Diary of silencemylips - lets get on this!

silencemylips

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Hi!
I'll start with a mini bio so to speak. I'm 24, Female, a makeup artist and photography student. I love my job, I get to be creative and make people feel good about themselves, only I want to feel good about myself. I'm currently 15 stone 1 (fml), and I'm surrounded by beautiful girls at work, and don't even get me started on being around models!
I've always struggled with my weight from being young, I've lost 3 stone here and put it on there, so the first time I came to Cambridge I was 14stone 11 and lost 3-4 stone, I was confident and happy. Only the weight has crept back on, and in the past year I've had massive gains.

I've had enough. At first I didn't see the big difference of my weight gain, I still felt quite slim, but it's started to become apparent to me now, and I need to do something about it.

So I met my new consultant on Sunday and she is everything I had hoped for in a consultant so I'm over the moon. I feel like I've got the support behind me to do this and keep the fat off! I'm on SS+.


DAY 1 - Monday 30th April 2012.

3 Ltrs of water, one chilli soup, one fruits of the forest shake and a broccoli and mushroom omelette.

Yesterday was a tester, I'd never had the chilli soup or fruits of the forest shake, really enjoyed the shake, could stand the soup but wouldn't put it on my favs list.
I felt quite ill yesterday, not because of the diet as I woke up and instantly had a headache, or maybe my body knew what it was in for! So I slept a lot, which probably helped me get through the day. I didn't feel too hungry which was a plus. However, I fell asleep early and missed my last shake. Won't do that again though!

I feel very monotone about this diet, that's the only way I can describe it. I just feel like this is what I've got to do, I'm not bothered about foods right now, I'm just powering on through. So I'm hoping for very little struggle with this frame of mind!
 
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Welcome back to CD and good luck - am sure you'll do great. Come find us on team ideal - the support there is great!

Re the typo - i think you have to request it in the tech support forum x
 
DAY 2

I just took these photos and what I saw in the mirror to what I see in these pictures is a bit different. I feel slimmer in the mirror, but these photos disgust me and I look huge!

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Woke up this morning and the hunger monster reared its ugly head. It did die down a little and I've just finished off my first shake and I'm downing the water.
 
Rkmriddell said:
Welcome back to CD and good luck - am sure you'll do great. Come find us on team ideal - the support there is great!

Re the typo - i think you have to request it in the tech support forum x

Hi! Thanks, I've had a peak at the team but I get lost! Haha, there's so many posts! There must be some immense support going on in there!
 
Just having a vegetable soup now, and I'm still unsure how I feel about soups. There's just something about them that makes me feel sick, yet I don't mind them at the same time? Odd!
 
Not many people do like them, do they? I think I might have to swap them tbh, I have to push myself to eat them, there's something about them that just doesn't sit well with me.
 
Feeling really cold now, got the shakes going on and I've been told by my oh so lovely boyfriend that my breath stinks. Could I be getting into ketosis already!? ?
 
silencemylips said:
DAY 2

I just took these photos and what I saw in the mirror to what I see in these pictures is a bit different. I feel slimmer in the mirror, but these photos disgust me and I look huge!

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Woke up this morning and the hunger monster reared its ugly head. It did die down a little and I've just finished off my first shake and I'm downing the water.

You've got the starts of such a lively hour glass shape there babe! Im the same I look back at my start pictures and don't remember ever feeling as fat or as unhealthy as I looked. Just shows that we need to pay more attention I guess. Now though when I put some weight back on but was still two stone under my start weight I felt so unhealthy I was struggling to breathe! It's amazing what our bodies cope with if we make them!

Keep drinking, we'll soon be at goal xxx
 
silencemylips said:
Hi! Thanks, I've had a peak at the team but I get lost! Haha, there's so many posts! There must be some immense support going on in there!

Yeah it can be pretty busy. Just dip in and out when you need it, know its there :) course we'll support you on here too x
 
silencemylips said:
Just having a vegetable soup now, and I'm still unsure how I feel about soups. There's just something about them that makes me feel sick, yet I don't mind them at the same time? Odd!

Lol. I liked the veg soup but just stick with the hot Chocs cause I love them lol x soup is nice for a change tho x
 
silencemylips said:
Feeling really cold now, got the shakes going on and I've been told by my oh so lovely boyfriend that my breath stinks. Could I be getting into ketosis already!? ?

Certainly sounds like it hunni :) exiting times x
 
You've got the starts of such a lively hour glass shape there babe! Im the same I look back at my start pictures and don't remember ever feeling as fat or as unhealthy as I looked. Just shows that we need to pay more attention I guess. Now though when I put some weight back on but was still two stone under my start weight I felt so unhealthy I was struggling to breathe! It's amazing what our bodies cope with if we make them!

Keep drinking, we'll soon be at goal xxx

Thank you, when I'm thinner I always still have a massive bot, but my waist gets tiny, always wondered if I was pear or hourglass.
It's weird isn't it, I don't know whether it's denial or what, I knew I'd put the weight on but I could still fit in most of my clothes so I didn't think much of it. Only when I started hiding from photos and things were getting even tighter, and still then I hid from it all for a while.
xx
 
silencemylips said:
Thank you, when I'm thinner I always still have a massive bot, but my waist gets tiny, always wondered if I was pear or hourglass.
It's weird isn't it, I don't know whether it's denial or what, I knew I'd put the weight on but I could still fit in most of my clothes so I didn't think much of it. Only when I started hiding from photos and things were getting even tighter, and still then I hid from it all for a while.
xx

Pear if your bum stays. Like Kim karsashian. Women pay to have that look lol. X
 
You've got a great shape- lovely and hour glass. And you've lost the weight before so you know you can do it again. It won't take too long!

It's a really good idea to take pics - I think I might do that actually.

Don't be too down on yourself!!
 
You've got a great shape- lovely and hour glass. And you've lost the weight before so you know you can do it again. It won't take too long!

It's a really good idea to take pics - I think I might do that actually.

Don't be too down on yourself!!

thank you :)
definitely, taking pics is a really good, keeps you motivated and makes you notice the changes that you might not see in the mirror.
 
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