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shrinkydink

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Hello Everyone

So a little about me , im 5ft3ins and started the cambridge diet on the 3rd Jan 2013 weighing in at a hefty 22st8lbs.:eek: Ive never ever been thin I mean ever. Well my mum had her 4th heart attack at the begining of the year very scary times and had to under go heart surgery due to her weight she had to have three seperate surgerys . I have two lil girls and the idea of putting them through what I was going through didnt bear thinking about. I took action!!!! ive now lost 98 3/4lbs still a way to go but on a mission.:D Ive been following diarys on here for months but never posted ... untill today I supose I didnt want to shout untill I had something to shout about.

I still struggle even after this long but it took me 29 years to put on weight so if it takes a year who am I to complain?

Any buddies would be greatfully recieved
 
Ok so it takes me 5 months to start a diary then within 5 mins im posting again go figure?

At work at the moment and TBH could eat the desk!! I am an emotional eater happy sad anything inbetween my answer is/was to munch!! I dont see food the way I used to, in honesty if you said go on then munch it out, I would probally panic go into shock frantically search the cambridge bible then eat half a bit of chicken and feel awful.

I know ive come so far but I still need to shift 4-5 stone whcih is doable just need to get my head in the game. I had a ss+ week last week which I dont think helped as now could eat the desk lol. Ive been good today just cant seem to get my buzz back.

I think sometimes as I was a 24/26 and im now an 16/18 in my head I feel like I can relax but the mission isnt over for once im not gonna do a HALF ARSED JOB (this is something i do do).

Also as Im having a good ol whinge it does help that I go on holiday in 7 days where i have planned to go up some steps well try two bars and a sensible munch this doesnt help my motorvation. I will smah it once i get back but its my annual festival. No kids,bills ,work or domestic biz just me and the old man its gonna be lush!! the only 4days a year I get to be me with no responcibilties . however dreading the return weigh in !!

Right whinge over for now lol
 
Found you!! :) il be ur buddy haha I'm sure ria will follow soon enough :)

I'm the same emotional eater no matter what. Also the same with thinking of food but if I was offered food I would run a mile lol

What do you work at? Where you from hun? How old are your girls? Lol there I go again with the questions. I NEED to know stuff lol

You are doing so well and we will motivate each other. Not sure if u seen on my diary I am going to America on the 30th for 3.5 weeks and 4 weeks off plan eeeeek!! Dread dread dread!!!

Where you off to on your holibobs :)

Xxx
 
Found you!! :) il be ur buddy haha I'm sure ria will follow soon enough :)

I'm the same emotional eater no matter what. Also the same with thinking of food but if I was offered food I would run a mile lol

What do you work at? Where you from hun? How old are your girls? Lol there I go again with the questions. I NEED to know stuff lol

You are doing so well and we will motivate each other. Not sure if u seen on my diary I am going to America on the 30th for 3.5 weeks and 4 weeks off plan eeeeek!! Dread dread dread!!!

Where you off to on your holibobs :)

Xxx

My girls are 10 and 6 hence im a full time ref lol im off to the download fest im excited but know food will be a nightmare plus avioding the temptation of the evil drink!!!

Cold and grumpy bad day used to equal takeout and vino(box preferably!!) now its banana shake and fizzy water iknow im a rebel!! Lol x
 
My girls are 10 and 6 hence im a full time ref lol im off to the download fest im excited but know food will be a nightmare plus avioding the temptation of the evil drink!!!

Cold and grumpy bad day used to equal takeout and vino(box preferably!!) now its banana shake and fizzy water iknow im a rebel!! Lol x

Wow there girl steady on! Fizzy water AND a banana shake?! Living on the edge lol

Wow 10 and 6 I can imagine lol my girl is 4.5 and what a madam she is! I really want more kids but waiting until Uni is over or more like my husband is making me wait lol I would have had another years ago.

What artists are you looking forward to seeing? Sounds good! It's always nice to have a break from the kids ( god forgive me) haha I think it's nice knowing you only have urself to think or worry about.

Don't stress too much about the festival with food and drink etc because like you say u don't do it often and it's better having a planned break that not plan then have something you feel sooo much worse!

