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  1. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hello.....anyone still here?
  2. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    SO - yay.....STILL faffing about, FFS. Honestly, I need to start working through some stuff - I am in the shittiest headspace I have been in for such a long time. Really sh*t. :( I have been on/off/good/bad - had a knee injury - knee replacement surgery ahead - had a bereavement-lost my...
  3. Blonde Logic

    Gosh its quiet in here... :(

    I am still here though my visits have been sporadic due to illness in the family which has sadly turned to a bereavement - which is a challenge as I am an emotional eater. Its white knuckle but I am managing to say strong. I had really gotten in to a muddle before Christmas - good one day, bad...
  4. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Argh!!! I have been struggling a lot the last few weeks - so annoying I just have no "NO" in me. I need to get my act together. So far I have managed to stay the same or even lose 2 pounds but mostly STS for last 2 or 3 weeks. Need to buckle down and stop this picking here and there. Its...
  5. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Aww, thanks :) I spent an hour with my CD lady today. We had a good long talk - and I have resolved a few things, so hopefully going forward I should be able to get back on track. I am determined to get there. :) You are doing really well there :) And yes - that is such a great feeling...
  6. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Hey all - fantastic result Natalie - 5 pounds - wow!! I have been having a wobbly moment - slipped a few days ago and am struggling to get back on the straight and narrow. I will, but its pissing me off. Stress level got high - depression got low - bad combo - thats when food always makes an...
  7. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    You're right Natalie!! - we can do this. I slipped up tongiht, but now I am determined to knock this on it head. Too close to 3 stone which is near a half way mark = so I dont want to get silly now!! Thank you !!!
  8. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Been an annoying couple of weeks. Just 1 pound lost each week. Had to go to a relatives funeral, and death is not something I deal with following the traumatic way my mother died. So it is a real trigger. I have been picking and cheating with a little this and a little that - and its slowed...
  9. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Hi all - I lost another 3 pounds this week - so now a total of 33 which is about 1/3 of the way to goal. I wanted to have all this done by CHristmas but because I faffed so much at the start I know I wont but it feels good to be making my through. I have been viewing all sorts of sites...
  10. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Hello and welcome Buttercup!!! How are you getting on? The first 2-3 weeks are the most difficult - if you can grit your teeth and power through - just get through those adjusting weeks and it then becomes the easiest diet E V E R with great and quick results - you will be amazed!!! SO...
  11. Blonde Logic

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    Woop woop! 2 more pounds gone, and forgotten. :D Feeling good now - being in control means I know each week I will see a loss. I feel a kind of buzz inside. I know I am on my way again. I know I am in it to win it, and this is not one of my false starts. You know how you just KNOW...
  12. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    I am quite lucky in the sense I am not a huge drinker, and my husband and I are both pretty content staying watching movies, etc., so we do not go "out" much at all which makes weekends easier for me. But for you who are younger and go out with your mates - that would be a big challenge...
  13. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    I totally get you - and where you are coming from. It CAN be difficult. And it CAN be so little fun its not even funny. But the important thing to try and remember - is this is only temporary - life WILL return to normal - better than normal - as you will be a new, slim, happy confident...
  14. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    hahaha LOL at the "geeky mouthfull" comment. :D So glad you are feeling better - just a better mood will help everything else seem better too. :)
  15. Blonde Logic

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    Oh wow - well done!!! What a marvelous acheivement. I can;t wait to say that again - it feels great doesn't it!! Lighter Life is worth every penny. If I could afford it I would do it again because the counseling is invaluable. There is so much more to losing weight and maintaining it then...
  16. Blonde Logic

    Is there ANYONE participating in this forum??

    Hi Rachael. :) How are you getting o with LL? I did LL in 2008 and had fantastic results - lost 10 stone. I maintained for 2 years, but sadly my like took a few pretty hard knocks and I put abut half of it back on between 2010 and 2016. So now trying to rectify that - though doing Cambridge...
  17. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Whoop whoop! 4 pounds lost this week - which is 2 stone. So happy! Feeling really positive about everything at the moment. Enjoying it while it lasts. Hows everyones week been? :) xx
  18. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    I have spent the last three days doing major wardrobe overhauling. I have thrown out things that are too big - and things that are smaller than I desire to go this time around, so things I no I never will wear again - shoes I can not wear but cannot yet part with are going up in the loft. And...
  19. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Hey - maybe Lemon is considered safe by Cambridge - Most of my knowledge has come from doing LIghter Life initially and they said no citrus at all. Speak with your counselr - thats the best thing when in doubt. I don;t want to steer you wrong if the rules have changed I am not aware. :)...
  20. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    No lemons or oranges or limes in the water Im afraid - citrus will knock you out of ketosis. Have you tried the water flavourings? The summer berries is nice - I just use a little as its very sweet but just a hint of flavour makes it much more palatable. Also fizzy water with the flavourings...
  21. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Yep! Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. :) Persistance pays off - wyou will find your groove. :) Good luck !!! xx
  22. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Wow!!! 11 Pounds!!! WELL DONE!! Makes it ALL worth it doesn;t it!? :) And now that you SEE it works, it will get much much easier in your head and you will be driven to keep going!!! I a so happy for you !!! :) :) I have my weigh ins on Friday evenings but sometimes Thursday mornings...
  23. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Thank you :) You are off to a great start too! Well done - you are almost through the toughest part. Once you are fully in ketosis - it gets so much easier. Something I find really useful - is Ketostix. They used to give you a few to take home so you could test your wee and make sure, or...
  24. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Fantastic ladies!!! Its such a wonderful diet once you get rolling. I had another good weigh in yesterday - another 3 pounds bite the dust!! It feels so good to be having nice, consistant good losses now. The Spag Bo is a lifesaver for me. Heres to a great week ahead for all of us! :)
  25. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    OK. Phew. Ii am there. On the Ketosis train. 100% for 2 weeks. Still feels a very slippery slope but the worst is hopefully behind me and my focus is in place. I am now down 20 pounds. 70 to go. Its a long road, but I am determined to get there, no matter how many detours try and stop...
  26. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    -4 Pounds this week!! I am very happy with that as I have been faffing about so much with this diet - mesing about, wasting time, too afraid to TRULY cut the cord with food. I think I have finally done it. Feels great to FINALLY feel in control and on course now. May I please just stay...
  27. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi Mel :) So nice to see you again and hear your update. I think I mentioned a while back I had a spell of bad health. Since then I was reluctant to even DO a VLCD. Having lost half my bowel I did ot think it would be wise. So I tried more "conventional means". I dabbled and got...
  28. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Well - I had thouhgt I had it licked, but I never let Ketosis get a firm hold....and I slipped back to messing around. I tried to put my finger on it - why I kept messing about witht he diet. And while I never did find my answer, suddenly something has changed and I am now on my 4th or 5th day...
  29. Blonde Logic

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    I totally remmeber you YM!! Glad you are well - and congrats on the babies! :D xx
  30. Blonde Logic

    To those who remember SlendaBlenda

    Hi YM. I know - I miss her terribly. I had not made many friends here in the UK - she was one of the best I had. I often want to go meet her in her garden for tea like we used to and then remember. :(
  31. Blonde Logic

    August Challenge now over. Only 115 days to Christmas now.

