which is what I was aiming for so I was happy. I think I need to weigh Tuesdays though, that's my technical Friday as I have Weds/Thurs off as opposed to the actual weekend. Then it means if I do splurge a little on my days off, I still have time to recover over the rest of the week. So, no weighing until Tuesday, and I hope to be 148 by then! I'm gonna hit the gym hard again tomorrow!

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Sounds like just eating healthily is really working out for you, hun! Awesome

Haha! What a nice, rude lady! We definitely need more of them in the world!

Don't fret not being quite so on form at the gym. If you've been out a while, it takes a couple of sessions to get back again. But sounds like it was a good workout, go you!

Mmm, free food! Can't turn it down if you're not paying for it!

Ace job on hitting 149! Hooray for hitting the 140s!

Have a fab weekend!

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Here goes.... I guess i've stayed away for a few days because I didn't want to admit defeat. I didn't want to admit that I caved and ate so much food that it hurt. Especially as there seemed to be no trigger or anything.
I had a good few days, I stuck to my diet the Sunday and Monday, went to the gym and had a really good session. Then decided to weigh in on the Monday to see how I was getting on towards my 148 goal and I was still 149, infact, i'd gone up to 149.4 which is only 4oz but it stung a little, as i'd been doing so well. I was still a bit ill and got sent home on the Monday as I was burning up and having coughing fits so I stopped at Walgreens on the way and bought some cough medicine and then crawled in to bed and had a nap, but when I woke I felt hungry, so had a caesar salad (I think i'm addicted to them!) but then just couldn't stop myself, and still felt hungry, so started nibbling at a few pretzels, a few skittles, like usual, then had a cereal bar.... still not that bad... then just opened my sweets drawer and went ape and ate a fair amount of crap. At one point it hurt but I kept on eating, like if I was already being naughty then I may as well eat all the foods that I like while I had the chance as the next day I would go back to the diet, which is the kind of thinking i've been trying to advoid and train myself out of.

Anyway, the next day (yesterday) I headed to work, had a good day, wasn't feeling quite so ill. I had my usual breakfast of cereal and was intent on continuing with my healthy eating. After work though the other AM shift (about ten of us in total) decided to go to a british bar for some british food. I still figured I would choose a healthier option but once there that went straight out of the window and I had a huge plate of chips, gravy, peas and a steak and mushroom pie. It tasted amazing, I also had about four glasses of Ribena along with my meal. Then we went home and I couldn't shut myself off, I piled straight into the chocolate and had two milky ways, a few cookies and 4 Godiva chocolates. I felt so bad and so completely useless. I fell asleep early and stayed in bed late this morning, i've never felt so sluggish and tired and almost comatose as I did when I woke this morning, that kind of food is clearly not good for you. I felt depressed too.... like completely and utterly depressed, which again, i haven't felt in a long while.

Today I feel better. I had my yoghurt and juice for breakfast, a cereal bar and juice for lunch and have yet to eat dinner. But I feel ok. I don't feel like i'm going to crack at any moment and launch into a binge, so I'm just hoping it was a hormone related lapse. We even went to Magic Kingdom today and I resisted the urge to head to Mrs Potts ice cream parlour, and they do the best brownie ice cream sundae i've ever tasted. I even told myself that I could have one, but just kept thinking it was a bad idea and wouldn't make me feel good. So now i'm home and feeling good that it wasn't such a dilemma about whether I would have an ice cream or not, I just didn't.
My friend Nicola is on her way over tonight though for some dinner, we usually hang out as we have the same days off. We usually spend them at various parks but it's been raining for over a week now so we've been staying in a lot. She wants to get pizza but i'm going to suggest we get Chinese food as if I eat Moo shu vegetables and tofu, even if I ate the whole portion is still wouldn't come up to more than 1400 cals for the day so I think it's a safer option than huge pizzas and chicken wings.

So yes, that was my bad few days. The scales said 151 this morning, which as i'm sure you can imagine, i'm not happy with. But hopefully, if I have a good few days and have a few more good sessions at the gym I can make 148 by Friday and then we'll go from there. I'd really really like to be 145 by June 1st and I don't think it's completely out of the question just yet.

