watchmeshrink
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So when I woke up today the first thing I noticed was that the sun was shining outside and it looked warm.....These are the kind of days I dread the most.
I'm at an all time low today....I've been crying all day and i'm seriously thinking I have some form of depression. I have stretch marks on my tummy, behind my knees and on my upper arms.....I've come to the stage where i'm thinking what's the point in putting in all this effort to lose weight and get thin when i'm still not gonna be able to wear a skirt...shorts or a dress. Ya I might have a nice looking figure...but I still wont be able to wear what a normal 19 year old girl wears due to ugly stretch marks I hate myself soooo much....sometimes I think i'd be better off not being alive......as selfish as that sounds it's the way I feel and I cant help it.....!! :cry: On a day like today i'd like to be able to go to the beach and wear cute little high waisted shorts with a little vest top.....but of course I cant!! Mam tells me..."oh you still go and enjoy yourself"....I know I should and I get that...but I cant because I hate myself...I feel sooooo ugly!!! Oh I dont know...I dont know what to do or think anymore!! Lipotrim is great.....i'm losing the weight but when the weight is gone i'm still not gonna be able to wear what I want...I hate my life!!!
Sorry guys.....my rant is over...I just really had to let this out!!!
I'm at an all time low today....I've been crying all day and i'm seriously thinking I have some form of depression. I have stretch marks on my tummy, behind my knees and on my upper arms.....I've come to the stage where i'm thinking what's the point in putting in all this effort to lose weight and get thin when i'm still not gonna be able to wear a skirt...shorts or a dress. Ya I might have a nice looking figure...but I still wont be able to wear what a normal 19 year old girl wears due to ugly stretch marks I hate myself soooo much....sometimes I think i'd be better off not being alive......as selfish as that sounds it's the way I feel and I cant help it.....!! :cry: On a day like today i'd like to be able to go to the beach and wear cute little high waisted shorts with a little vest top.....but of course I cant!! Mam tells me..."oh you still go and enjoy yourself"....I know I should and I get that...but I cant because I hate myself...I feel sooooo ugly!!! Oh I dont know...I dont know what to do or think anymore!! Lipotrim is great.....i'm losing the weight but when the weight is gone i'm still not gonna be able to wear what I want...I hate my life!!!
Sorry guys.....my rant is over...I just really had to let this out!!!