    Well done - everyone is doing so good!!! Lets keep this going!! " is not over yet - but going in the right direction!! Roll on bedtime - then "Phew - thats another under the belt!" :D
  32. Blonde Logic

    August Challenge now over. Only 115 days to Christmas now.

    Feeling excited about this challenge - imagine what we can do with 31 days of 100% dedication - will be amazing!
  33. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hoorah! My efforts have paid off. I am in ketosis as proved by the 6 pounds I dropped this week. Now THATs more like it. OK - now I rememebr how great this diet works if you let it. I am done messing about! I am over the moon with this, and it feels like more of a week one than the one I...
  34. Blonde Logic

    August Challenge now over. Only 115 days to Christmas now.

    Ooooh! Sign me up for the challenge! Thanks for the heads up Minerva! I am on Cambridge and have been struggling in my firt month to really embed myself in the groove - managed to lose 10 pounds but it should have been so much more by now....so....I am pulling my finger out and going to go...
  35. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    And last week - messed about and went up two pounds - so - a stern telling off, I have managed to stop the fiddling about and I believe today I am in FULL ketosis - I hav buckets of energy - I have not had a pack yet - so hopefully, all systems are go. Now I jut need to dig deep - and rock this...
  36. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Ugggh,,,, starting to feel like I am running up hill in waist high treacle. I need to pull my finger out an get on the Ketosis Track, well and proper. I cannot seem to find that steely determination - still - and I need too. Dammit.
  37. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Well shoot. Messed about this week and stayed the same. I need to pull my finger out and get serious. Pleased its not a gain but its a silly waste of time and money - so here is to a much better, more more restrained, controlled, and near perfect week. One can hope.
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  43. Blonde Logic

    Minerva's corner...

    Nice there are a few of us that are doing the VLCD in a way that suits ourselves - and its reassuring hearing others have relaxed from the 100% rule. It does feel more relaxed and more sustainable - as long as I keep it real and don;t slowly stretch the rules more and more.... lol Keep doing...
  44. Blonde Logic

    Minerva's corner...

    Hi Min :) Glad its going well. I have also been "mixing it up a little". That was never my intention, but I found I just don;t have the pure steely will power and resolve I had the first time around. I was so black and white the first time - it was the only way I felt I could get through...
  45. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Yay - 3 more pounds off this week! Happy with that. I do not mind slow and steady. Feeling more and more positive Angie. Training was good Minerva but yes - exhausting. I feel like such an old lady when I am smothered under all this extra wegith. xx How are you two doing? Did you...
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    How funny - in my training for my job today, I learned of Ocean Colour Scene for the first time. I had never heard of them before this morinng and now here they are mentioned again! :D
  49. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Thans kenshin - nice to "see" you again. :) I am giving it my best shot! :)
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Well done!!! SOunds like a very good strong start. I do remember you now! Thank you! :D (GREAT photo!) Yesterday I amanged my first 100% day - I was happy with that. Today I have spent the day in London at an all day training for my new job - I had to leave the house at 6am, we did...
  51. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi Angie.....I am trying so hard to picture you - I totally remmeber your name, but can't place your face from any pictures. But I do remember you! :) Its nice to hear from you again and thanks for your kind comments. I am just about to go to bed but wanted to wish you a great start on...
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  54. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    I a going to try my very best to be 100% today. I am going to try and keep busy in the garden, lots of distractions, and hopefully get one perfect day under my bet. If ijut get ONE, then the second will be easier, and so on. :) Give me strength! :D
  55. Blonde Logic

    Is there ANYONE participating in this forum??

    Oh no - thats too bad. I hope it passes....no pun intended. Honestly....I know its no laughing matter. I had a lot of trouble last year, in fact had surgery and unexpectedly had half my bowel removed. So I too have to be very careful prodceeding and am hoping not to have any problems. I...
  56. Blonde Logic

    Is there ANYONE participating in this forum??

    Hi there! I know! I never saw the site so quiet!! It's nice to meet a couple of other VLCDers - we are all going through the same things, regardless of the brand. :) How are you getting on with Lipotrim? :)
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    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Thank you Mini and Minerva. Minerva I know you will nail this and absolutley better to nip it at the beginning - I wish I had done that.. Woulda coulda shoulda. Its nice to have some companny. :) xxx Mini, your words really meant alot - faith in myself is something I need to work on...
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  60. Blonde Logic

    Is there ANYONE participating in this forum??

    Hi :) I loved LL, and I got SO much out of the group. How much do you have to lose? Hand on heart if you feel you have more than 3 stone to lose - I would strongly suggest you go to the groups - they were INVALUABLE for me, and there are ONLY people like you there - that will feel exactly...
  61. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    So, still a bit of a false start - I am lacking the zero-tolerance will power I had hoped to start with, but I am at least losing - 6 pounds total down now in week 2. I should have been able to do that easily in week one - even more really. But it is what it is. I guess I am still a little...
  62. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Hi Mini I am down 6 pounds from starting. Considering the binging phase I have come out of I am pleased with that - I know if could hae been better, but at least its the right direction and already has eased some of the pain I feel in my feet and knees - so its a good start. Thank you for...
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    Here's an oldie.... New Riders of the Purple Sage.
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    Hi All...Day 5 = bad

    Hi Grubey :) I am on Day 10. It is not my first time doing a VLCD, and I can tell you the first few days are quite tough and can make you moody of course - you have gone from having whatever you wanted whenever you could to virtually nothing. Takes a lot of will and determination jut to do...
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    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Thank you Mini. It's a start. I know it could have been much higher if I had not nibbled on a small handfull of almonds each night - but I had to do what I had to, to get to ketosis. I don;t feel as strong as I once was. Yet. But in ketosis now so looking forward to a good loss next week...
  71. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    4 pounds gone! Should have been better - could have been worse. Happy with what it is.
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  73. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    First weigh in this morning! I have struggled a bit getting into K, but I think I am there. I have not been able to get through a day without popping a few bites of cheese and a couple of almonds. Hopefully now that I feel I am in K, this can stp. Fingers crossed it has not affected the loss...
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  76. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    So, this is Day 3. I am struggling a bit - just getting back in the swing of things. These previous 2 or 3 months I have been in full on binge cycle - with an unbelievable sugar addiction in full force - and feeling terribly poorly for it. Going from that to "nothing" - its quite a challenge...
  77. Blonde Logic

    Is there ANYONE participating in this forum??

