For weeks I walk pass the door of the Slimming World group. Thinking to myself how I wish I had the guts to go in. Then for the first time in October I actually go into the door and start the first two steps to the room where the group are, but i loose nerve and turn around. Again for 4 weeks every week I walk pass the door. How great would it be to be a little bit slimmer and more able to mentally deal with my son (he have autism and I suffer from depression my weight playing a huge part in this).
Then on the 8th of November 2012 I take a deep breath and go into the door and up the stairs. On the way up I meet up with two woman smiling and greeting very friendly. Ok this I guess are promising no sour faces like the last slimming group I have been too. Walking into the room I meet this bubbly stunning looking woman. My only thought is "WoW". She intriduce herself as the group leader and invite me to sit at this table and fill in the forms as she explain the programme. Right this is easy I think to myself no one judging no one looking funny at you. Then the nightmare getting onto the scale. It broke my heart to see the scale keep on moving over 17st past 18 st finally stopping just past 19st. Standing on that scale I went I cant believe it no wonder I hate mirrors and fotographs just imagine how hidiouse I must look. what do other people think of me when I walk past them in the street do they think "look that hiddious cow. she must have no self control" but in matter of fact I actually dont eat at all. I actually skip up to 3 days of eating. After explaining that to my leader she went its not that bad whats happening are that because you dont eat your body store your food straight away as fat cause it dont know when you will feed it again. I look at her like she are talking greek. In effect I have been starfing my body and slowed down the old metabolism to almost a standstill. She give me the books and that night I cant wait to start all exited and ready to get going.