Hay Hay Hay!
Hows day 1 going Sadia ? Good motivation shuga, I've been missing alot of social time too most my life - not fun! Hopefully i'll be joining you this Christmas with the sparkly sexy christmas dress
My main motivation is to do a handstand and cartwheel! i've never ever done either and i sooooo badly want to!
This year i have a cousins wedding in August which i'd like to get off as much weight as possible before then and then going to cyprus to see the family at the end of september whom i havent seen in YEARS then bday in November and off to America to see my sister and nephew whom by then it would be over a year i havent seen...
I've just had enough of lying to myself and being dillusional and just listening to what other people say and going with the flow not making any efoort or changes for myself to be happier.... anytime i complain about my weight or talk about doing something about it people are so nice about it and say things like but your so beautiful and you have a curvy hourglass shape so you still look good and sexy... all v sweet of em but it doesnt help me at all as i just think yea ok i guess and muddle on.
BUT the other day i was scrolling through pics my mum took (she randomly takes pics when you dont know shes even there) and i saw one of me from behind - OMG i wanted to cry! i was massive, thighs, back, even my neck! jeeez do i really look like that, YES. And compared to the people on the street around me.... gosh.
I just want to live my life to the full, stop self sabotaging behaivour and start being good to me and honest with myself.
I would looove to do yoga, go dancing lessons like salsa and play basketball again and feel light on my feet. Oooo and wear heels and have my feet not ache after 5 mins!
hmmm pretty hefty list....
Where can i find your diary jelly bean ? would love to have a peak...
xxxx