    Ooooohhh.....of course. I forget about those little things. Oh well = thanks for the reply anyway! Its some activity! :D
  78. Blonde Logic

    Is there ANYONE participating in this forum??

    Hi there I did LL in 2008, and this forum was a hive of activity. For financial reasons I am doing CD now, but the CD forum is like a ghost town - there is no converstaions at all. Is there anyone here? As LL is the same diet I thought I would post here for support if it had any activity but...
  79. Blonde Logic

    Day 2.. . . . .

    Wow - I had forgotten how boring just water was. Might have to break down and get flavourings. I am constantly thinking about what I cannot have. I wobbled last night at the 11th hour. :( So today if 100% I guess would really be day one. <shrugs> Roll on Ketosisi - its so much easier...
  80. Blonde Logic

    Gosh its quiet in here... :(

    I remember in 2008 when I did LL, this place was HOPPING!!! There were posts going all day, every day - lots of banter and support and conversation. Now - it's like a ghost town. :(
  81. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Good for you for keeping on and persavering. Its difficult enough on a good day but add lifes challenges and its doubled! Sounds like you are managing your weight well. I have been in full on binge mode since Christmas. Life has just been a bit challenging the last few years.....and I lost...
  82. Blonde Logic

    Fibre Supplements

    I am wondering about Fibre Supplements that are compatible with VLCDs and do not affect Ketosis. I had half of my bowel removed last year and need to be extra careful that constipation does not become an issue so want to add fibre to my drinks. I would prefer it be powder as I already take...
  83. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Thanks Doll! I feel great about starting......just got to dig in and get on with it. So how have you been - and what are you up to these days? Are you dieting or maintaining, or...? I love your pic. I remember too you had gone through some tough times too, when you lost your grandmother...
  84. Blonde Logic

    To those who remember SlendaBlenda

    Helllllo ladies - I see some faimliar faces!! Minerva - how are you? Lucy - I hope you are well! Thank you Miss Ama. I still cannot believe Debs is gone. I really get lonesome for her. I have not made many friends living here in the UK, so losing her was huge. SHe has left a big hole in...
  85. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Back in the saddle again - Day one of Cambridge Diet today. Its been a horrendous few years. I am in the WORST shape of my life - even though I am lighter than I was when I started LL in 2008 and lost all that weight - I feel worse than ever. The weight is literally killing me - I feel as if...
  86. Blonde Logic

    Step 1 Sole Source Day one. Here goes EVERYTHING.

    Here we go again.... Hi all, I am restarting CD, sole source, and its day one. A little background - in 2008 I lost over 10 Stone on Lighter Life - which was a wonderful program and the counseling so helpful - but I can no longner afford LL, so CD is the next best thing! After a very...
  87. Blonde Logic

    To those who remember SlendaBlenda

    She really was Andy. I miss her terribly. I think of her all the time and wish I could go have tea with her in her garden and revel in our new found slimness like we used to do. We shared our once in a life time success - it was a special time. I wish she were still here. :( :( :(
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    To those who remember SlendaBlenda

    Hi Sarah-Louise - nice to see you again. :) xxx
  91. Blonde Logic

    To those who remember SlendaBlenda

    I miss her so much. I think of her often, and feel so sad that she is gone. I miss our coffees and chats in her garden, and her wicked sense of humour and huge supportive shoulders. She was really my only friend here in the UK - so really feel lonesome without her. She was so happy with...
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    Welcome Back!

    So great to see the site back up!!!! :)
  93. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi Kira, yes, I miss Debbie very much. Sadly, with my own health problems I had not seen her for a few months - I thought of her often while I was sick with the intention to get together as soon as I was through the worst of it - unfortunately, that took too long and opportunities were missed...
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Just in case you didn;t see this on the main page: Hi, I do not know if there is still anyone here who was active on the forum at the same time that SlendaBlenda was - she and i did Lighterlife together in 2008 and each lost 10 stone. Debbie was an active participant on Minimins as was I, and...
  95. Blonde Logic

    To those who remember SlendaBlenda

    Hi, I do not know if there is still anyone here who was active on the forum at the same time that SlendaBlenda was - she and i did Lighterlife together in 2008 and each lost 10 stone. Debbie was an active participant on Minimins as was I, and she was known by many as an inspiration. That is...
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    I have been away so long. Have had a horrific few months with bad health following a Cancer Scare in December. Anyone still here?
  97. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Thanks gals. How are you two doing? Are you following any diets at the moment? I have been away so long I do not know who is doing what anymore? :) And you asked me Mel - I am still making my way on Cambridge.
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Thank you. It was really painful to shut the door on my brother - but it has been a long time (years) coming. I just always held out hope for him - I idolised him when I was a kid - and never got anything in return from him. I have had his back his entire life when no one else did. He took...
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi there. I had to look back to see where I was when I dropped off the radar. I see I had just lost our little Muffin - and I had been dealing with the Boss From Hell - a misogynistic pratt, and had stopped the diet because of the effects of it on my recovery following my surgery. So - to...
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Wow, I must have felt your thoughts in the ether.....I have not been here for months, and for some reason last night I had an urge to look, and found your really kind comments. Thanks so much everyone. I had to sort of step back and take a break from life I think. After my Hemi surgery was...
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    Still here. Still sad...though it's getting easier. But still losing. Very slowly because I keep messing around - but at least the past 2 weeks have seen 3 of my regained stupid pounds go again. xxx
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi everyone, Well, ....that is always the easy start "Well..." it's what follows is difficult. We lost out little Muffin last night - we sent her on to The Bridge where she can be reunited with Mom. But it was so hard to let her go, and I miss her so much already. These past several...
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi ladies - thanks so much for looking out for me. :) I am still out here surviving.....and trying. It has just been busy with hubby gone, and dealing with Muffin - it has all kind of taken up my time- but I am still here. :) I am back on total abstinance now, as everything seems to have...
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    Yes, I realise now that I have to do that to prevent any future problems. I suppose in a way it is good I had my little binge - because that is what highlighted the problem. So I just have to try and be sensible. Fortunately, with DH in America at the moment, I do not have to buy sweets or...
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    Mel, I didn;t tell my surgeon. I didn;t want them to tell me to stop.:rolleyes::o (Silly girl, I know - we always know better, right?....NOT) I know better then I thought I did NOW. lol xx
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi all. Feeling a bit discouraged. I got back into Ketosis last week - and the moment I did, I ate something. If that is not self-sabatoge, I don't know WHAT is. I can;t work out why - not yet anyway - but from there....started feeling really frustrated and bored and stuff. I did go into...
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    That is GREAT Kira!! That's a good loss. Water goes - fat follows - its all good! :) I was talking to my friend at work today - I really dont mind 1 or 2 pound losses. The first time I did LL I had 10 stone to lose, so I wanted it off as fast as possible - but thinking about it today - a...
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    Another pound bites the dust. I am goona concentrate and try and up the losses - no more fussing about!!! lol But at least it is all in the right direction! :)7 Hubby off to our land in 'Merica to do more developing, so that will make it easier -just me to feed. Hope everyone is doing...
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Last time I walked out of my jeans was in a crosswalk at Fishermans Wharf in San Francisco! :D Not terrible convenient! :giggle: Feels good to be in a size 16 jean!!! :D
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    Ooooh! I forgot - fun news - tonight when I got home and was walking from my car into my house, I felt my jeans feeling really loose! In fact - once I got in the house, and walking down my hallway, I walked right out of them! :D So I went and tried on my 16s - and I got in them!! WHOOOP...
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    Thats just it Kira, I had been eating. I was being careful - as careful as I could be - with my choices - protein, etc., and not breads, but still - I really was struggling 50% of the time. So I truly expected a gain! But pleased in the end - but not a green light to pick anymore! I had to...
  112. Blonde Logic

