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Ems Diary, week 14 in a lot more to go...

EmMUK

Trying Hard!
#1
Hi everyone, I have been keeping a diary since day 1 but have only just now decided that I should put one here so here goes.

I am on CD. I SS for the first 9 weeks but then started fainting because I was taking so much exercise what with formal activities and chasing a toddler around. So then I moved onto 790 and it has been working really well for me.

I have been finding it really easy until last week when loads of emotional stuff came and hit me between the eyes and I ended up with a 2 day binge which could have been a lot worse but wasn't great for the diet and ended me with a 1lb gain on Monday night. I was so angry and disappointed and upset and angry (worth mentioning twice) with myself but I realised that I have a major food addiction and CD is working and helping me deal with the weight and the food issues and one little blip on week 13 is nothing to stress about. so I am right back at it big style and hoping I get great news on Monday.

but boy is it hard this week, one binge has really made the cravings awful and although I am being good it's almost killing me. but I am still a massive CD advocate and I have to remind myself that I am almost 5 stone down in just 13 weeks and am down from a size 30 to a size 20 already so that's worth celebrating and keeping me motivated

anyway, as you can see, I'm a rambler so I will pickle off now, thanks for listening.
 
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DQ

Queen of the Damned
#2
Congratulations on your loss to date and your renewed determination :cool:
 
#3
Hi Emma, fancy seeing you here:rolleyes: Sorry to hear about the cravings, but I guess it is bound to happen after a binge - but you'll get through it, you are an A* SS'er:D

I really miss my diary, doing my head in this:cry:

Maddy xxx
 

EmMUK

Trying Hard!
#4
thanks DQ

and Maddy, I know just what you mean, hence here I am. apparently it is a major issue which could last the rest of the week
 
#5
oh typical! I have my weigh-in's in my sig on there, plus I can't get my tracker!!! And so far things are promising for this weigh-in too .. *huff* *huff* *huff*
 

SHAZA

Silver Member
#7
Hi emma

Just checked out your photos ~ how good are you at this

You look amazing and dont worry about 1 blib ~ big deal at least you are back on it now

Me and you started at the same size 30 and are doing about the same. I will keep my eye out for you now. Your little one is really lovely ~ i bet she keeps you on your toes. No need for aerobics

Well done you for doing 750 plan I couldnot do that it starts the hungry monsters off for me so I am SS till I am goal. I feel alot better now that I am under 20 stone ~ this week I hope to be 18 stone something

Well done you ~ hope to meet you someday soon
 
#8
Hi Em

It gets us all eventually...

.....as you know I have had a bad couple of weeks with my hospital appointment and everything and since I went to Centre Parcs I have not been back in ketosis.. :eek:
..nearly a month without it...it has been a killer.. I have been really picking..

But pleased to say I am back in it now.. I forgot how much of a comfort it is.. I am determined not to let myself slip out of it this time.. and the scales are really moving now!!! Yippeee.

How are you coping without the CD forum!!???
 
#10
Hi Em

You've done so well!

Bit miffed cos I think we started SSing at about the same time, so I know that if I'd stuck to it I could hve been nearly at target by now.:break_diet:

Anyway, shouldn't beat myself up about it, I wasn't in the right place then, and I think I'm nearly there now, so SS here I come. Not looking forward to day 3 though!!:cry:
 

EmMUK

Trying Hard!
#11
oh typical! I have my weigh-in's in my sig on there, plus I can't get my tracker!!! And so far things are promising for this weigh-in too .. *huff* *huff* *huff*
isn't it a nightmare. how come you can't get your tracker? I thought that section was working still? at least we are all meeting here so we can all support each other still.
 

EmMUK

Trying Hard!
#12
Emma, i have just looked at your photobucket link, wow! You are doing incredibly well! And the pics are great!
thanks, how did you know I needed to hear that right now? I have to just keep reminding myself that I CAN do this.
 

