CharleyBarley - my new 2014 diary with pics

Discussion in 'Weight Loss Diaries' started by Charleybarley, 4 February 2014.

  1. Charleybarley

    Charleybarley Well-Known Member

    :wave_cry: Hi all

    I have decided to start again, for the gazillionth (not actually a word, but the amount of times I have tried and failed, I think I deserve my own number!!) time.

    I have tried SW and succeeded (and then failed) and Healthy Eating and succeeded (and then failed) – so I am going for a heady mix of the two and trying to succeed (not fail).

    I have a lot of SW healthy meal ideas in my noggin but I won’t be strictly SW because I feel that the limitless portion thing gets me into too much trouble and causes my losses to be slow, so I will be cutting back on my portion sizes and having good oils, like olive oil and coconut oil and also having healthy “fatty” foods like hummous and avocados. I think as you get older, you should be looking after your insides as well as your outsides and while I fully endorse SW I also think that the body needs a Mediterranean diet too, for your brain and to ward off horrible diseases and illnesses.

    Christmas and the run up led to me being the biggest I have been in years, last week I caught a tummy bug/food poisoning whatever, but as nasty as it was, it kick-started me into losing 8lbs in one week! Ach it’s an ill wind! :sick0019:

    I am feeling better now, but my IBS kicks in when my tummy gets bad and I have to tread carefully with my diet for a week or two. So I am eating quite low fiberous, plain food – and hardly any veg/fruit because for some reason this makes my tummy worse.

    So I am oddly starting on a Tuesday, my weigh ins will be on a Friday. I am sort of expecting a small gain this week, because I wasn’t eating much at all last week and lost a drastic amount of weight, I have been eating better this week, so I am not expecting much.

    This diary is not so much about hitting numbers and getting to targets, it’s about keeping track of my food, getting healthier, showing off my meal ideas and my musings, but most importantly it’s about sharing with like-minded people, people like me who struggle every day, people who will boost you when you are down, slap your wrists when you are naughty, slap you on your back when you have done well – it’s about you, those of you who are still reading this (aren’t you bored!) my mini-friends of old, who I am scared to show my cyber-face to because I went off the wagon again AND it’s my future new friends who I hope will post a little hello to me and help me along the way

    I am a bit of a failure when it comes to food, will power and exercise, I cannot vow to change but I can try – and God loves a trier eh?

    So foodage today (bearing in mind, I am not running on full foods yet, given my recent gastric troubles):

    B – Special K Multigrain porridge with red berries (they were handing out free sachets at the station and I nabbed 3!) with semi skimmed milk. Not bad actually, no sweetening required.

    L – Wholemeal Roll with plain chicken breast

    Snack – 2x crackers with almond butter and homemade jam (1/2 tsp of each on each cracker)

    Snack – Orange

    D – Gammon Steak with New Potatoes. I may try some veg, I will see how my tummy feels later.

    I will upload my dinner pic tonight.
  2. Charleybarley

    Charleybarley Well-Known Member

    Tuesday update:

    Epic fail last night. My train service was up the wall so I met with Mick (my boyf of 4.5 years) and we went to the pub - 2 pints of Rekorderlig Cider later... We were on our way home. Got home starving at 9pm, there was nothing quick and healthy to hand, so with gay abandon I ate this:


    A pasta in sauce and 2 slices of toast with butter and pate - hardly a culinary feast, but it did hit the spot. So with day one of 'my new life' down the toilet, I start again today with vigour.

    Why is it when things get in the way, like an entire train service up the swanny stopping you from getting home, why do I immediately think that gives me the green light to toss the diet out the window. Why didn't we go to a coffee shop? Why didn't I have diet coke or water in the pub? Why didn't I just have the pasta in sauce? Answers on a postcard please ....

    Last edited: 5 February 2014
  3. hendopig

    hendopig Well-Known Member

    Hello Charley lovely, so pleased to see you :)

    And I am smug to be the first poster on your diary.