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    I don't know how I did it, but I managed to lose a pound this week. I need to pull myself together - whilst I have been lucky, its not on. I am certain it is nerves - my manager issues and Muffin issues. I have had a tummy ache since Saturday. Not like a fluey or bubbly tummy, but like the...
  113. Blonde Logic

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    so far so good - bed soon, and then thats the day done. I hope I can do it tomorrow. I seem to be every other daying it. :/
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    ARGH!!!!!!!! I am fighting SO HARD today not to eat anything. It is GRUELING!!! I do not know why I am struggling so much to get back in to Ketosis - but today I MUST make it through and then again tomorrow. I messed up yesterday. Not bad, but enough to be thouroughly annoyed wit myself...
  115. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi Mel :) Hope you are well? :) Healing is progressing - I am back to full time next week. Going back to work while difficult at times, has helped. Still some pain when "taking care of business" - but this too shall pass. Yes. I heard it. This procedure is nearly impossible to speak of...
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    I hear what you are saying , but this manager - he is a real slimey piece of work. There is NO way I can pretend to make nice with him, as I have already told him I have a real prblem with him, and that I do not trust him! lol He is VILE. He has insulted and pissed off every single member of...
  117. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi Kira. :) We are both taking life one day at a time these days. :) Muffin's adaption is slow, with a lot of stumbling blocks in the road- literally for her. But I think she is progressing. Slowly, but still progressing. I am trying to remain optomistic. I am back at work now which has...
  118. Blonde Logic

    Yummy - Legal treat for hot summer days!

    Hi all, Just thought I would pop on and share something I just tried with scrummy results. I used the Tetra Packs and filled a little Ice Lolly Tray - one tetra made 3 lollies - and voila! Overnight you have Ice Milks! Yummy! :)
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    Last 2 letters start the new word >>>>

    iatrogenic
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    Last 2 letters start the new word >>>>

    This looks fun - can I play! :) Geriatric - which is how I feel! :D
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    Hi Mel... First, to be clear - that is 15" total since starting the diet - not as a result of the surgery! :D I love your uncles story - I bet that is and always will be a special place for his children to go. I would love to have a place like that to go. Its just really hard to see...
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    Oh yeah - and I have lost 15 inches. :)
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    LOL at birth being a little uncomfortable = not that I know first hand, but its nor rocket science is it!!! lol Anyway - breif catch up - I have had a really rough week this past week - not just cause of the surgery, but my little dog Muffin, who we shipped over after mom died - she was her...
  124. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi all, I think I may have finally turned a corner - yesterday I started feeling better generally and the pain while using the loo has lessened to a much more tolerable level. I did go back to see a surgeon Mel, and he was not overly concerned at that point about the pain I was having. I was...
  125. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Nail on the head Kira - I have been feeling my depression falring up alot - particularly earlier today. I realise I have been so diligent in all my medications following surgery that I have got a bit slack taking my anti-d's - so on top of that now. I only missed a day or two in the past 2...
  126. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Well, after a week and a bit, after having to mix it up a bit with a bit of food with packs for healing purposes, I have not done too badly = gained a pound somewhere in the last two weeks. I will probably still have to subsadise a bit of food to bulk thinks up in order for my bodys muscle...
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    lol my typin is attrocious. meds. :o
  128. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi All, Well, still having some ups and downs on recovry. Had to return to hospita yesterday. Was there all afternoon, but they gave me some morphone agani to help with the pain and than changed operatives and meds. So will see how it goes now. Have been signed off another week. I am...
  129. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Thanks Kira.....rough. Just rough and sore and tired. I think after I write this I will close my eyes and be away with the fairies for a few. Food ahs been going fine - in a way - and not in others. I have felt so rotten I have had no apetite. I did not know this was possible. lol...
  130. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Thank you sweetheart. I am being good diet wise - I have had a couple of things merely for the sake of having something to pass - otherwise I was straining too much because the feeling was there but nothing to pass. Keeping it band, boring and essential only. Truth is I have no apetite and...
  131. Blonde Logic

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    :(I am feeling rotten. This is by far one of the most painful surgeries I have ever had. (hemmorhoid) :( I can;t get enough pain medicine down me, and even then it barely touches the surface of it. :( I am so miserable. I thought I was a pro at surgeries - this one has the best of me. It...
  132. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi everyone. I am feeling a bit deflated after a pasting by my new line manager. For the pst 3 years, me and my peers have been wroking in HORRENDOUS conditions. We had a new IT system bought (as cheaply as possible) and it is not fit for purpose. It has been 3 years of serious IT issues -...
  133. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    My ticker wont update? :( Anyone else having problems?
  134. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Welll, I got very lucky this week. For no real reason, I managed to put a few bites of a beef stir fry I cooked my husband in my mouth. This was Saturday. Ii do not know why I did it. It just looked and smelled beautiful and without half a seconds thought it went in my mouth. About 5 times...
  135. Blonde Logic

    Getting my mojo back!

    Loving your update Spangly! xx
  136. Blonde Logic

    Getting my mojo back!

    You are doing fab Spangly. I really do understanding about feeling its "ok to live and enjoy your life". I still struggle that after moms death, but I am working on it - and you will give me inspiration. You really sound wonderfula dn I love the whole gardening thing and getting back to your...
  137. Blonde Logic

    Getting my mojo back!

