Hi! Happy New Year!
I have been a poster (right word?) on this forum on and off for years, and have begun thread upon thread announcing that 'This time will be it!', 'I shall never eat a pizza again!' and 'I am now tee-total!' amongst other ridiculous things.
I have been gearing myself up to 'start' again today, New Year's Day seems to be the most logical of all days to begin what I am now going to refer to as My New Life. I have been reading, planning (admittedly not as much as I'd planned and actually thinking properly about how 2013 is going to be the year I change my life, and shed this excess weight. I currently weigh 17st 7lb and I am 5ft 4in, which is not good.
Thinking about why I'm overweight has featured greatly in my recent though processes, and I have finally decided to stop beating myself up. I continuously tell myself that I am a fat failure, that I am a rubbish mum, I'll be skint forever and I'll never get a good job. If this seems ridiculously self-indulgent then I apologise - and you're right.
So, instead of moping and whinging, 2013 is going to be the year I take a leaf out of MJ's book and start with the (wo)man in the mirror. Life is short, and it's what you make it. So I'm making my life mine again. This year I am going to try. And even if I occasionally fall off the wagon, I'll jump straight back on because I will succeed this time. Weight Watchers works for me, because I feel like I have enough choice to keep me going. I am going to let go of this pathetic self-loathing and tell myself that yes I am worth it!
My OH and I have booked a hol for this September to Lanzarote and I'll be damned if I am getting on that plane at 17st.
So ... here goes!
Breakfast - LF Cheese Slice on Toast with Tomato Sauce - 5pp
Lunch - WW Chicken Curry - 8pp
Tea - Potatoes, Quorn, Mixed Veg and Gravy - 16pp
Snacks - Packet Squares - 3pp, Banana (x2) - 0pp, Meringue, Fruit and Yoghurt ) - 4pp.
Total - 36pp
I think I'm allowed 37pp but I'll chek properly tomorrow.
I know I'm determined - I must be because this morning, when everyone was lay in bed hungover, OH and I took our little girl to the park on her bike, a 20min walk each way
Thanks for reading my essay! It feels good to be able to pur my heart out to like-minded people who I know have the same goals as I do...again, thank you.