Jess's Food Journal/Diary - to get back to where i was! :)

JessMayR

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So I’m starting this food journal before Christmas because I have gone crazy. I need to admit it and I need to account for the food obsession I have. I cannot control myself at the minute, eating everything in sight and not even worrying when I’m full or not. I feel ashamed of what I’m eating and the amounts I’m eating, I look and feel like a pig.

I started dieting in April 2012, I weighted 14st 1 lb, not massively overweight but my BMI was 28.2 and I felt and looked awful. So I started weightwatchers, I lost 39lbs – I looked great, I dropped dress sizes and people could really see the difference, but I couldn’t. I still felt fat and flumpy, ugly and huge even though you could see I was the thinnest I could possibly be. I just accepted that I’m never going to like the way I look unless I change my mind set. So I started to do that, and was doing well, I started to like the way I looked then I eased up of the dieting and started living my life again. Then gained 17lbs. So I’m half way back to square one.

I think the issue was I changed to Slimming World, I loved the idea of eating carbs, unlimited carbs! Then I struggled with the flexibility of it, I have college until 9pm at night time so I found it hard cooking quick meals when I got home. So if I went off the rails one night the whole week turned out to be a write off, then I completely stopped dieting. Now I have started to hate the way I am again.

I want to stop this before it gets to the point of it was before, so I decided to make this journal. To monitor my eating until Christmas and see where I’m going wrong, then in the New Year I can lose the weight again and concentrate on more important things. The journal will also help me vent about other food related issues I have.

Also, I have a food IG account, my name is fooddiary_ww_jess so add me if you use it

So anyway, food, this week I’ve been eating like mad! Now I want to eat loads but keep it within my points. So here is my diary starting today! i will weigh in on Saturday, but I’ve given myself the weekly points for Wednesday to Friday to help me manage (49/7 = 7 x 3 = 21).

Weekly Points: 21
Daily Points: 34 (I should have 32 but always found I still lost on 34, so not going to deduct them until I stop losing)

The plan for today is:

Breakfast: Fruit salad (banana, pear, plum, kiwi & grapes) and a muller light (2pp)

Lunch: Sandwich thin, 30g cheese, tomato & cucumber (5pp)

Snacks for work: 2 alpen bars (4pp), cucumber sticks, 2 mini packs of Haribo (2pp), freddo (3pp)

Pre college dinner: soup (2pp)

Dinner after college: veg stir fry with light soy sauce and noodles (7)

Left with (9pp), so maybe a cheeky chocolate bar at college?

Will update later if needed
xx
 
Updating my food today:

Breakfast: Fruit salad (banana, pear, plum, kiwi & grapes) and a muller light (2pp)
Snack: Dairy-lee Dunker (3pp), Haribo (2pp)
Lunch: Sandwich thin, 30g cheese, tomato & cucumber (5pp)
Snack: Chocolate (9pp) and cucumber sticks
Pre college snacks: 2 alpen lights (4pp) & wheetos bar (2pp)

Dinner after college: Veg stir fry with light soy sauce and noodles (7)

Total Used: 34!
Bang on Not a healthy day but within points
 
Morning!
I did change my food again yesterday; I’m so inconsistent when it comes to what I want. I can spend ages planning then I just don’t fancy what I planned.
So food went as follows:
B: Fruit salad with yogurt (2)
S: Dairylee Dunker (3) & Haribo (2)
L: Sandwich thin with cheese, tomato and cucumber (5)
S: Freddo (3) & cucumber sticks
College snacks: Mars bar (6), breakfast bar (9)
D: Omelette – cheese, chorizo, mushroom, onion, spring onion, pepper and tomato (8)
Total: (38)
Daily: 34/34
Weekly: 4/21
Xx
 
Cannot wait for today to be over, I have work until 3 then need to rush back home for an appointment at 4. Then I’ve got revision and housework.. Got an exam in 2 weeks and nowhere need ready for it. BUT THEN I GOT TOMORROW OFF! So its ok J I’ll be putting the Christmas decorations up with the other half, then watching movies all day, can’t wait, especially because I don’t need to set an alarm! So tired, to the point of wanting to fall to sleep at work, L.
Today’s food is less than yesterday, hoping to wean myself from big amounts of food to normal amounts, let’s hope it works.
B: Alpen Bar (2), apple, melon and grapes
S: Pineapple, Watermelon, Dairylee dunker (3) & Zero Red Bull
L: Low-low tomato & basil pasta (6)
S: Fredo (3) & Haribo (1)
D: ? No idea yet! Got 19 propoints left, so who knows!
xx
 
I WENT OFF PLAN AGAIN. Oh my god, so annoyed with myself, I cant help it, i'm a liability.
I need a muzzle, like seriously. Oh well, line drawn - tomorrows a new day and start of a new weightwatchers week. I need to lose at least 2/3 pound by next week. Going out for my friends 21st next Saturday and want to feel thin and fit into my dress.. So tonight I've finished enjoying eating and tomorrow i'm back down to business.

To forgive myself, I need to be honest. So todays food has been:

Breakfast: 1 belvita breakfast yoghurt biscuit
Lunch: bagel and jam
Snack: 1/2 tray of family circle biscuits
Dinner: 1/2 stuffed crust cheese pizza (asda), onion rings, ww garlic baguette and chicken pops
Snack: bag of galaxy counters

Yeah I feel and ate like a pig.. Need to get over it, and be prepared to start again. So lets hope I stick to it or it will be going back to group with a shameful waddle.

xx
 
So today is a new week :) new start and new approach to eating.
I weighed myself this morning to see the damage and it said I weighed 12.st 5lbs, that's 2lbs less that last week, even though I ate loads? huh, can't complain lol.

So not sure of the plan today, may be going out for a meal and a few drinks, so going to keep my points really low in case I do.

Daily: 0/34
Weekly: 0/49
 
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