    Good advise Kira. I need to do that too - plan for maintenance. You can never plan too much or too soon. Not for that. :) xx
  138. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Thank you Mel! :) Spangly, I am so pleased to hear you sounding so much more positive!! Isn't it amazing what a few weeks of regaining control can do to ur mood. :) I have been getting back in to beading, and I see you have been drawing. Good stuff!!! :) I will pop over and see your...
  139. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi everyone! I hope you all had good weekends and that the week is shaping up nicely, jut like us. :D I had a good week on the scales- 3 pounds gone! So now 1 pound shy of 2 stone. Happy with that. Still no real change in clothes or physical pain yet - but hopefully soon. Everone keeps...
  140. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi Ladies. :) Well, yesterdays weigh in was 2 pounds, so all heading in the right direction. :) beads are indeed lava - in real light, not my phone, they are brown. First time I have used them and I quite like the effect. :) Thanks everyone for your nice cmments. :) It feels good to...
  141. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Evening all. Like we all say TGIF, I too say TGMO - Thank God Monday's Over. lol Work is a pressure cooker at the moment. Lots of illness = lots of people on leave - lots of system problems - (3 years conitnual system problems - c o n t i n u o u s). I have never see a company accept such a...
  142. Blonde Logic

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    I tried something different this weekend.....even though shattered when I got home from work, I did 3 loads of laundry, cleaned and hoovered and dusted the lounge, did the washing up and tidied the kitchen, and cleaned the littler trays (yuck - worst job e v e r) lol - still had time to watch...
  143. Blonde Logic

    Getting my mojo back!

    Well done!!! One more day under your shrinking belt!! :) I am the same with coffee as you are with tea. I am a coffee fiend - except on packs. Hard as I try I just cannot fall in love with black coffee. Glad you are getting through the tough bits in these early days - won;t be long and...
  144. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi everyone - happy hump day! :D Roll on Friday, thats what I say!! I hope you are all doing well. :) It's hot and humid here and I am praying for a loud bangin Thunderstorm!!!! One of my Top 5 favourite sounds! Had a slow week this week - lost 1 pound. But honestly, after losing 21...
  145. Blonde Logic

    Getting my mojo back!

    When I went back, 3 weekd ago I did not look at the scales. I did not look at her face. And I did not look at my little booklet. It made it so much easier to jut get on with it in a positive frame of mind. The next week I looked, and I was glad I had not looked the first week - it would have...
  146. Blonde Logic

    Getting my mojo back!

    Good luck tomorrow Spangles. We are all behind you. :) xxx
  147. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi gals! WIndy and chillly hear today. Mel, that book sounds right up my alley - I am going to look at that next! WW should be a good plan for you for that amunt of weight. It won;t take you long. :) Good luck!! Off to Amazon! :D
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    I am feeling good Mel. :) This week off has done me a world of good. :) I am now off to google Burleigh! :) How are you! Hey, I was thinking about your dad yesterday - how is he doing these days? And how are you getting on with your SnS? :) Do you have sun today - isn;t it lovely...
  149. Blonde Logic

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    Just got back form dropping off 8 bags of things at 2 Charity shops in town. Ahhhh - that task has been waiting for months and months and months. Years. And by finally doing it (they have been bagged up and ready since November last year!!)...by FINALLY doing it, it got me thinking. Doing...
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    Hhi ladies....here is a snap of my new purchases. The camera is giving off more of a neon effect then exists, but its still pretty bright and cheerfful. :) I have also decided to expand our dishware. We have the "Blue Willow" patterened dishes which are nice, but would not have been my...
  151. Blonde Logic

    "Things No one will tell Fat Girls" - an interesting read.

    The Militant Baker: Things No One Will Tell Fat Girls... SO I WILL. I enjoyed reading this - so thought I would share. Our minds can be our best friend, or our worst enemy...... Hope you enjoy. :)
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    Getting my mojo back!

    Glad the sessions are a good thing. I think when you feel positive about them very early on like this, it means its a good match with the counselor and I bet you will get a great benefit from it. It takes time.... And it can be hard work - but it is worth it. :) Speaking for myself, food...
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    Mel - what did you mean your firend tried to granite her freezer? I had not thought about the cracking factor - I bet these would? They are actually intended as shoe boxes. Well, it was not great investment so I will give it a try. :) Were the metal ones she got specifically for freezer...
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    Oh what a fun busy busy day! After my weigh in, I looked in at B&Q for some garden furniture. Now that we FINALLY (:bliss: ) have a finished back yard now - we have decked the who thing up to the border thats already planted and beautiful - and now, instead of piles of rubble, spare tired...
  155. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi everyone. How are all you skinny losers doing? :D Everyone feeling on track, and positive? I am off this week and this is a long needed break. I am enjoying myself so much. Just doing all sorts of spring cleaning - movie watching - retail therapy - denatl appointments LONG put off...
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    I think that is one of the biggest keys to maintenance is nipping it in the bud. Good for you!! Good luck with the detox - you must be about done? My boss has done the 5-2 diet, with good results, she looks great. I don't think that would be for me - I am such an ALL or NOTHING person - the...
  157. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi Kira - I am doing very well thank you. :) How about you? Is it sunny where you are - its so nice to see SUN!!! Week 2 weigh in - 4 pounds! That is a Stone and 1 lb in 1 week!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol Now I am where I was when I did my last run at abstinance - so I only regained 2 weeks over...
  158. Blonde Logic

    Getting my mojo back!

    Good for you for getting some help - fantastic move! It is amazing how LL peels away at layers and you never know what to expect, or how it will hit you! I think thats a marvelous step. :) I found my treatment so helpful last year for different reasons, but an unbiased view can really clear...
  159. Blonde Logic

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    Chugging my first bottle as we speak!! :D
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    First week Well, 1st week weigh in done! Ya know - the first week weigh in is kind of a double edged sword. You WANT to have a big loss, true. But the bigger the loss generally indicates how bad your behaviour was the weeks before the diet. So - that said - I lost 11 pounds!!!! :clap:, and...
  161. Blonde Logic

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    I cant wait to get in to them. I virtually have a new (half new) wardrobe waiting for me. All the lovely clothes I bought last year as motivation barely every got worn - most still with tags. Thats because I bought them - went to California at the very end of abstinance - and thats where it...
  162. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi Ladies. ) Thank you Kira - you really boost me with your posts. :) You know, my clothes are always a huge part of what gets me back here and makes me refuse to give in and accept a fat life. I just can't bear the thought of giving them to charity - walking in heavey and handing them...
  163. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hello Ladies! Happiness is a rosey pink pee stick! :bliss: I'm safe!!!!! LOL I just checked and I am in the Mighty K and now my body is a little fat burning furnace!! :D Well, Its a fat burning furnace - it's not a little one.....yet! ;) Yesterday was somewhat of a challenge - a...
  164. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hmmm. Not exactly jumping for joy yet. Feeling hungry...trying to last as long as I can before my last pack. I miss 4 packs, like LL. CD is only 3 packs. As you know! lol But yeah, its not all doom and gloom, but I am pretty dissappointed I find myself here again. I know once I am into K...
  165. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Thanks ladies....Day One today - a few pangs and moments where I thought it was time to eat.....so glug glug glug - get that water going! lol Be glad when I am in ketosis. xx
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    Getting my mojo back!