Then when your back you move on and get to goal!! Yay!!

You must post some before and now pics. Would be a great motivation for all of us! Myself included!


Where are you from?!? Lool :)

Xxxx
 
Today has been meh!

I will post pics when im feeling less fat, I know ive lost a lot but mind and body seem in two totally different places right now. Im hoping mind catches up soon but i look in the mirror and although I know in my rational mind 7st is a great loss i still see that fat chick. if you follow me ???

today has been good diet wise really could do with hitting the ol water again as not quite there yet but apart from that no major drama.

This diet really does make you stop and think maybe its because food has been removed so you have to rethink? I turn to food to cope with anything which is kinda sad. in a way its almost a bit like self harm but different . I dont know really we all fight our demons in the end its inevitable you can spend your life running but you can never escape yourself this diet allows you to face your munch related demons so hopefully you can leave the weight behind you as a thing of the past something you did that doesnt define you!!

Still cant picture myself actually being thin does that sound weird ?? I supose its because I was never ever thin its strange anyways random rant of the day over.

Via la food resistance!! lol
 
Today has been meh!

I will post pics when im feeling less fat, I know ive lost a lot but mind and body seem in two totally different places right now. Im hoping mind catches up soon but i look in the mirror and although I know in my rational mind 7st is a great loss i still see that fat chick. if you follow me ???

today has been good diet wise really could do with hitting the ol water again as not quite there yet but apart from that no major drama.

This diet really does make you stop and think maybe its because food has been removed so you have to rethink? I turn to food to cope with anything which is kinda sad. in a way its almost a bit like self harm but different . I dont know really we all fight our demons in the end its inevitable you can spend your life running but you can never escape yourself this diet allows you to face your munch related demons so hopefully you can leave the weight behind you as a thing of the past something you did that doesnt define you!!

Still cant picture myself actually being thin does that sound weird ?? I supose its because I was never ever thin its strange anyways random rant of the day over.

Via la food resistance!! lol

I completely get what you mean!! I've nvr been thin either n can't imagine being so either! It's like I'm going to myself yea right! Good one Martha. Ur not built to be thin and my mum is also very heavy. 5'2 was 27 stone and is now 24. She had a gastric sleeve but nvr kept all the weight off. Sad really because I see how unhappy it makes her and the stuff she couldn't do with us and I don't wanna be that kind of mum. Don't get me wrong she gave us the best childhood and I think she's an incredible mum I just wished she would go to the cinema or out for a drink or just shopping but she didn't like people looking at her.

Same here even though I've pretty much said goodbye to 6 stone I just focus on the other 6 I still have to loose. Then ya go through phases of being annoyed at urself for getting so big.

No worries put the pics up when ur ready :) will be nice to put a face to the name.

Haven't had much water today either lol need to drink some when I get home later.

Hope you have a nice evening! Anything nice planned? Xx
 
Currently at work fighting the urge to munch the desk epically hungary tonight, maybe due to it being a slow shift who knew i also eat when bored . ***** makes me wonder did I just eat non stop regardless of mood or situeation?

I think I have decided to stay on SS/SS+ (with the exception of festival break fingers crossed not to much damage) untill I reach 12st then up the steps to lose the final 2st. hopefully this way I will have finally conquered those pesky food demons and re educate myself into normal eating. Right now the thought of people food is proper scary. which is strange as I now find myself watching food programmes and obsessing about calorie contents bizarre.

Finding it all a bit strange really I read so many negative comments about being overweight but hand on heart I always got on with life no major drama. Exercise was a swear word and calorie counting get a hobbie !! I used to scoff at people now im like a women consumed by weight loss mission. I now run (well attempt to) at least once a week for 4.5 miles again this is unheard of unless there was a mega sale or plane to catch I didnt do running lol .

I know its just another 3.7st but OMG FEELS LIKE ITS GONNA TAKE FOREVER!!! I like it JUST JUST seems almost unthinkable I could finally be thin (ish lol) I dont think ive been 12st since I was 12!!!

