What the hell happened :*(
I'm 26 years old, and today I weight 16st 9lb. I feel like my whole life has been spent being overweight/made to feel rubbish about myself.
Lately I found a picture of when I was 15 and "fat!" (per my "friends") yet looking at that photo today I would kill to have that body.
Today (in the process of moving house) I found my first ever weight watchers card - a whole 10 years has passed ... and a whole 4 stone has been added, all I ask is WHY!?
What the hell have I let happen to myself, If i was 'fat' back then, how did I let myself get even worse???
Last year (infact two years ago this Sunday) I was undergoing a big operation to donate my kidney to my Mum, if my BMI wasnt under 30 they wouldnt do it, in 4 months I managed to loose 2 stone to get down to the required BMI .. how ... I DONT KNOW!!
Since then, I've put it all back on and more.
I was advised that day my weight should stay as it was or lower to not put unncessary strain on my remaining kidney ... so why am I doing this to myself??
Why am I slowly killing myself?? Why do I stand and watch myself putting biscuits/bagels/whatever crap it is in my mouth??????
I've completely lost it all, I dont even feel like by writing this post its enough. What do I need to do?? How can I change my mindset, and why do I just let this happen to myself??