I've struggled with my weight all my life and after managing to slim right down in my mid 20s, I find myself the biggest I've ever been at 18 stone 4 a few years later. Quite simply, I refuse to be this size! Diets are torture for me. As someone who loves food and cooking, I find that I'm a bit food obsessed anyway. When I'm trying to count calories I spend every second thinking about food, either I'm planning a meal, or totting up calories, or I'm thinking about 'healthier' ways of eating and I end up getting fixated on food, which more often than not means I binge and it's game over. I recently quit smoking and found that once I got past the first week, it was actually a piece of cake. I didn't have to think about it, all I needed to do was distract myself, and so after another diet failed again, I figured total food replacement might be a solution for me. Which is how I ended up at a VLCD. I started exante yesterday and while yesterday seemed ok - I'm struggling today. I've got a headache and my tummy is grumbling away at me and interestingly it's the first time I've felt a hunger that can't be satiated. That said, I'm really trying hard to be mindful of my stomach - am I actually hungry, or is this just emotional hunger, or boredom, or habit? Trying hard to focus on taking things one day at a time. . .