Gemstone

Have a great holiday Ellie - and Buck House on the CV - Nice one x

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PurpleButterfly

Hey hey heeeeyyyy!!! I'm back on the sunny shores of england... Still recovering from the old jet lag a bit but feeling considerably better than yesterday..

Had a phenomenal time in NZ, it was just amazing... Got a ridiculous number of photos (about 700!) and we did some incredible things like horse riding, jet boating, cycling, walking, snowboarding, clay pigeon shooting (ha! beat the OH by shooting 8 to his Nil! ), swimming with wild dolphins, going on the luge, hot spring spa, etc etc!... Whoa I feel tired even thinking about all that stuff!! It also was a big test of my relationship with OH and I'm glad to say that it came through with flying colours. We had some really good chats about our future together, because of the big decisions that will make, and in the end we resolved to both remain flexible and make those decisions when the time comes in the future.

Anyway. I haven't weighed on return. Maybe I should. I don't feel I've put weight on. I know that when I start properly at the palace I'll start properly dropping weight again, it'll be hard not to. In the meanwhile I'm having a good spring clean, digging round all the corners and chucking out junk, rearranging my bedroom, doing jobs long neglected etc.

Basically, doing well!

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rhuba

woo! welcome back sweetie.

glad you're relationship has stood up to it's test. i'm really happy for you! re. the weightloss, the only thing you've got to do now is get back into your normal routine and it'll drop off in no time.

am going on holiday tomorrow, for 2 weeks, so won't be present to drop into your diary until i'm back, but good luck from me!! my weightloss is going okay - i'm in the 10s!!!!!! omg! am aiming to maintain my weight for the next 2 weeks, then jumping back on the calorie counting for the last half stone when i get back.

hope the jet lag doesn't last too long petal, will cyber see-thee on my return!! xxx

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bronski

Welcome back, babe!!

Awww so glad you had such a wonderful time with your fella Sounds like you did some wicked things, I must say I'm quite jealous! Wild dolphins... totally awesome!!

Don't worry about the weight at the moment. Let yourself get back into routine and weigh when you're ready for it.

Great to have you back!

Bron

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Gemstone

Good luck for tomorrow x

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Silence

Glad you had a good time and that things with the OH are good! I'm so jealous of all the stuff you did!!!!
Hope you have a nice relaxing weekend. When do you start at the palace???

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PurpleButterfly

Hey silence! Well I collected my uniform yesterday, training is throughout this month really. Then we start for real at the end of this month... There's going to be lots of new people on our section this year because there's hardly any returners: only 5 out of 30ish. I was a bit miffed before cos I asked to be a standby: slightly later start but more hours, and a more varied job, plus you're more likely to be promoted to supervisor from standby.. But then I reckon that they needed me more on the section I was on last year because there's so many new people, they need all the returners they can get.

Ooh and I may have some good news... I found out that I may be able to be on the receiving end of about £3500! Long story, basically unclaimed tax. Fingers x-ed.

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Silence

Fingers crossed indeed!!! Wish I was on the receiving end of that much money (without working).

Good luck with your job at the Palace. It sounds really interesting!

Happy Sunday!

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Gemstone

Hi there - just popped over to see how you were getting on x

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bronski

Woah!! That's a hell of a return! Finger's most certainly crossed, it'll definitely help fund the next NZ trip

Ooo, exciting with work! Shame that you're not on standby, but maybe they'll notice the your dedication as a returner and give you promotion opportunities anyway. Hope the month goes well!

