Estameme
Silver Member
Hi everyone! I've been perusing this group for a few days now and I am finding everyone's success really motivating so I thought I ought to introduce myself and start my own thread so i can keep track of my journey.
My name is Essie, I am 38 and my weight, as of 18.01.2015, is 24st. I am not surprised by this number at all - I hovered around the 20 stone mark from my early to mid twenties before losing 8.5 stone when I was 28. I kept this off for a little while, but after a break up, loss of a job and various other issues I reverted back to what I was...and more! I haven't tried dieting at all since I started re-putting on weight, I know when my mind is in it and it hasn't been until now. Recently my twin daughters have left for different universities and this has shown me how dependent I had become on them for the majority of things. I have a social anxiety disorder which results in me not leaving the house particularly when I am likely to see other people and up until recently I didn't go out at all. The last time I went out in the day where there were crowds was probably October. This is because I am so embarrassed about my weight, i'm so paranoid that everyone is laughing at me or staring (well they kind of are!) and it makes me want to crawl into a hole.
I am sure this is a feeling that many of you can relate to. It's got to the point now where I need to get my weight sorted at the same time as my mental health and that's my plan for the future.
I find it very difficult to reach out to people. Up until a few years ago I was confident and competent and I am ashamed to admit where I am at at the moment. Talking to my doctor was very difficult but last week I spoke to him on the phone and he has given me some anti-anxiety medication and I feel like I might actually get somewhere.
My weight loss plans are: A calorie controlled diet and exercise. Nothing fancy, just simple maths. My target is to eat 1500cal and exercise 1hour per day. I am using MFP and Pacer to help me keep track.
I have managed to get out of the house each day over the past five days (at 5am in the morning when no-one is around) which is a great streak for me. I'm trying to get my steps up to the 6k average mark by the end of this week, and then each week try to increase it. I have gone from lying on my sofa all day to "lightly active" in the past few days so I am seeing this as a good step in the right direction. I know I probably lost a good few pounds before my new scales arrived (I wasn't sure my old ones would take my weight), but I won't ever know what my true start weight was which annoys the graph-maker in me! So, weigh in day is Sunday - I hope I don't have the dreaded week 2 STS!
If you made it this far give yourself a pat on the back! I look forward to meeting and getting to know some of you in the future, until then have a great day!
My name is Essie, I am 38 and my weight, as of 18.01.2015, is 24st. I am not surprised by this number at all - I hovered around the 20 stone mark from my early to mid twenties before losing 8.5 stone when I was 28. I kept this off for a little while, but after a break up, loss of a job and various other issues I reverted back to what I was...and more! I haven't tried dieting at all since I started re-putting on weight, I know when my mind is in it and it hasn't been until now. Recently my twin daughters have left for different universities and this has shown me how dependent I had become on them for the majority of things. I have a social anxiety disorder which results in me not leaving the house particularly when I am likely to see other people and up until recently I didn't go out at all. The last time I went out in the day where there were crowds was probably October. This is because I am so embarrassed about my weight, i'm so paranoid that everyone is laughing at me or staring (well they kind of are!) and it makes me want to crawl into a hole.
I am sure this is a feeling that many of you can relate to. It's got to the point now where I need to get my weight sorted at the same time as my mental health and that's my plan for the future.
I find it very difficult to reach out to people. Up until a few years ago I was confident and competent and I am ashamed to admit where I am at at the moment. Talking to my doctor was very difficult but last week I spoke to him on the phone and he has given me some anti-anxiety medication and I feel like I might actually get somewhere.
My weight loss plans are: A calorie controlled diet and exercise. Nothing fancy, just simple maths. My target is to eat 1500cal and exercise 1hour per day. I am using MFP and Pacer to help me keep track.
I have managed to get out of the house each day over the past five days (at 5am in the morning when no-one is around) which is a great streak for me. I'm trying to get my steps up to the 6k average mark by the end of this week, and then each week try to increase it. I have gone from lying on my sofa all day to "lightly active" in the past few days so I am seeing this as a good step in the right direction. I know I probably lost a good few pounds before my new scales arrived (I wasn't sure my old ones would take my weight), but I won't ever know what my true start weight was which annoys the graph-maker in me! So, weigh in day is Sunday - I hope I don't have the dreaded week 2 STS!
If you made it this far give yourself a pat on the back! I look forward to meeting and getting to know some of you in the future, until then have a great day!
We can tackle our weight together one step at a time.
