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Well I am 48 3 children 1 step child one husband one dog self employed yoyoing queen
I’ve done sns so many times along with every plan to man avalible
Every year it’s 40-70 lbs on and off on and off
Tbh it’s 800-1000 lbs prob on and off in chunks 20-70 lbs every year then back on.
1986 89 lbs
1991 171 lbs
1992 122 lbs
1997 200 lbs
1998 149 lbs
1999 206 lbs
2003 180 lbs
2004 210lbs
2005 157 lbs
2008 244 lbs
2010 168lbs
2011 224 lbs
2013 173 lbs
2014 189 lbs
2016 167 lbs
2017 222 lbs -> 182 lbs
2018 221 lbs
Each years I’ve lost and gained inbetween those weights and I’ve had counselling cbt hypnotherapy
I’ve had a hard life alcoholic father who beat mother
8 years fertility treatment
Alcoholic husband 1 = 16 years together
Cheating controlling ex of 9’years
Late baby loss in pregnancy to sepsis in 2015 with intenisive care and 11 blood transfusions resus
Last month my 22 year old son in law hung himself he was daddy to my grand children
So many bad things in too if this I know why I yoyo but it makes me so unhappy being fat so I don’t know why I do the yoyo ing
I’ve messed my metabolism up I only lose 1-3 lbs a week in vlcd and so even that’s tough lol
But here’s to a slim winter
I’ve sweated and hid in all this heat we’ve had
Well I am 48 3 children 1 step child one husband one dog self employed yoyoing queen
I’ve done sns so many times along with every plan to man avalible
Every year it’s 40-70 lbs on and off on and off
Tbh it’s 800-1000 lbs prob on and off in chunks 20-70 lbs every year then back on.
1986 89 lbs
1991 171 lbs
1992 122 lbs
1997 200 lbs
1998 149 lbs
1999 206 lbs
2003 180 lbs
2004 210lbs
2005 157 lbs
2008 244 lbs
2010 168lbs
2011 224 lbs
2013 173 lbs
2014 189 lbs
2016 167 lbs
2017 222 lbs -> 182 lbs
2018 221 lbs
Each years I’ve lost and gained inbetween those weights and I’ve had counselling cbt hypnotherapy
I’ve had a hard life alcoholic father who beat mother
8 years fertility treatment
Alcoholic husband 1 = 16 years together
Cheating controlling ex of 9’years
Late baby loss in pregnancy to sepsis in 2015 with intenisive care and 11 blood transfusions resus
Last month my 22 year old son in law hung himself he was daddy to my grand children
So many bad things in too if this I know why I yoyo but it makes me so unhappy being fat so I don’t know why I do the yoyo ing
I’ve messed my metabolism up I only lose 1-3 lbs a week in vlcd and so even that’s tough lol
But here’s to a slim winter
I’ve sweated and hid in all this heat we’ve had