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Hey babe! I was wondering where you'd got to

Aww babe, sucks that you've had a rough time of it diet and health wise. Hope you're feeling better on the health front now.

I know I say this every time, so I'm going to sound like a broken record, but don't fret the binges. They happened, and all you can do now is work hard this week. It sounds like you're back on track, so you're doing the right thing. Just don't be over good to make up for it, because the shock of the food vs. not so much food will only make the scales even more unhappy.

It sucks that there's squatters now, but I'm certain with a good week or so of healthy eating, they'll be gone before you know it! Good luck with reaching 145lbs for start of June, you'll do great, hun!

Enjoy the Chinese! If you do get pizza, get it without cheese. Sounds odd, but pizza is just as good without. Promise!

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Thanks Bron, you're words are comforting! I've decided I really am a pain in the arse though. If only i'd joined this forum a few months ago. I really didn't give a toss if I ate some chocolate or went out for a meal and had dessert. That's when I lost most my weight too so obviously I was doing somehting right, and yet here I am, I have one night of chocolate and it's the end of the bloody world! I really need to lighten up. Especially when you consider that was two nights, makes it about 3 since I started seriously dieting in February, when I used to eat like that every day, that was normal eating! Pah, I make myself so angry!

Well Nicola didn't come over last night in the end because the weather really kicked it up a notch so she decided not to brave it, and I don't blame her! I made a microwave steam chinese meal instead, 350 cals and pretty damn tasty. I felt hungry a little while afterwards though so decided to have a skinnycow truffle chocolate ice cream thing and enjoyed it immensely, all for 100 cals! I went on a mad forum spree though and was looking up better ways to eat and think I need to eat more protein as this past two weeks or so i've really been feeling hungry and also to try and eat 5-6 small meals a day as opposed to sitting and starving for hours thinking that it will be fine because i'll be eating at such-and-such a time.

So, so far today i've had scrambled eggs for breakfast, with thin turkey and a spoon of cream cheese in it and it was lovely. Then a few hours later I had another few slices of thin turkey and an ice pop. Then for lunch I had a wholewheat pitta bread with (you guessed it!) thin turkey and lettuce and a sprinkle of parmesan cheese and then for dinner I bought a lean cut of beef steak, with a handful of mushrooms and some more salad.

My room mate came home from her cruise today and well, we don't get on mostly. We do in a way, she thinks we're bestest friends but I do admit to finding her obnoxious most days. She had said she'd over indulged on the cruise so was planning to stick her fingers down her throat to make herself feel better... I hate being around that kind of behaviour. She has no qualms about letting me know she's making herself sick, regardless of the fact that I hate it and have tried to tell her what harm it does. She only ever seems to do it when I'm around though, almost like she enjoys my lectures. She also likes to point out that she doesn't have to watch what she eats when I constantly seem to be dieting. I know which side i'd rather be on though, I just wish I didn't have to live with her but I don't have an option.

Oh well, I weighed this morning at 148.8. A tiny loss, but at least my mad chocolate sprees don't seem to be sticking with me too long. I figure even if I lose a lb a week... in six weeks that's six pounds closer to target! I had a big wardrobe clear out today and found a pair of size 14 trousers that i'd brought with me and left at the bottom of the pile as they were a bit tight and i'd hoped to slim into, i'd completely forgotten about them and tried them on and they're too big to wear! I was so ecstatic, maybe i'm closer to those 12's than I thought. I'm fully aware that i'll never be a 10, it's just not in my bone structure, but to be a comfortable 12 is good enough for me!

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Hey you!

No worries, babe! There's always a point where we wonder "what are we doing different." Sometimes we need to take a step back and have a look what's changed or we need to see if the change is in our attitudes. But clearly you are still doing something right, because you're back at the 148s (well done on that, by the way!)

Man, your room mate really needs some help. I know how hard it is when you get into that cycle - someone close to me was bulemic - but whatever you do don't ever consider what she's doing. You already sound against it, but don't give into her peer pressure. Although you need to tell her that she needs help, she may also be attention seeking - you say she almost enjoys the lectures you give her - so maybe tell her one more time she needs help, then stop giving her what she wants. Alternatively there might be a number you can ring to get some sound advice.

