Marie_D

Thank you for all your messages guys - I feel terrible now - I am so full of sh*t.....yet again, I have not stopped stuffing my face all week! Tues was bubs birthday, Thurs we had a meal round the inlaws, so Wed there didn't seem much point in being good 'just for one day', tomorrow we have a meal and party round the inlaws and so today I've been stuffing my face all day as well!! Why do I do this to myself?!?!?! God knows how much I'm gonna gain this week, but I'd guess probably another 3lb+....why?! Why do I do this?!?!?

I don't want to keep coming on here saying I'm back on ww, then not doing it, then coming back on to say I'm back on it again, then not doing it again, etc etc etc etc etc etc....

I absolutely HATE myself at the moment, really really hate myself - my weight effects my whole life (more than it should!) and yet STILL I can't do it

What the hell can I do?! How do I stop this?!! I can't afford to gain anymore weight!

I am completely out of control - I have NO control over my binging and I am genuinely worried that I have a genuine problem/addiction for food. I'm not just greedy, I'm not just eatin the wrong things, I'm not just having too big a portions, I'm not just snacking too much...it's all of those things rolled into one and I can't seem to stop myself, I really can't control it! I know everyone has times like this, but come on - we're talking about a whole stones worth of weight gain in the last 6-7 weeks - we're talking nearly 3st weight gain in the past year - that is just not normal!!!!?

I am really struggling here, really struggling. I need help and I don't know what sort of help I need, where to get it from or how to get it



I have been coming on here moaning about my weight for a year now and all the time I've just been gettin bigger and bigger and bigger - that is so not the point of this forum. So I think that maybe I need to stop doing this, steer clear of mm's for a while and then come back when I've found the strength to really get back on track...maybe when I've managed a week or two on ww without a single cheat I can come back and join you all again(?). You must all be so sick of me coming on here with the same of cr*p , I even bore myself! You must just be thinking "OMG, here we go again...get a grip Marie!!...". I know it's easy to think/say that if I really wanted it then I'd just do it...I only wish it was that simple. I do want to lose the weight, I barely leave the house anymore because of it (I don't want to live my life locked away, if not for my sake but for my little girls!)...so why can't I just f*****g do it!?!?!?! Arrrrrrrrrrgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok...rant over

x

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My steps to goal...

1 - Lose 12lb (1/4 of the way there!)
2 - Lose 12lb (Half way there!!)
3 - Lose 12lb (3/4 of the way there!)
4 - Lose 12lb (GOAL!!!)

Doesn't seem so far away now does it, just 4 small steps to Slimdom

Starlight

DONT YOU DARE DISAPPEAR madam. Just because youre struggling doesnt mean you shouldnt be here, in fact the mere fact you are is all the more reason to be here regularly!!

Keep posting, keep your diary going missus, good days and bad. You WILL get that click but you cant do it on your own - thats where we come in

*HUGS*

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Jan 9 2008 - lost 127lbs (9.1stones)











Next Mini goal:
175lbs - 12.5 stones

Marie_D

Thanks Sandy, bless you for being polite about it (when I know what you really want to do is jump a train down the Southampton and batter me until I see sense! Lol!).

I just can't believe how much I've lost the plot and I would HATE for anyone new to come on here, see much badly I'm struggling and be put off ww! I should make it very clear that my strugglin has nothing what-so-ever to do with the diet - ww is a FABULOUS diet - it's me who's the problem, not the diet itself!

I wish I could just to go bed for a couple of months and wake up 3st lighter...now that would be GREAT

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My steps to goal...

1 - Lose 12lb (1/4 of the way there!)
2 - Lose 12lb (Half way there!!)
3 - Lose 12lb (3/4 of the way there!)
4 - Lose 12lb (GOAL!!!)

Doesn't seem so far away now does it, just 4 small steps to Slimdom

Starlight

If I thought coming down and battering you would help - Id do it

Course you wouldnt put anyone off *HUGS* If you look at EVERY SINGLE forum on here people are struggling, no matter what diet theyre following.

Sleeping off 3 stones sounds like a BRILLIANT idea

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Jan 9 2007 - Started WeightWatchers
Jan 9 2008 - lost 127lbs (9.1stones)











Next Mini goal:
175lbs - 12.5 stones

Marie_D

Haha, maybe don't batter me, but coming down and sewing my mouth shut might help!! Lol!!

I'm not just struggling though am I....I've never seem anyone on a diet forum who's actually managed to GAIN 3st.....I mean come on, that's just ridiculous.

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My steps to goal...

1 - Lose 12lb (1/4 of the way there!)
2 - Lose 12lb (Half way there!!)
3 - Lose 12lb (3/4 of the way there!)
4 - Lose 12lb (GOAL!!!)

Doesn't seem so far away now does it, just 4 small steps to Slimdom

vodaka999

God MArie i could have written your post, everytime for this week i have come on here i have cheated, i came on earlier and said how good i was going to be and have SOOOOOOOOO not been . I dont know why i do it either i was WELL within my points i could have snacked up until my planned dinner and still had points for dessert but i blew it all in a short space of time.

Tomorrow im weighing in and starting AGAIN so if anyone is sick of you hun they will be sick of me too xx

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Be 10.8 ( GOAL )

paula 36

Hi marie,i could of written your post as well.
Sending you a big hugxx

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Marie_D

Thanks for your support guys - perfect examples of why I love this place

Well....

