Hello.
I am 22, female, size 12, 5'7", 150lbs.
I know in my mind I'm not enormous.
But I can't stay like this. Every time I see my self, I cry.
I feel like I can't stop. I don't see that I'm doing anything different than I have the past 3 years and yet I'm gaining weight.
(2 months ago I was 130lbs)
My mum's been going to slimming world and has lost a stone and a half. She's a 14 and getting closer to what size I am. I'm looking to get bigger than my 50 year old mother.
She doesn't see that I have a problem, my boyfriend doesn't understand. I don't have any friends who will listen to me.
I don't know how to start. I've started lifting light weights to try and battle my flabby arms (I say this because a stranger happily pointed out the fact by saying "Woah your arms are really big", great for a fragile woman to hear).
I really need some help.
I need motivation, and support because I'm comfort eating. I need somewhere to turn when I want the bad food instead of a boring bloody banana.
I'm too scared to start training on my own, I don't want to start when I know I'm so out of shape I'll fall at the first hurdle.
I really want to lose 40lbs.
I don't need anyone to tell me that I'm fine.
I'm not fine. Everyone says 'you're beautiful, you don't need to change bla bla bla' but I can't look at myself without seeing my jowls getting bigger, my chin becoming double, my thighs touching to my knees.
It seems like such a daunting task and I don't know how to start.
I'm scared of the scales, the measuring tape and the mirror.
Please help.
I am 22, female, size 12, 5'7", 150lbs.
I know in my mind I'm not enormous.
But I can't stay like this. Every time I see my self, I cry.
I feel like I can't stop. I don't see that I'm doing anything different than I have the past 3 years and yet I'm gaining weight.
(2 months ago I was 130lbs)
My mum's been going to slimming world and has lost a stone and a half. She's a 14 and getting closer to what size I am. I'm looking to get bigger than my 50 year old mother.
She doesn't see that I have a problem, my boyfriend doesn't understand. I don't have any friends who will listen to me.
I don't know how to start. I've started lifting light weights to try and battle my flabby arms (I say this because a stranger happily pointed out the fact by saying "Woah your arms are really big", great for a fragile woman to hear).
I really need some help.
I need motivation, and support because I'm comfort eating. I need somewhere to turn when I want the bad food instead of a boring bloody banana.
I'm too scared to start training on my own, I don't want to start when I know I'm so out of shape I'll fall at the first hurdle.
I really want to lose 40lbs.
I don't need anyone to tell me that I'm fine.
I'm not fine. Everyone says 'you're beautiful, you don't need to change bla bla bla' but I can't look at myself without seeing my jowls getting bigger, my chin becoming double, my thighs touching to my knees.
It seems like such a daunting task and I don't know how to start.
I'm scared of the scales, the measuring tape and the mirror.
Please help.
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