    Oh my - I so so SO relate to that too!!!!!! The whole "My light went out" is EXACLTY what happened to me when my dad ( my hero) died in 1993. I have never ever been the same since then. Man I get that. I really do. <<<hugs>>> And he too died around Christmas - he died on the 6th December, and...
  167. Blonde Logic

    Getting my mojo back!

    Wow Spangle Lady :) - I relate to a lot of what you are saying here. I am on Anti Depressants too. I have been since mom died - so three years now ( hard to believe) - and I know I am better, by far - but i also know I am still depressed. If I am honest with myself I think I have been...
  168. Blonde Logic

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    Only time for a quick thought - then work - then weekend.......thankg god...!!! As it gets closer to next Wednesday, when I start, I am beginning to get that kind of exciting/kind of scary feeling - I equate it to having been in prison for a long time, and my day of freedom is just around the...
  169. Blonde Logic

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    Min good for your for continuing your education - you are a real little learner you are! And all the education you get, whether you think you need or wnat or will even use, will benefit you inthe long run. Its good to soak up as much knowledge as you can now. I wish I had been more...
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    Thank you all so much. It is always nice to see that support never leaves MMs. :) <hugs> I am finding that with every step I take, I think "Thank god its almost over". Isn;t that odd? I think it is. Why do I know I can stop on the 21st, but can't now. Each step on my feet reminds me how...
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    Summer, that is the kick up the backside I need :D THanks for your nice comment. I don;t feel very inspiration anymore..... lol But hell, life happens, and here I am again. It could be worse. I am KIND of starting to feel excited about starting. More so about STOPPING, if you get me -...
  172. Blonde Logic

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    Where can one get Amino Acids? Sounds like it might be worth taking some, but I know litle to niothing about them or risks, etc., so will research.
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Thanks Mel - that all looks really interesting - I am going to need to delve in it a little deeper to fully understand it. Is tehre a link to the diaries you mentioned? Well, I bit the bullet and have an appointment with my CD on th e21st May. I can't say I am thrilled - its a mixed bag. I...
  174. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi Ladies, Thank you for your comments and support. It has taken me a long time to come back and confess. Not because confessing is a bad thing - in fact it is probably not even the right word - but I was just so sick of the lifelong focus on weight....I just couldn't face it. I am so BORED...
  175. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Well....hi Mel. Hi everyone. Long time is right! I really don't know what to say anymore when I come back to MMs. Things have not been good. Food related that is. I have really made a mess of things. I don;t really know where to start, but I wll tell you a few things for certain that I...
  176. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi everyone! :) Missy wlecome back hope it goes great for you. Thank you for all your kind comments. :) I just wanted to pop on and say hi I amd stil hear still doing good with the diet. I have just been very poorly with a flu and also verybusy getting ready for our trip back home next...
  177. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Morning everyone, THanks Kira - I am doing fine - just been very busy at work and at home. I am on holiday in 3 weeks - I can't wait!!! A break will be good. Diet wise - I have summed it up - I am bored-to-death with abstinance. lol I am fighting with everything I have but it's getting...
  178. Blonde Logic

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    Another 2 pounds gone!! With fingers crossed and a bit of luck - next time I weigh I will have only "teens" to lose!!!! That will be exciting!!!! Feeling refocused and strong again.....and will ride this out. I go on holiday back to California the end of November - I shouldbe able to sneak...
  179. Blonde Logic

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    Thank you so much everyone. Your support means the world to me. It really does. When I came back to MM's I was still in a pretty raw state. So I decided to just stick to my diary thread - I didn't feel I was really up for the main forum - and it's just gotten comfortable for me here - so it...
  180. Blonde Logic

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    Thaks Kira - I will try and remember to look at it this weekend - feel free to remind me!! (Me memory is RUBBISH) Today, I am wearing a little purple crop coat and new top and new heeled boots, with dark blue denim flares and three people gasped when I walked in! :D Made me feel good -...
  181. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 10 of the 11 pounds - GONE! Yessssssss :D Well happy with that. Making very important note to self: Look how fast you can lose a weeks weight if you cut out carbs and fat and sugar - deal with it the week after a series of events/meals, etc., and look how quick you...
  182. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Well done BigJ - That is great!!! You lost the 11 - I found them!! ROFL!!! I have had a good week - not 100% angelic, but about 98%. Iweigh tonight - I will be so happy to get rid of most of last weeks gain - would love all but somehow me thinks me asking too much! :D I hear you Kira - I...
  183. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    LOL @Rocky Road, you rascal! :D THanks ladies <<<<<hugs>>>>> You are the best. I just don't get why I kept pushing and pushing and pushing the boundaries until the damn was well and truly broke. What possessed me!!?? I am not beating myself up - not in a bad serious way - just annoyed -...
  184. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U£$U)*("&)&£$%)_!("£)!"+)$%^£%^&^%!"£ Good grief. I barely have the nerve to confess what I am about to confess – but maybe public naming and shaming will help keep my naughty arse on track. I totally LOST THE PLOT last week. I mean, REALLY lost the plot. Then I tried...
  185. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Gooooood morning Viet Nam....... or, Minimins, as they case may be! :D Well, my week spiraled out of control. I think I am just bored to death of the diet, and at the worst time - the last elusive stone. ARGH. I just keep messing about!!! I decided - do I want to stop? Or do I want to...
  186. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi Debbie! :) There certainly is a learning curve - and one that I think ill always be in my life! lol Sad, but true. :) You keeping well? :) xx
  187. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Grrrr...that wonderful steely resolve I had last week is waning. After all that good behaviour, I gained 1 pound. All those weeks of naughty behaviour, I actually never gained - always lost a pound. How bizarre - and gutting. But hey ho - I should have to pay a penalty - it just would have...
  188. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi. Giref....ugh....there is no rule book I found, and it takes as long as it takes. When my dad died in 1993, y world as I knew it was changed forever - he was far too young as was I. I did not grieve wll at all and was greiving more then 10 years. It was awful. But like you, I had a...
  189. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Jezzzzzzz<<<<<<<<<hugs>>>>>>>>> It is so good to hear about you - there have been a lot fo days I have worried and wondered what happened. I figured it must have been something big, and I am so so sorry to read what it was. Sincerely condolences on the loss of your father. I am really so...
  190. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Well, I think I have it sorted. Phew. I have been good as gold now since Tuesday night. I have had no demons taunting me.....no biscuits tempting me.....and I think tonight I am in Ketosis.....I just went in the kitchen to get some water, and ended up clearing out an entire cabinet and...
  191. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    I love you ladies! I really do!! :) Thanks for the encouragement. I had a long long talk with myself in the mirror, as I have done before... :D.... but it works. And I really laid in to myself and realised if I keep messing about I will jst drag this on and on and on. So, now, if I feel...
  192. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Bless you ladies - thank you. :) <<<hugs>>> Talking with my CDC last night, I think what is happening, is the first time I did this for the whole major loss, it was for me a matter of life or death. My last chance. So I stuck to it mercilessly. This time - not QUITE so urgent, though still...
  193. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Oh Mel, I have looked EVERYWHERE. Absolutely everywher - washer, dryer, fridge. drawers, under furniture, on furniture, in furniture, the car, the verhe, the gutter, I have looked everywhere. I have given up. 160.00!!!!!Damn. Anyway....also fed up with my messing about - it is just...
  194. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Good morning everyone -Happy (?) Monday. :S lol I had a really stressfyul few days - I have los a set of Car Keys - th remote for central locking and for disengaging the immobiliser, fuel cap key and ignition key. :( I spent al of Saturday looking EVERYWHERE for them. It has been a compelte...
  195. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    I find buying clothes in a smaller size a really good incentive. Its exciting seeing that they will look good - you can tell, knowing your own body, style, etc., so trying something small on, visualizing it on me and then getting there is such a rush! It keeps me going. I have gone moderatly...
  196. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Helloall.:) I hope everyone is good. Spangly I totally get everything you said in your post.Everything! Food can certianly push buttons - or rather circumstances can sure push foods button. Iam not being perfect - but I am being restarined. Not happy with myself - but seems to be all i...
  197. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Oh Sorry Mel - I forgot abuot the shopping! Well the shop I specifically mentioned was for clothes. Vintage (Charity Shop ;)) clothes! :D And lots of them.Your money sure goes a long way in those shops. You have to look, but you can find some quality clothing(JaneNorma,KarenMillan, Per...
  198. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi ladies! Spangly, I don;t know what is the ultimate reason for my messing about. I know my nerves have been a bit frayed recently - my PTSD counseling heated up which was tough (but effective) and now it is coming to an end - and thats kind of scary too.Work has also been extremely...
  199. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Well - after all that, I somehow managed to lose 2 pounds this week. Go figure.Must have been the sweat i worked up movingfurniture last weekend. lol Anyway - a narrow escape - must put myu serious hat on now.Again. And slog on to the end. I will get there - I just want to stop messingabout...
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    SPangly- welcometo hijack hereany day of the week! :) Thank you Kira - your ideas are good and I am going to look in to them. Your last sentence though hit a chord. "Don't goback where you don't ant to be". A very simple sentence that slams home the simplest most factual truth. Don't go back...
  201. Blonde Logic