Have a smashing weekend!

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I've tried telling her she has a bit of a problem. But she just seems to think that it's normal to make yourself sick if you've over-indulged. I've tried reasoning with her that you could just not eat to that point in the first place but that doesn't seem to sink in.

Otherwise i've had a good couple of days, well, good in the sense that I haven't over done it, my calorie intake wouldn't have been more than 1200 each day but I ate all the wrong things! Yesterday was cereal for breakfast, a ham and cheese croissant from the France pavillion at Epcot (so good) and dinner was two hot chocolates with whipped cream as we got absolutely drenched in a storm and needed warming up. Oh and an apple for supper.

Then today i've had cereal and green tea for breakfast, some crisps and a cadburys caramel for lunch (so good yet so bad.) I had Moo Shu vegetables from the chinese and had half the portion and then that's it. Though my room mate is baking brownies so my food diary may include one of those too. I'm absolutely stuffed from the chinese food though so at least if I do have some brownie, I doubt it will be a huge amount.

So i've not exactly gone overboard, but I could have chose something with some nutritional value. I weighed in at 147.8 yesterday though so i'm pretty pleased with that. I'm coming round to totm now though so that's going to affect things, I can already feel my moods swinging! lol But yay, off to New York in two days, i'm very excited!

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Yay! Great job on the loss again! I need some of your mojo!

Where the hell did you get Cadbury's in the US? Good find, not had one for years! And a savoury coissant? Weird Bet it's quite nice though! Like savoury pancakes, I used to doubt them too!

Don't let your housemate get to you. Stop giving her what she wants; you've tried to help, now it's up to her.

Stay cool!

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Ok, just a quick recap, as i'm currently in my hotel in Manhattan and my friends are jetlagged and trying to sleep so i'm sneaking on here! lol

I had a great day yesterday, felt like my eating was spot on, didn't have any cravings, didn't feel hungry.... I had cereal and green tea for breakfast, two veggie burgers and mushrooms for lunch, a caesar salad for dinner and a slice of fresh pineapple as a snack and 1 square of dark chocolate.
Imagine my susprise this morning to stand on the scales and it say 149. I could have cried. I almost did. I don't mind a lb fluctuation every day because that usually happens but I think it's just the fact that yesterday morning when I weighed it said 146.6 and then to be over 2lbs heavier the next day after having a good food day was a little frustrating. I know it's ridiculous to put so much emphasis on the scales but that's a hard habit to break!

Anyway, today not so good with the eating! Which doesn't surprise me. I'd hoped to do better, but I was stuck in the terminal with only a pastry shop for four hours waiting for my friends to land, so I just thought I wouldn't eat anything until we got into the city, but then a few hours later I got hungry so ate a packet of skittles. Then in the city we went to kfc for dinner (grilled chicken and mashed potatoes) and I had some marble cake too. In terms of volume of food, again, I didn't eat a lot, but it was all the wrong food. Nothing of nutritional value. Oh, and as of this afternoon it is totm so now i'm bloated and craving salty foods like you wouldn't believe. Aaaargh!

I'm gonna at least attempt to eat healthily the next few days in NYC, we're going to Pax for breakfast tomorrow, usually I get bagels but I'll go for the scrambled eggs and skip the toast... easy peasy! Ha!

I just don't want to take one step forward and then two steps back just because i'm on holiday.

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Hey you!

Wow, people jetsetting all over the place! Have a brill time, babe!

How often do you weigh? You'll see much more of your efforts if you just weigh weekly. That 2lbs sounds like it will have been TOM, I wouldn't worry about it.

Have a brill time!

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I weigh every day most days, I can't help it. I try not to, but then I get paranoid and worry that i've gained and it goes round in a vicious circle! I haven't been able to weigh for two days now and i'm petrified. I know i've gained and i've got this really scary feeling that when I get back home i'll be 155 and i'll be back to where I was at the start of the month..... anyway...