    You know thing for me that sticks out with you is, if you eff up it's not the end! Eff up for a week, a month etc but when you're ready, try again. And you do.

    Never feel like you have to hide from your minis friends cos if anyone will understand what's happened it's us! If you're not on plan doesn't mean you have to avoid minis. I love hearing about what your doing up in Landan Tarn (cockney accent there) and Essex.

    I'm sorry to hear you've been poorly too, that sucks.

    I was going to say something else but can't remember, sorry! But basically it's good to see your face back here :) xx
  4. hendopig

    hendopig Well-Known Member

    Oh yeah I was going to say that I ate a packet of Percy pigs last night and 4 hotel chocolate coconut bombes that I've neglected to put on my diary (see, I lie to myself!). The pigs are 22 syns, god knows what the coconut chocs are, 5 each prob. I am a nightmare x
  5. xmisskx

    xmisskx Well-Known Member

    smug poster number two :D lol

    sorry to hear you weren't well last week...but couldn't help but giggle at the wee cartoony guy...never good being stuck on the loo...but the weight loss is always a good'un hehe

    look forward to slapping your wrists and praising you along the way (sh1t...i didn't mean them in that order pmsl)

    but really glad to see you back :D xxx

    Sent from my iPhone using MiniMins
  6. Charleybarley

    Charleybarley Well-Known Member

    Yay, smug poster no 1!

    Thanks Stacey - you are 100% correct. As soon as I balls up, I hide from minis and that is the worse thing to do, its like admitting failure and I feel like everyone (everyone being my mini friends) thinks I am a bit of a joke, you know the one person who has been a member of minis for 4 years and the only one who has got bigger in that time, not smaller!!!!! And every time I come back after a fall i say " i am going to do it this time " knowing in my heart, that I really dont have the gumption.

    The fact is, I am probably going to be a fat bird for the rest of my life, I would like to be a smaller-fat bird than I am at the moment, but I will always struggle. The big thing I shouldn't do is give up on you girls and hide away in shame. Because, to be honest, I love hearing about everyone's lives and I havent stopped reading everyone's diaries, I just haven't posted anything myself, which is wrong.

    Anyhoo, boo hoos aside (I hate being a misog!) you are right and I am going to jump back on zee wagon.

    I love percy pigs and I love Hotel Chocolate!

    Have a good evening Stacey and thanks for your kind words!

  7. Charleybarley

    Charleybarley Well-Known Member

    I am loving the Smugness !! Hello Smug No2 (not a nice number to be, especially after my tummy problems last week!) yes the little man turning red on the toilet made me giggle too - TMI, but we all get it sometime right?

    Thanks for your lovely post, I am glad to be back too, if not for the diet, for the laughs with you girls along the way!

  8. xmisskx

    xmisskx Well-Known Member

    Aww i didn't think of my number two in that sense....but now you've pointed it out...I feel sh1t!
    (See what I did there?) *hangs head in shame* lol

    I just want junk good to be calorie free and healthy...and I want to eat whatever I want and not put on weight! Why is this too much to ask???!! Lol

    Was looking at some info on the 5:2 diet recently but I'm not sure I could be trusted not to go mental on the feast days! Which would of course, defeat the purpose of eating less the other two days!
    I'm becoming more aware that with sw, we might be eating healthily but we could def eat way too many calories for the day on "free" foods!
    I think it's mental that we could eat loads of free foods and use no syns and that's all on plan, but yet other foods which are good for us could blast the syns and look like a bad sw day?!

    I think we all know how to be sensible and it's about getting a happy medium isn't it?