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    Hello ladies - how is everyone!!?? Hows your dad Mel? I am really starting to struggle a bit. Nothing too outrageous - but I am bored bored bored - I need to really reach deep for this last leg.....I seem to have reacheda bit of an impass - I am a bit picky at things I shouldn;t - so am...
  202. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi Spangly! :) That is unfortunately the real truth of this whole thing - we will never be "done". <sigh> For me too it was a botter pill to swallow when I realised that in order to live like a naturally slim person, you have to be born a naturally slim person. :/ I am sure this is not the...
  203. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Sometimes you just have to look at this as one day at a time. It's such a challenge on the best of days, but if you are having emotional ups and downs that makes it so much more difficult. Weight loss ad depression certainly go hand in hand and create such a unhealthy cycle - am I over eating...
  204. Blonde Logic

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    Hi Linze - thank you so much for such a nice comment - that makes me feel good. I do remember your name, but my memory over the last few years has deteriorated at an alarming rate!! lol That makes me feel good if I was able to help you in any way. And it means alot your sharing tht with me -...
  205. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Morning everyone! Kira, i will have to tell a funny tale one day about a drive through texas I did once.....that is one huge state!! How are you Mel? How are things going with your dad?? x
  206. Blonde Logic

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    HI Angie!!! I remember you - its nice to hear from you. I was just thinking about Porgeous the other day - I don;t see her on here much these days? Is she still postin on the CD board? I may pop over and say hello!!! Thank you for your comments and I am sorry you too lostyou parents in a...
  207. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Thanks Kire! :) Hi Mel! :) Maybe us yanks like October because our holidays kick off in October - Halloween followed by Thanksgiving (my absolute favourite) and then Christmas. Who knows - funny we all do though! What part of America is he from Kira? I just feel so alive in the fall and...
  208. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    I have had a great week since stopping the milk - i do not know if it is psychological or physiological but I never would have thought Milk a trigger of mine but maybe it is!!?? So a good week - and paid for it well - 4 pounds gone! Ysssss!! :) Keep on keepin on.... :) Counseling is also...
  209. Blonde Logic

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    Oh Kira, I am a real boot nut. In our Motorcycle circle of friends, my nickname is Boots because I have so many!! Ehheheeh Can’t get enough!!! And fashion wise, I love the autumn fashions the very most – I love the season of Autumn above all as well – its my very favourite – I get so excited...
  210. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Kira your vibes DID help!! :D I stopped the Milk from Wednesday morning, and since then I have no cravings to nibble or eat or pick....it's great to be away fromthat - even though I am not fully back in Ketosis yet, it feels muh less tiresome, not having thooughts of food all the time is what...
  211. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi Girlies :) I am doing good Mel :) I hope you are good too - I just have been struggling without a laptop for several days - now totally caught up inj the Olympics so online time is less lately. Diet wise I am doing fine - but having some real good inner battles. No damage to speak of...
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    Anyone fancy a game?

    Zsa Zsa In honour of the Olympics, how about Sports Archery
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    A New Game: WORD PLAY

    Yaps
  214. Blonde Logic

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    Hello Katie!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO nice to hear from you - I have missed you on many occassions!! You were my firsst Minimins friend!!! hehehe How are you - and what are you up too? If you went through my diary you know the last couple of years have been pretty difficult and traumatic but...
  215. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi everyone - I have been without my laptop for a week or s0 - it up and died without any warning!! Good to be back online. Ihave been doing good - struggling a little bit since the week I had the small meals - I am such an all or nothing person, I knew that would be more difficult then just a...
  216. Blonde Logic

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    Happy Saturday! :) Well, nearly a week done since the Step 2 week - and finding it really easy to get back into the swing of things with just the packs - though I have been having a sneaky bit of FFmilk in my coffee/tea- I am going to ask her if she thinks that will delay me much? If she...
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    LOL THat is shocking!!!! lol the irony. But Dreyers........one of my favourites. :D
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Morning Mel!! :D
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    hahahah love that Mel!!! Thanks ladies!!! :) XXX
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    Argh!!! AFter the Step 2 week (3 packs, small meal on CD) - I am up 1 pound! DOH!! SO now I am not at halfway!! Silly girl!! :giggle: That will teach me too stuff a bit of carb in my mouth. lol Overall though, happy with that - it will go next week and I will be back on track, rockin it...
  221. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Oh bless you ladies. That is so kind of you to say so. I think ALL of us are inspirational - it takes guts to do a diet of this nature - its not for sissy's. ANd if we have some wobbles and set backs now and again - it is as was just said part of management - we learn to manage our weight. We...
  222. Blonde Logic