Having a fantastic time in Manhattan, always do though. Seen some fantastic shows, done some shopping and walking around. I'm generally doing ok with food but not as good as i'd like, which is silly as I know I have the control over what I eat so surely if I don't want to indulge I don't have to. But it's not as easy as that. I'd done really well all day, but then we got to dinner and one of my friends wanted to go to The View for dinner, which is like a rotating restaurant 48 floors up so you can see views of the city as you eat. Only problem being it's an all you can eat buffet and there wasn't much choice at all. I started well, with mixed greens and mushrooms and then some chicken and beef, didn't have too much. Then we started on dessert and after starting with a marshmellow dipped in the chocolate fountain I kind of went a bit crazy and in a moment of sugar high I made my way through a years supply of desserts. Am majorly pissed with myself. I feel gross now.

The day had started off so well too, I'd gone to H&M and got some lovely black trousers in a size 10 and a pair of jeans in an 8! I'm not quite sure what they translate to in british sizes but either way, it's better than the 16's i've worn since I was 15!
On the plus side of all this, I'm now more motivated than ever to kick my arse back into gear and get into the gym again and really make an effort with the last stone, so we'll see where that takes me.

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Happy Friday!

I think you should join us Friday girls. Having a group to support you through the days when you want to weigh will help you break the habit. Fact is you're not going to see a major difference day to day, you'll get far more satisfaction weighing weekly or fortnightly. I once read that the most successful dieters were ones that weighed then, compared to those who weighed daily, erratically or monthly.

Glad you're having such a wicked time in Manhatten! Oh I know the chocolate fountains well! Hehe! It's OK to indulge a little bit, you're on holiday!! Seriously, you'll be able to lose it if you gain anything, don't let it spoil your fun

Woo new trousers! Best thing ever getting small sizes!

Keep having fun!

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So happy i'm back! Where to begin.... Manhattan was awesome! Had such a lovely time. Got back to Orlando on the 30th and headed straight for a Disney resort with my UK friends. Managed to weigh in once on the 31st and weighed in at 150, which I was happy with after the all-you-can-eat dessert splurge! The hotel had no internet or phone signal for that matter and a few times I could have done with coming on here for a motivational boost! We were walking pretty much all day every day and I didn't eat too badly considering I was in the theme parks. We did end up at another all you can eat buffet though (Crystal Palace in Magic Kingdom, really cute!) But I mainly just stocked up on the roast turkey so it wasn't as bad as it could have been. Friends left on the 4th and I weighed in on the 5th at 151, again, was pretty ok with that. It was a gain but after 10 days of indulging a gain I could cope with!
Anyway, I got back to my apartment to find out that apparently we were having internet problems and they were fixing them (we weren't, and they didn't!) so have been offline since. Was tough going! Anyway, apparently it's been back on for two days, but no one bothered to tell us! Either way, I have me some internet and have been on a huge board spree trying to give myself a motivational boost!

I've had a pretty good 9 days since I got off my holidays though. I did have two major binge days but i'll get onto that in a moment.. I've gone back to the gym and out of those 9 days would say i've been 4 times, I would have gone more but the days I didn't go was because I was working a double shift, and in this heat, that's a workout in itself! I weighed this morning at 148, so those holiday pounds are dropping off. I think i'm plateauing though, I feel hungry now when I didn't before and I can't seem to get below that 147. I'm gonna mix it up these next few days, have some more calories, more protein, hit the gym and see if that makes a difference. I graduate in 2 weeks and it would be nice to get to 145 by then!

Bron: I'd love to be part of the Friday girls group but that's just after my two days off and I always splurge a little on those days. I'm going to actively attempt to weigh-in on Tuesdays though. Once a week...eeek!

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Welcome back!!

Sounds like you had an awesome time! Well done on the minimal gain, that's loads better than what it could have been, especially with friends and buffets (friend peer-pressure = the worst!) You did so well though, I admire you so much!

Plateaus suck. The best way through is to change routine a bit; eat differently, exercise differently, you should get through it. Know what you mean though, I just kind of slide around 61 - 63 kgs with no definite point of rest and no slipping under.

Good luck with just weighing once a week. It'll be loads better for you, you'll see a bigger difference and it'll make weight loss feel more natural.

Bron

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