Bron

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PurpleButterfly

Hey all. Sorry I haven't been around much lately. Here's my current thought-stream anyway.
I think I am trying to reassess what's right for my life at the moment with regards to losing weight. Somehow I think dieting is quite transient in that when your life changes and therefore your routine, different diets will suit. Also with me I think I like the variety of changing tactics. So my next venture whilst at the palace is to lose the last 2 stone. But I'm not going to weigh, as I think that messes with my head too much, and anyway when I finish dieting I want it to be because I'm happy with how I look, and not because of what the scales say.
So I'm going to do a sort of semi-calorie counting, semi-low carb approach. I've worked out, if I eat 2 eggs for brekkers then that's the most sustaining thing which will keep me going for cycling to work and through the morning. Lunch, I'll have one of their main meals - no starter and no pudding, and wherever possible I'll leave carbs out or minimise carbs. On weekends we're given sarnies for lunch so I don't know what I'll do then - probably just pick the highest protein sarnies I can, as protein is what sustains... Then on weekdays for dinner I'll have salad or small stirfry and possibly a nutrition shake leftover from my LL/exante days.Weekends just a normal meal in the evenings I think...
Anyway I'll give it a go and see how it works out. I'll be burning tonnes of calories with cycling to and from work (90mins a day total), plus on your feet all day walking round, I should burn over 3000 cals a day, then have a 1500cal ish worth of meals. The only thing is that I need to make sure it's sustaining enough, I remember last year if I hadn't had enough to eat I'd sort of run out of energy whilst cycling! Hopefully keeping protein levels up will give me slow release energy.

Anyway enough ramblings. Oh! I went on the sunday roller stroll last weekend. It was a challenge but I was just getting the knack of it again and relaxing into it, when boo hoo I fell over! gave myself a nasty bruise and scrape even through knee pad! I think a stone must've jammed in my wheel or something, not sure. Anyway I want to practice some more and get better at going fast and being confident about stopping, and skating on difficult surfaces too.... So that might be a task for tomorrow....

anyways I'll stop rambling and sign off!

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PurpleButterfly

Mmm so yesterday and today I have been just limiting my calories to between 1000 and 1500, and it's going well. Someone I spoke to said they lost a fair amount of weight by just not eating between meal times, and it's true that it's easy for the calories to rack up by snacking. So, I've decided to stop snacking apart from maybe an apple at 4-5pm (which is the time of day I get starving hungry!).. Leaves me more calories for meals as well which then leaves me more satisfied after..

Today I cycled to and from the palace which I'm proud of doing. My tyres were soft so it was harder work too! I'll pump them up properly before thursday (next training day). Good to start the process of getting my legs back in shape. I need to get back into the callanetics as that was really good for toning. It's alright too because you can stick a film on and do the exercises whilst watching it so it's kinda brain relaxation, body workout. It's just getting into the routine of doing it again.

Palace is going well. It's funny cos I do get nervous meeting more than one new person at a time. But when I haven't met many new people in a while then I sort of forget. So meeting a big group of 30ish new people is pretty challenging at the moment. I just don't understand why I have a confidence problem. Because I get nervous I find it hard to relax and just be myself and have a laugh with people. Then I think "Oh they'll never want to talk to me now cos I'm boring and too serious, and I'm overweight which always evokes prejudice anyway, etc etc" which makes me more nervous and shy... You get the picture. Gaah. When I know, people I relax and then there's no problem. It's just I get frustrated at times because I can't seem to escape this pattern, I think I've conquered it and then it happens again when I meet more new people!!! Hopefully losing the weight will help me because I think it makes a huge difference when you feel confident physically. I know myself well enough to know that when I've lost the weight I'll feel happy with myself, I'm not the sort of person to get hung up about body parts etc. But I still do not understand why I naturally seem to lack confidence in myself: my parents have always shown utmost faith in me so it's not from that.

Anyway I've started to ramble. Ooh one more unrelated thing. I bought myself an epilator! Used it tonight and actually it wasn't too bad apart from on the sensitive bits like by my ankles and knee.. But I might try it on the armpit next. It's just I reckon it'll be a bit more painful. At least you can sort of control the pain a bit by stopping/starting whenever!

Anyway... toodles.

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PurpleButterfly

Another good day today, eating wise. This time I might be on track to get that last 2 stone off that I've been wanting off for so long!

I'm also feeling good because I'm doing a portrait of my dad's horse for his birthday, and so far it's going pretty well: I have til october to improve but I'm happy with my efforts so far.

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Gemstone

Good luck with what you're doing x

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bronski

Hey babe!

You've inspired me to get moving again, reading your well laid out plan has given me the insentive to start up proper again. It sounds like an excellent plan, babe, I'm certain you'll do great with it

Oo, enjoy Bucks! Confidence is such a strange thing; deep down I completely lack it, and again my parents never put me down. For me I know it was the awful bullying at school, maybe it was someone at school that put you into a negative mind set?

Stay cool!

Bron

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