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    I jus read it - interesting and I would like to read more. It is so sad that there is so much shame attached to over eating. No one but a fat person understands that is is not always, and seldom is, a case of just being lazy and gorging - it is much much more and no different, for me, than any...
  223. Blonde Logic

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    It was awful -moms death was the result of a horrible accident in which she was burned very badly - so watching her end her life suffering and in pain was truly heartbreaking. That was in March 2010. I was the one that found her, so it really tipped me over the edge. And it was and it has...
  224. Blonde Logic

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    Hi FF - I remember you completely - you had that cute little doggy in your Avatar, didn;tyou? It is so nice to see you here again and thank you for your nice words. No, I LOVED being at goal, and felt so proud of myself - there was nto one thing about it I did not like. It really was a dream...
  225. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Well, this week of having a small meal is drawing to an end, thank god. I have found it realy challenging.....and I am doing my best to saty within the boundries - somedays better then opthers - but never more then a bit extrave lettuce leaves, or a couple more radishes, etc. Though last...
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    Thanks so much ladies. It was a long road to get back to this place, but oit feels mighty good to be there - hope the downhill slide goes as smoothly as the climb. :) xx
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    Whoop!!!! officially now less to lose then what I have lost so far! Yessssss!! Halfway there!!! :D :D :D YAY!
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    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    How was the torch spotting? Was there a good turn out? It runs past my house - just a couple of blocks away./ THats next Monday - can't wait! Not something you see everyday! :) Well - another GREAT week - 3 more pounds bit the dust~! 3 seems to be my magic number! THis is a scary week though -...
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    Amen to that Mel!!! GOt any fun plans??
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    Aw, thank you Kira. :) I am feeling better - but I almost am afraid to "say it out loud" if you het me.....it has been such a rubbish couple of years - and now with things beginning to feel better it makes me nervous. lol Its horrible to think that way but I am afraid if I admit it too uch...
  231. Blonde Logic

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    Hi everyone... Julz, Clara, Kira, Spangly - really nice to see you all!!! Thank you so much for popping on. :) Mel - Goal jeans are great!!! Now, downward into my 32s - when I get there, my laughter will be heard around the globe!!! :D Its good to see you ladies - I have not seen some of...
  232. Blonde Logic

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    Whhhhooooooooppppppp!!!!!! Wowee!!! I have a grin from ear to ear that even high grade sandpaper couldn't wipe off!!! I AM BACK IN ME LEVI'S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :bliss: Not my 32s yet - my 34s - but STILL!!! Have not been in these for a very very long time - slipping htem on was...
  233. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Your poor wrist - I don't think I remember that?? My memory is really awful these days - it's full of too much stuff at the moment!! I hope the recovry goes quickly and painlessly!! Wrists are tricky healers sometimes! What is JUDDD? I am thrilled this is going so well. It is mentally...
  234. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Hi ladies- I hope you are all well - I have been so busy with work, and home an have been a bit poorly but am OK. Everything is still going great - 3 more pounds gone this week making a total of 32~! Wahay!!! I am over the moon!! Mel, Hubby is pleased for me too - he is always suppotive...
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    Put my mind to rest

    Hi :) I lost 10 stone in 2008 and maintained for 2 years until my mum had a trgic accident - than the stress got to me and I went back to using food for comfort after she died. My fault. I feel confident that had that not happened, Iw ould still be maintaining.....and am working my way now...
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    I challenge everyone to think of something good ...

    After 2 long years of greiving my moms death and the aftermath of PTSD, as it was a very traumatic passing- and on top of so many other stress factors as a result, I am finally coming out the other side. I have been afraid to say this out loud for fear of jinxing it, but I am starting to...
  237. Blonde Logic

    Just like a bad penny, I keep turning up :D

    Aw Spangles - sorry you have had a wobble. I am finally in the right head space. This is the third restart since I gained the weight after moms death, and finally at last I know, I mean i realllly know deep down inside its the time - I am in this for the finish. Nothing will get in my way. :)...
  238. Blonde Logic

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    So back from weigh in - another 2 pounds down the drain making it a total of 2 stone in 7 week! God I love abstinance!!!! Feeling really good, and going strong, but have felt the last week a bit antsy - I think cause I am home on holiday without work distraction I can spend more time...
  239. Blonde Logic

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    Hi Starz - well, we slipped up - but hey, we did it once, we will do it again. :) Good luck!!!! :) x
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    whooooaaaaaa...... 6 pounds gone this week!!??? LOL How did THAT happen!!! (I don't care - I will take it!!! LOL) SO far so good! :)
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    Here goes nothing...... Hello Diary. :D Well I finally made it to the top of the NHS waiting list for counseling and had my first appointment last week. I am so happy with the choice of the counselor. It is always the luck of the draw who you are going to get - but I knew within moments I...
  242. Blonde Logic

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    Well, it was nother good - albeit VERY bisy week - and pleased to say I have lost another 3 pounds, making it a skosh off 1.5 stones in just 5 weeks! So very happy with that - feeling good, confident and that wonderful realisation that this time it is going to work - I am going to get to the...
  243. Blonde Logic

    Just like a bad penny, I keep turning up :D

    Hey Julz - how you doin? I am finally getting my acto together. lol ;) x
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    people's comments about my weight.

    Oh, I totally get ya. It is different for women and I have never understood why. Why people feel it is OK to say such things to men and not women - its very rare to hear things like this for the ladies I think. . Don't let the ******* get ya down - in a very short time, while you are eating...
  245. Blonde Logic

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    Well hoorah hoorah! Another 3 pounds lost and forgotten! I am hoping to start feeling a difference in clothing soon - that is when it gets reallly exciting! Shouldn't be long now I think, I am a 1.25 stone down. Maybe another couple of weeks. I am wondering and hoping not, that my "diet...
  246. Blonde Logic

    Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

    Happy (?) Monday lol I would trather do anything other than go to work today. Even the dentist sounds better. lol It was a nice weekend though - and starting immediately after work on Friday I got stuck in and did some yard work - and found my energy has already improved some. SO feeling...
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    Just like a bad penny, I keep turning up :D

    Hi everyone! Nice to see familiar names. :) How are you all doing? The forum ahs changed a lot and I was missing some familiar names. Good to know there are still some of us veterans still about :D I hopeyou are all doing well? Mini you are wise to address the la 6 months now rather...
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