Anyways I better do some work as cambridge unfortunatly does pay for itself lol xx
 
Currently at work fighting the urge to munch the desk epically hungary tonight, maybe due to it being a slow shift who knew i also eat when bored . ***** makes me wonder did I just eat non stop regardless of mood or situeation?

I think I have decided to stay on SS/SS+ (with the exception of festival break fingers crossed not to much damage) untill I reach 12st then up the steps to lose the final 2st. hopefully this way I will have finally conquered those pesky food demons and re educate myself into normal eating. Right now the thought of people food is proper scary. which is strange as I now find myself watching food programmes and obsessing about calorie contents bizarre.

Finding it all a bit strange really I read so many negative comments about being overweight but hand on heart I always got on with life no major drama. Exercise was a swear word and calorie counting get a hobbie !! I used to scoff at people now im like a women consumed by weight loss mission. I now run (well attempt to) at least once a week for 4.5 miles again this is unheard of unless there was a mega sale or plane to catch I didnt do running lol .

I know its just another 3.7st but OMG FEELS LIKE ITS GONNA TAKE FOREVER!!! I like it JUST JUST seems almost unthinkable I could finally be thin (ish lol) I dont think ive been 12st since I was 12!!!

Anyways I better do some work as cambridge unfortunatly does pay for itself lol xx

Working late eh? What do u do Hun?

It's hard to push through sometimes but the end is in sight and we will do this!!! :)

I'm excited for you! Ur gonna get there and you will feel amazing. You should be so proud of yourself :)

Xxxx
 
Hi Lucy! Found you!

WOW you have done awesome already!! You only started 2 days after me, where have you been all this time!!? glad you finally started a diary, and can't wait to so some so far pics, there must be a massive difference in you already!!

I know what you mean about never being thin. And it has an odd physchology, because in my head I'm still a fat person, but I suppose now, some people would consider me thin, BUT I still look down and see a wobby belly, bingo wings, big thighs, I think when you're big, you even loose sight of what "thin" is? Now I'm babbling a bit, but I guess in the same way I never thougt I was "that big" now I still don't think I'm "that thin" which I do put down to never ever in my life not being overweight apart from when I was about 3 and wasn't aware of that sort of thing anyway!

Ria

x
 
Hi Lucy! Found you!

WOW you have done awesome already!! You only started 2 days after me, where have you been all this time!!? glad you finally started a diary, and can't wait to so some so far pics, there must be a massive difference in you already!!

I know what you mean about never being thin. And it has an odd physchology, because in my head I'm still a fat person, but I suppose now, some people would consider me thin, BUT I still look down and see a wobby belly, bingo wings, big thighs, I think when you're big, you even loose sight of what "thin" is? Now I'm babbling a bit, but I guess in the same way I never thougt I was "that big" now I still don't think I'm "that thin" which I do put down to never ever in my life not being overweight apart from when I was about 3 and wasn't aware of that sort of thing anyway!

Ria

x

Thanks ria i will load pics at some point still a wee bit camara shy lol

Right ive decided to document mini lil achievements that make me smile.

1. Sat on patio chair with no bum overspill today. No more shallow breathing and stratigic balancing to ensure the chair didnt break!!!! Whoop whoop till now always prefered the indignity of getting up after sitting on the floor rather then the shame of busted patio chairs ooooooooo the shame!!!

Patio chairs of the uk fear not i mean you no harm lol
 
Festival count down is now On, 2 days left!!!!!!!!

So from thursday I'll be off the wagon ish for a week (planned break)!! Never thought it I'd ever dread eating, im taking bars with me so all is not lost. Its strange eating seems scary but its been a real struggle for the last two weeks because I know Im having a planned break. if that makes any sense??

The last 2 days have been epic, sooooooo stressful and the tempation to eat the fridge has been strong. luckliy due to going away there is nothing nice in the fridge which has helped. I dont want to eat for eating sake however if there was nice bits in they may have been demolished. lol

This diet is easy if you can just focus, when life bites ya on the arse as it often does thats when I find it difficult. Trying not to feel sorry for myself and focus on having a good festival break, its going to be great just need to get through the next 2 days on SS. Then its damage limitation for a week then back to being an SS angel for three more stone!! I can do this , I think i can,I know I can lol
 
Defo easy when u focus :) not long to you go away now!! Excitement kicking in?? :) xx


Excited much!!
All pack and nothing bigger than an 18 whoop whoop!! Just weighed in 5 lbs off this week bringing total weight loss to 103.5lbs get in!!!