I am soooooo over my strop! I have gained yet another couple of lbs this week which is NOT good, BUUUUUUT, I am now so determined to get this flipping weight off!!!!! (I know, I know, you've heard this before, but...) I dont want to be fat anymore! I love food, but I love my little girl more and she deserves a happy/fun/fit/confident mum, so guess what - I'm gonna get her one

I will weigh in tomorrow for my official start weight (I wish I didn't have to because I don't really want to know how much I've gained this week, but I will just have to bite the bullet and deal with it). I have fruit, I have sugar free ice poles to much on (which I think are 0 points?...I assume they are no different that sugar free squash, which I don't count - right, or wrong?), I have mini versions of pizzas, sausage rolls, spicy fajitas...all sorts. I have low fat meals in the fridge and freezer just waiting to be eaten, so as of tomorrow I am SO back on track!...I PROMISE I PROMISE I PROMISE!!!!!!!

I'm sorry for my depressing outburst before, sometimes I let it beat me.....but thankfully I am determined to win again now. Food is lovely, but you're supposed to eat to live, not live to eat, which is where I've been going wrong!

Tomorrow is the day my life changes. This weekend has been a real eye opener for me, for several reasons that I won't go into, but I have a family and I need to put that before my massive great big greedy appetite.

I am well aware that I'm too late for a slim summer, but is there any point in beating myself up about that??...when I can't change it??...no point what so ever. So I'm not going to. I'm going to be good and I'm going to appreciate every single lb that I lose. Every 1lb I lose is a pound in the right direction and there is no reason at all why I can't look forward to a very happy, very healthy, very slim winter (skinny jeans and knee high boots here I come! heehee).

Woo hooo....hope this lasts, because I feel great (just knowing that I'm gonna start shrinking tomorrow! ).

Let's go!!!!!.....

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My steps to goal...

1 - Lose 12lb (1/4 of the way there!)
2 - Lose 12lb (Half way there!!)
3 - Lose 12lb (3/4 of the way there!)
4 - Lose 12lb (GOAL!!!)

Doesn't seem so far away now does it, just 4 small steps to Slimdom

Marie_D

Today is the day - woo hoo! I'm so looking forward to getting started!!(?!).

I was right - another 2lb gain this week, but I wasn't at all surprised because I haven't done a single day on the diet, so that's about what I've been doing every week for the last 8 weeks or so (shockin, I know!).

I've updated my ticker, but not to show a gain, I've adapted todays weight as my start weight - because it is. So I now have more to lose and a higher BMI, but it's ok, because when I get to goal I'll feel even more pride in myself for getting there when I look at my ticker

Here goes guys!!

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My steps to goal...

1 - Lose 12lb (1/4 of the way there!)
2 - Lose 12lb (Half way there!!)
3 - Lose 12lb (3/4 of the way there!)
4 - Lose 12lb (GOAL!!!)

Doesn't seem so far away now does it, just 4 small steps to Slimdom

pixiepiratess

Awww Marie! Im so sorry ive not been about much over the weekend and ive missed posting! ... What starry and vodake has said make such sence hun, It doesnt matter if your not gonna be skinny minny for the summer hun hey like you say winter will soon be knocking on the door and skinny jeans and knee highs sound wonderful to me ...
Do you work well with little goals? rather than looking at the bigger picture? ... Maybe 7lb goals buy somthing that makes you feel good (not food tho :P ) ... or start a lil scrapbook! ... add pictures of the things you love turn it into a weight loss diary, put pics of things you love or things you want to wear when your at goal .....
Just trying to think of things you could do to try and keep you on the wagon hehe ...
Its so tough when our mojo leaves us, But hun im so glad your feeling better today

sending you lots of ~huggles~ ......... Keep posting hun.

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paula 36

Hi marie,well done on being so positivexx

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Marie_D

Thanks Pixie. I've tried mini goals before, but to be honest it doesn't make an difference to how well I stick to the diet - I just need to learn to take one day/week at a time and appreciate what I've lost. I've tried mini goals, I've tried bigger goals, I've tried no goals, I've tried inch loss goals instead of weight goals.....they all result in the same thing....nothing, lol.

The things I find that spurs me on the most is looking at things that make me think "I want to look like that". Celeb mags, fashion catalogues, music channels etc....I always end up looking at things like that and thinking "right, that's it, I reeeally want to look like that" (not that I think for one second that I'm ever gonna look like Cheryl Cole, but you get my meaning, lol).

I think I'll always have little goals in my head, but they don't really make a difference to how well I stick to my diet or anything. I might take your advice and add them to my signature so I can see where I am etc, but then I worry that I'll just look at them and think "OMG, look how much further I have to go". But, I'll give it a go - maybe crossing them off as I go with encourage me eh

Thanks x

So far today I've used 2.5pts - a cup of tea and a packet of crisps (I never said I was gonna be healthy, I just said I'd stick to my points, hahaha). I think I'll do a potato salad for lunch....new potatoes, spring onions, bacon and mayo....mmmm!

Feeling so positive today - love it!

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My steps to goal...

1 - Lose 12lb (1/4 of the way there!)
2 - Lose 12lb (Half way there!!)
3 - Lose 12lb (3/4 of the way there!)
4 - Lose 12lb (GOAL!!!)

Doesn't seem so far away now does it, just 4 small steps to Slimdom