Having a bit of a down day so thought i would write a post rather than go and grab soemthing from the nearest canteen. Im overweight and im sick of it. I started WW last week and had a really good week. I went to spin 4 times and tracked everything I ate. When the scales yesterday morning showed 5lb 2oz loss I was really pleased but then I had a binge last night and feel crap today. I wasnt even hungry but I just ate. I know i got myself into this position yet it just seems that its so hard to lose the weight.
When i met my husband I was about 11 stone and if im honest thats the lightest Ive ever been. Fast forward 6 years and im huge. I weighed in at 15stone 2 the day I started ww and was shocked. I had a baby so I thought i could use that as an excuse but it wont wash anymore. It seems though that the resolve I had last week has just vanished and i dont know why. Ive booked a spin class tonight but I dont really want to go with the way im feeling.
My hubby is being really nice and supportive but its hard. Hes naturally skinny and can eat loads and not gain and then theres me who just looks at something and i gain. I was watching embarrassing fat bodies last night and a man had lots of excess skin removed after weight loss and I looked at my tummy and its already got a baggy overhang so i got even more upset. Maybe im just being emotional today but for some reason I cant shift the feeling that im going to fail and not meet my target in the time ive given myself. It doesnt help that everyone I know is slim and they dont have to go to the gym or anything.
I just hope im doing it right and that i get a loss. I dont want to be a fat mum or wife and I dont want to be the one who always feels bad about myself. I think this may be rock bottom and if so then the only way is up. I really have accepted that ive put myself in this position and I need to get myself out of it....just makes me depressed to think I did this to myself and that my husband has to put up with me being this way.
Anyone else feel this way at the beginning of their journey?