    Oh to have the skinny gene eh ....x

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  9. Cheese Thief

    Cheese Thief Well-Known Member

    Oh man I've done this SOOO many times! I like to call it 'first day syndrome'. You start the day doing good and by dinner time you're ravenous 'cos your body is used to the bad food, then something happens so you just think 'sod it, I'll start tomorrow' and have a last supper style binge! Well, that's what I kept doing anyway... right up to nearly 25 stone! :rolleyes:

    It's so hard breaking that cycle and getting that first week under your belt... I guess in a way it's a bit like being an alcoholic or something, food can feel like a real addiction. Even now after 6 months of SW I'm always wary that I'm going to go back to my old eating habits. I guess its something i'll always have to fight against, but for now at least I seem to be winning!

    Anyway I just wanted to say I'm looking forward to following your journey and I'll be behind you every step of the way! xx
  10. xsugarfairyx

    xsugarfairyx Well-Known Member

    Hello do you remember me. Xx
  11. Charleybarley

    Charleybarley Well-Known Member

    Hee hee, I totally see what you did there!!

    I want the same Miss K all the bad foods to be good, alas we must deal with the hand we are dealt. You said on your diary that your hubby can eat what he wants - well sadly the likes of me and you and everyone on this site are from a different gene pool and that's that. I hate it son much though that I rebel ... 'Why should I watch what I eat and so doesn't need to' I sit opposite a girl who eats what she likes and she has a great figure, she eats really loudly too which annoys me no end, but she also goes to the gym and she probably doesn't go home and continue eating bad, maybe she eats very small amounts or maybe she just has a glass of water...

    Ah well, no point in wishing for what we haven't got. Best just enjoy what we have got eh?!

    I couldn't do the 5:2 diet - I would be a miserable b!tch on the fast days and eat like an animal on the normal days - I would take those normal day down! I would end the day feeling and looking like jabba the hut!

    A lot of people on here have done and are doing the paleo diet - I don't think I could do that either.

    I think you also have a point about portion sizes in SW, which we both agree can get out of control.

    Did you see Horizon last week, where there were two docs, twins and they conducted an experiment with their diets? Well anyway the long and short of it was that the healthiest way to lose weight and keep healthy is having a balanced diet. End of. There are good and bad points to all these diets. The best diet you can follow is a balanced diet. So that is what I am trying to achieve I think.

  12. Charleybarley

    Charleybarley Well-Known Member

  13. Charleybarley

    Charleybarley Well-Known Member

    Wednesday's food:

    It's been a good day generally:

    B - Special K Wholegrain porridge with red berries, and semi Skimmed milk, it's a small but perfectly formed portion

    L - Wholegrain roll with a smattering of spread and ham with a blob of Branson pickle

    Snack - Banana

    D - Griddled Veg and Halloumi Pasta - I am starting to weigh out my pasta - I know it should be 75g per portion but I am starting at 100g for now - this was actually delicious, salty from the cheese, sweet from the aubergines and courgettes and other veg, and sour from the toms

    Snack - Apple


    I just realised that food presentation is really not my bag - it tasted good tho!!!!

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  14. xsugarfairyx

    xsugarfairyx Well-Known Member

    Hello did you see my message? X
  15. Cheese Thief

    Cheese Thief Well-Known Member

    Its Bev hun. Funny how you're reading my diary too. Hope I haven't bored you silly yet, I do have a tendency to go off on one and stress about daft stuff!

    Yep I totally know what you mean about the food addiction thing. Its not like drugs or alcohol where you can go cold turkey (though I bet thats incredibly tough too), unless we stick to a meal replacement diet for the rest of our lives we kinda have to learn how to deal with it. In my experience its got loads easier, but still not a day goes by when I don't get worried that I'm going to fail. I guess when you've been on and off diets since 12 (I was 12 stone at 12!) its not surprising really.

