Step 1 Sole Source Dream! Believe! Achieve!

Discussion in 'CD Weight Loss Diaries' started by pinkpussy, 14 June 2014.

  1. pinkpussy

    pinkpussy Well-Known Member

    My constant procrastination has seen me restart plan multiple times, move from slim and save to exante to my own modified VLCD. Bounced from forum to forum, plan to plan which has all mentally drained my strength.

    I have got so big that I am nearly a recluse. Being a full time carer for my mum provides the perfect opportunity to make excuses not to leave the house, comfort eat when her condition gets worse and just feel terrible in general.

    I have always been a fit healthy runner but unfortunately suffered a terrible knee injury which literally immobilized me. I gained some weight which I successfully lost with CWP. I did not take maintenance very seriously and gained 30 lbs during that period. My mums condition got worse, I quit my job to care for her full time hence the emotional eating. I have binged! binged! Late night binges, early morning binges and with my emotional state led to a further 6 stone weight gain. I am so ashamed.

    I found several CWP Consultants but my procrastination + constant excuses led to failure. Excuses from there is no point... It will not work again.... I have bad stretch marks... No one cares if I stay unhealthy......I will start tomorrow.....etc You name the excuse, I used it.

    I had to sit and have a talk with myself (literally) and decide if I would prefer to remain unhealthy or believe in myself and get the happy :) me back.To be honest, I am scared of failure and the unknown right now but I think it is also part of my sub-conscious making excuses. This is why the accountability with CWP works for me. I chose to dedicate myself and do this. I have cut out negative people even friends with foodie issues until I lose at least a fair amount of weight. I cannot afford any distractions. I am working with the most amazing consultant who does not tolerate excuses. Love her :)

    So........... Tomorrow is day one of week one and will post daily but nothing to do with weight or how much I have lost. My diary right now will focus on my struggles and highs as I grow emotionally. Thus, I will post when I reach my goal with pictures :) for now my goal is to take it a day at a time and go to bed a winner. Join Me.

    Apologies for the long post and good luck to you all xx
  2. loulou526

    loulou526 Well-Known Member

    Hey there!

    Apologies for the long post...are you serious?! I for one love a long post! To say that I could relate to everything that you said would be an understatement, I couldn't of put it better myself, well done for taking this next step to get healthier! Will be subscribing!
  3. pinkpussy

    pinkpussy Well-Known Member

    Thank you xx
  4. LeaE

    LeaE Well-Known Member

    hey hunny x wow what a first post it really touched my heart and all i want to do is come and give u a massive hug x im there with you on everything u said and i think thats way im so touched x i hope to follow and support u as much as i can and travel along your journey from one day to another x i cant wait to see u achieve xxxxx good luck xxxx LeaE
  5. pinkpussy

    pinkpussy Well-Known Member

    Got all emotional reading your post. Thank you and good luck on your journey x
  6. Mini

    Mini Administrator Staff Member

    I can identify with your post as I have been going around in circles after gaining my weight back on and have started back on Lipotrim as that is the one I had most success with as I find the weekly weigh in helps me to be accountable and having a nice understanding/supportive consultant really helps.

    I look back now and see the importance of follow maintenance properly... unfortunately at the time due to emotional stress and not being in the right frame of mind at losing a loved one along with another family member being very ill I lost the plot...but we all do what we can to cope and mine was stuffing my emotions down with food.

    The main thing we are here now and hopefully a little wiser:)

    Good luck PP with your weight loss journey, you did well before and I am sure you will again.
  7. pinkpussy

    pinkpussy Well-Known Member

    Thank you appreciate it and wish you all the best xx
    Last edited: 15 June 2014
  8. pinkpussy

    pinkpussy Well-Known Member

    Today has been very interesting. I was consistent but had some chicken. I tried my best to remain 100% but had to sit for Father's Day meal with family. I used it as an opportunity to explain to my family about plan and as of now no more solids. Shockingly they were supportive. Wished me the best. I was so happy to see my mum feeling a little better today :)

    Regardless how supportive anyone is, I know have to work had to deal with my emotional eating.

    Hope you all are well and have a blessed evening xx

    B- Apple and cinnamon porridge
    L- Chilli soup + some chicken
    D- Maple porridge
    Water = 4 litres x
    Last edited: 15 June 2014
  9. danders

    danders Well-Known Member

    I too am a carer for my disabled child and I think it makes a huge difference to your physical and emotional well-being. Each day can bring a new worry and a new reason to head for the biscuits, so I feel as though I am battling with my food demons every minute of every day. I am determined to see this through, even with all of the eating setbacks I suffer.
  10. Reena

    Reena Well-Known Member

    Hi :)
    I'm on week 2 and I felt exactly like you did, we can do this you have made the first step, look forward to following your journey x

    Week 1 -8lbs
  11. pinkpussy

    pinkpussy Well-Known Member

    Thanks ladies.

    It is very challenging most of the time for me but I know I need to do this. I just want to be happy :)
  12. pinkpussy

    pinkpussy Well-Known Member

    I relate to what your saying 100% but you are right. We can all do this x
  13. pinkpussy

    pinkpussy Well-Known Member

    Achieved my first goal today. Completed day 1 100%. Next Goal is to complete week one.

    Today made me realise I'm definitely a food addict in recovery.

    B- Apple and cinnamon porridge
    L- Oriental chilli soup
    D- Maple porridge

    Water - 4 litres xx
  14. LeaE

    LeaE Well-Known Member

    Well done my love xx v proud of u x now go kick ass out of day 2 xx
  15. pinkpussy

    pinkpussy Well-Known Member

    Lol thanks. Good luck on your journey x
  16. pinkpussy

    pinkpussy Well-Known Member

    Hey beauts
    My phone contract unfortunately ended today. I will try my best to update daily but I promise you'll I will keep you all informed regarding my progress. I can't afford both the contract and CWP. we all know what's more important. Thanks for all the support and stay strong xx
  17. pinkpussy

    pinkpussy Well-Known Member

    I managed to get some internet access today. I am going strong even after a little blip. I decided to break my goals into even smaller goals. Hope you all are staying strong xx
  18. Mini

    Mini Administrator Staff Member

    Blips are common at the beginning so don't beat yourself up...hang in there!
  19. LeaE

    LeaE Well-Known Member

    Hey any update on yr first loss x x keep strong x
  20. pinkpussy

    pinkpussy Well-Known Member

    Hello beautiful people. Hope you all are getting on ok.
    I managed to get some connection so wanted to update you on how I'm getting on.

    I had my two week weigh in today and have remained 100% which I am so happy about.

    Unfortunately I am not quite ready to state my loss but I promise I will when I am ready.

    Stay strong people and remember believing is achieving :) xxx

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