Thehungryveganuk
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Sunday 27th October 2013
I don't know where to begin. Or even if this diary is in the right place, as it'll double as a food diary with pictures as well.
I won't bore you with all the in depth stuff of my weight history, so I'll just summarise.
And here I am.
I'm doing a postgraduate course.
I've been in a long distant (106.1miles to be exact) relationship for 2 years and 8 months.
I'm currently living with my parents.
I have no self esteem, confidence or belief in myself.
I've been trying to lose weight all my life. A couple of years ago I joined a women's only circuited gym with a friend, but we fell out and I got bored. I managed to get down to 110lbs (15st) but that's the lowest weight I can remember ever being in my life, I never weighed myself when I was 18.
Earlier this his year I joined a better gym that had more conventional equipment in a women's only section as well as a fitness pool and regular larger gym.
I haven't been recently as I've been busy with university, but also, I was going 5 days a week, and doing 1 hour cardio, 1 hour weights, plus calorie counting and I didn't lose a thing, except the will. Doing nothing, I'm making the same progress as when I was putting all the hard work into it.
I've now decided to shake things up a bit. I've fought psychological demons along the way, and they're starting to rear their ugly heads. I'm starting to go back to my old ways
But I'm determined this time to get healthy and fit. I'm 25, and I feel about 80. I have a chronic pain condition (they think Fibromyalgia) and chronic fatigue. I want a career and kids, be a role model for them, and an inspiration to those that want to give up on themselves, to prove it can be done.
I'm doing Slimming world Green Days, from home, not online.
I've borrowed books from my aunt, an I've still got recipe books from when I did it years ago. It was the only plan that worked and the only reason I stopped was because I couldn't afford it, or my demons over took my motivation and willpower.
My best friend who lives even further away than my partner is doing it with me. Starting from tomorrow. We're both very excited!
Goals:
Finally, the name "From Caterpillar to Butterfly" is inspired by my favourite quote "What the caterpillar perceives is the end, to the butterfly is just the beginning" and I think it's a great way to think of the journeys were on throughout life, and the transformations and metamorphosis we all go through. I hope one day I'll get to be a butterfly.
Sunday 27th October 2013
I don't know where to begin. Or even if this diary is in the right place, as it'll double as a food diary with pictures as well.
I won't bore you with all the in depth stuff of my weight history, so I'll just summarise.
- I was the fat kid, bullied, but not inactive. I was on plenty of sports teams.
- When I was 4 I thought I was too fat to do ballet, although I wanted to. I was a secret binge eater since that age and have been on and off diets since I was 14.
- When I was 15 I was in the 210lbs, 15 stone bracket
- I was at my slimmest at 18, a UK size 14-16. I guess all the puppy fat dropped and the hormones calmed down.
- Went to university, 2006, got into an unhealthy relationship, and became unhealthy. I ballooned to at least 270lbs (19 stone)by the time I graduated 2010. Lucky he left me the week before, or gods know how big I would of got.
And here I am.
I'm doing a postgraduate course.
I've been in a long distant (106.1miles to be exact) relationship for 2 years and 8 months.
I'm currently living with my parents.
I have no self esteem, confidence or belief in myself.
I've been trying to lose weight all my life. A couple of years ago I joined a women's only circuited gym with a friend, but we fell out and I got bored. I managed to get down to 110lbs (15st) but that's the lowest weight I can remember ever being in my life, I never weighed myself when I was 18.
Earlier this his year I joined a better gym that had more conventional equipment in a women's only section as well as a fitness pool and regular larger gym.
I haven't been recently as I've been busy with university, but also, I was going 5 days a week, and doing 1 hour cardio, 1 hour weights, plus calorie counting and I didn't lose a thing, except the will. Doing nothing, I'm making the same progress as when I was putting all the hard work into it.
I've now decided to shake things up a bit. I've fought psychological demons along the way, and they're starting to rear their ugly heads. I'm starting to go back to my old ways
But I'm determined this time to get healthy and fit. I'm 25, and I feel about 80. I have a chronic pain condition (they think Fibromyalgia) and chronic fatigue. I want a career and kids, be a role model for them, and an inspiration to those that want to give up on themselves, to prove it can be done.
I'm doing Slimming world Green Days, from home, not online. I've borrowed books from my aunt, an I've still got recipe books from when I did it years ago. It was the only plan that worked and the only reason I stopped was because I couldn't afford it, or my demons over took my motivation and willpower.
My best friend who lives even further away than my partner is doing it with me. Starting from tomorrow. We're both very excited!
Goals:
- Lose 14lbs (1stone) by Christmas
- Reach Club10 by New Years
- General holidays (Christmas, New Years, birthdays)
- Holiday to Tenerife August 2014
- I've always wanted to pull off a LBD
Finally, the name "From Caterpillar to Butterfly" is inspired by my favourite quote "What the caterpillar perceives is the end, to the butterfly is just the beginning" and I think it's a great way to think of the journeys were on throughout life, and the transformations and metamorphosis we all go through. I hope one day I'll get to be a butterfly.