EmMUK

Trying Hard!
#13
Hi emma

Just checked out your photos ~ how good are you at this

You look amazing and dont worry about 1 blib ~ big deal at least you are back on it now

Me and you started at the same size 30 and are doing about the same. I will keep my eye out for you now. Your little one is really lovely ~ i bet she keeps you on your toes. No need for aerobics

Well done you for doing 750 plan I couldnot do that it starts the hungry monsters off for me so I am SS till I am goal. I feel alot better now that I am under 20 stone ~ this week I hope to be 18 stone something

Well done you ~ hope to meet you someday soon
I am doing OK but no where near as well as you are, I look at your achievements and it makes me feel like such a failure. I really am having a major down on myself week right now which is not like me.

I know what you mean about the hungry monsters, I wish I could go back to SS but my GP and CDC have banned me unless I can guarantee I have very little activity - and that's just not possible.

I am so determined to get to the 18s on Monday but trying not to raise my expectations to far and then get disappointed. At the moment anything can knock me and my confidence.

I am so impressed with your achievements but I just can't imagine right now that I could keep up with you. but that doesn't matter anyway, we all get there in our own time right?! :rolleyes:
 

EmMUK

Trying Hard!
#14
Hi Em

It gets us all eventually...

.....as you know I have had a bad couple of weeks with my hospital appointment and everything and since I went to Centre Parcs I have not been back in ketosis.. :eek:
..nearly a month without it...it has been a killer.. I have been really picking..

But pleased to say I am back in it now.. I forgot how much of a comfort it is.. I am determined not to let myself slip out of it this time.. and the scales are really moving now!!! Yippeee.

How are you coping without the CD forum!!???
Hey Vic, wow look at your ticker move, I wondered how you were doing and now I know GREAT is the answer. I am so impressed that you have managed to do so well whilst not being in ketosis, imagine how amazing it's going to be now! wow.

I was going spare without any where to vent and encourage others and distract myself but now it seems like I might just be OK. :eek: how are you?
 

EmMUK

Trying Hard!
#15
well done for your loss so far
you are doing very well
kaz xxx
thanks Kaz, how are you finding it all so far? are you now into the zone and finding it easier? hope so.
 

EmMUK

Trying Hard!
#16
Hi Em

You've done so well!

Bit miffed cos I think we started SSing at about the same time, so I know that if I'd stuck to it I could hve been nearly at target by now.:break_diet:

Anyway, shouldn't beat myself up about it, I wasn't in the right place then, and I think I'm nearly there now, so SS here I come. Not looking forward to day 3 though!!:cry:
Hi Jen, don't feel miffed. apart from anything else I have a lot more to loose so you would expect it to come off quicker. and besides I am now getting to the hard bit, before this desperation was kicking me on, now I feel quite chuffed with how I look and feel it's sooo much harder. You're so right that it's all about being in the right place and now you're there it will be easier and will all drop off. try not to worry about day 3, just keep majorly busy and get through it, by day 5 it will be all easy.
 

penny35

Silver Member
#17
Hi emma,just wanted to say hi as I have seen you here. Hope your ok, I'm ok, looking forward to a big cream cake, I mean another day on cd.
Can you tell me why it has to be so hard,its a reall killer.
 

EmMUK

Trying Hard!
#18
Hi emma,just wanted to say hi as I have seen you here. Hope your ok, I'm ok, looking forward to a big cream cake, I mean another day on cd.
Can you tell me why it has to be so hard,its a reall killer.
:D that made me laugh, thanks for that. I just remind myself that anything worth having has to be earned, so just imagine how great we are going to feel when we have got to goal! all I can say is without the pink site (well done for stating that) it's all so much harder, support really is everything.

hope tomorrow is busy and easier for you.
 

SHAZA

Silver Member
#19
Hi emma

You are doing amazing ~ maybe you cant see the difference but I can and the camera doesnt lie

You are like a different woman 67lb gone how cool is that

I hope to be in the 18's this week too lets see.

Dont beat yourself up or be down on yourself ~ I dont think you realize how far you have come so far

Well done you ~ you go girl !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 

EmMUK

Trying Hard!
#20
thanks Shaza, sometimes I look and think wow what a change. and other times I just see the massive journey still ahead of me. but I don't think I'm alone like that. I just look at everyone else and think they're doing so much better than I am right now. but I know that once I have a good wi on Monday then I will be right back to sparkling optomistic form. thanks for the encouragement
 


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