Festival tomoro so let the damage limitation begin!!! Lol xx

Hope all you other lovely ladies have fab hols 2 x
 
Excited much!!
All pack and nothing bigger than an 18 whoop whoop!! Just weighed in 5 lbs off this week bringing total weight loss to 103.5lbs get in!!!

Festival tomoro so let the damage limitation begin!!! Lol xx

Hope all you other lovely ladies have fab hols 2 x


Back from the festival feeling bleuh!! on the whole i was very good on the food front however......... Naughty pear cider evil pear cider!!
Back on plan and it feels good bit like a detox. Had a hop on the scales and have stayed the same so all in all not too bad really .

I even saw cambridge lemon bar wrappers around the festival campsite!! Really made me smile lol
 
Back from the festival feeling bleuh!! on the whole i was very good on the food front however......... Naughty pear cider evil pear cider!!
Back on plan and it feels good bit like a detox. Had a hop on the scales and have stayed the same so all in all not too bad really .

I even saw cambridge lemon bar wrappers around the festival campsite!! Really made me smile lol

Funny isn't it! Cambridge is everywhere lol glad you had a good time and getting back on track with make you feel great again :)

Well done on the food and the cider isn't the end of the world. You enjoyed yourself so that's great. Bk on track now and finish your journey :) you can do it xx
 
Funny isn't it! Cambridge is everywhere lol glad you had a good time and getting back on track with make you feel great again :)

Well done on the food and the cider isn't the end of the world. You enjoyed yourself so that's great. Bk on track now and finish your journey :) you can do it xx

I hope so feeling ropey today. I somehow managed to get sunburn in the rain. I unfortunately happened to be wearing my massive sunnies so i now look like a bright red panda!! Strange as i tend to go a nice shade of handbag.my other half is burnt to a crisp but he blames it on being from your neck of the woods lol.

Im focusing on tomoro get my mission again. Really want to lose another 39lbs asap .x
 
I hope so feeling ropey today. I somehow managed to get sunburn in the rain. I unfortunately happened to be wearing my massive sunnies so i now look like a bright red panda!! Strange as i tend to go a nice shade of handbag.my other half is burnt to a crisp but he blames it on being from your neck of the woods lol.

Im focusing on tomoro get my mission again. Really want to lose another 39lbs asap .x


Ah haha it's our fault we are all pasty with the odd person that tans
Will u be at goal after 39lb? Lol il sure it will clear up. Aloe Vera is the best thing for sun burn maybe try some of that? Xx
 
Ah haha it's our fault we are all pasty with the odd person that tans
Will u be at goal after 39lb? Lol il sure it will clear up. Aloe Vera is the best thing for sun burn maybe try some of that? Xx

Kind of....ish well the other half thinks ten stone 140lbs is enough ive now lost 103.5lbs and i think maybe twelve would be better. Ive noticed he never ever mentioned my diet till i got to an 18/16 now he is forever asking when im just going to eat healthy and exercise? Its ok for him , he lives on mash,meat,bacon butties and crap and weighs 13/14st he gets in a mood and drops a stone!! Grr rant over im thinking ill just keep telling him numbers every week he will never bother to remember so it could be a groundhog 39lbs lol
 
Kind of....ish well the other half thinks ten stone 140lbs is enough ive now lost 103.5lbs and i think maybe twelve would be better. Ive noticed he never ever mentioned my diet till i got to an 18/16 now he is forever asking when im just going to eat healthy and exercise? Its ok for him , he lives on mash,meat,bacon butties and crap and weighs 13/14st he gets in a mood and drops a stone!! Grr rant over im thinking ill just keep telling him numbers every week he will never bother to remember so it could be a groundhog 39lbs lol

Just tell him u lost less than you did lol just stop when you are happy not when ur told. I've 82lb left to lose lol can't wait until its gone!! Then move up the steps lol x
 
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