    The great thing about SW is that it doesnt really feel like a diet, more like a lifestyle change. I still count calories too to check im not overdoing the free food, and even throw in a bit of 5:2, but its working so far. Are you going to join a group or just wi at home? Im the kind of person who needs the accountability of stepping on the scale or else i'd go off plan. X
  16. xsugarfairyx

    xsugarfairyx Well-Known Member

    Is this the right diary Charley? x
  17. Charleybarley

    Charleybarley Well-Known Member

    I know what you mean about being on diets most of your life, my life has been pretty much the same. My parents telling me what I should and should'nt be eating, perhaps that's why when I left home at 20 I went off the rails foodwise, because they couldn't see what I was eating and I was rebelling. In my early 20s I got up to 20.5 stone! It was a viral gastroentiritis that got me down in weight as I was left with bad IBS. I lost 6 stone, then slowly slowly my appetite returned and the foods that made me poorly started coming back into my life with no ill affect. So the weight has slowly been climbing back on, then off, then on... you know the deal Bev. So I have tons of clothes in lots of varying sizes, I really want to just be a size 14 / 16 which I don't think is too much to ask for (I am currently 22/24 on top and 20/18 on my bottom).

    LIke i said, I will always be a bigger woman, I am fine with that, i wasn't made to be slim, but I just want to be a smaller bigger woman!!!

    I am not going to a class, because I am not strictly SW, plus I am not keen on the classes near me. I am aiming for a healthier lifestyle. Cutting down what I eat and thinking twice about the things I eat. I also want to exercise, which I am not a fan of!

    I am sure I will conquer this thing one day!

  18. Charleybarley

    Charleybarley Well-Known Member

    Hello! Yes it is, forgive me, but I never saw your first post on this diary, I only saw the second post this morning!
  19. xsugarfairyx

    xsugarfairyx Well-Known Member

    its ok was just me being silly wasnt in best frame of mind yesterday sorry x
  20. Charleybarley

    Charleybarley Well-Known Member

    Thursday 6th Feb.....

    Ok, so today is going ok foodwise. I will post my foodalls later when I have my pics. For now I have some musings....

    So what is everyone doing for Valentine's next Friday? Are you other halves romantic? Mick isn't so much, don't get me wrong, he is kind, tactile and fun, but he would never think of bringing me home a bunch of daffs, or seeing my favourite sweet in the shop and buying me it, he is quite a self-serving kinda guy, but doesn't realise he does it. He is getting better tho. In the 4 years we have been together we have never really celebrated V Day, other than buying one another a card. But this year I said I would like to do something. His reply to me in an email from work was " I think its money for old rope, why should you only treat your misses on one day, and forget the rest of the year" my response was that he never treated me the rest of the year anyway! We do do loads of things together most of the time anyway, we are always going away for the night or treating ourselves to something or other because we haven't got children and so we like to treat ourselves.... but what I really want, is not to go out for a meal, but I find a lot of restaurants pack you in and rip you off with set menus that are more expensive for that one day. No, what i wanted was for Mick to offer to cook me a three course meal and for me to come home and have candles lit etc. How can I tell him that is what I want when it is something HE is supposed to come up with??? I took the direct approach and said that's what I would like, for him to offer to cook - his response " Well I am not going to do it now, because it is something I hadn't thought of but something you THINK i should think of!!!" I told him to forget it and we should just not bother. So there we have it, I doubt we will do anything now.

    Mick is my first serious "boy I have lived with" boyfriend, so I have no frame of reference as to how long term boyfriends are - but it is always me coming up with ideas, and he has learned to rely on this fact. I am the one that comes up with ideas for meals, sometimes I will ask him to do it, he now makes a mean Spag bol and chilli from scratch - but I have to make the decisions. I am always the one suggesting holiday destinations and weekend breaks. I am the one who suggests we decorate and then drags him along to B&Q for paints. . I often wonder if I never suggested anything, would we do anything? I doubt it. I also wonder what would have become of Mick if he remained single...his life before me was living out of a tiny room in his brother's family home, living off of toast and crackers, going down the pub, watching sports and films in his bedroom scratching his nuts!

    Is this just Mick? Are most blokes the same? Or is it just a fact of life that one person in the relationship, regardless of gender, has to be the dominant figure, the decision maker, the get up and goer, the trouser wearer? While the other follows?

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