FAT-GIRL-SLIMS-JOURNAL

[fat-girl-slim08]

This is the start of my new life, and it feels so real now as I have just made the payment for my Gastric Bypass Operation,For this Saturday 6th December, I started my Pre-Op diet yesterday which was a day late because, I was In Ireland yesterday getting my new Puppy, so its just shakes and soups from now on, Yesterday went ok, as I was really tired from the journey and I slept most of the day, so didn't feel hungry at all. I am starting to feel a bit excited but also nervous.
Todays weight is 213.7lbs

 

[Big Dave]

i wish you the very best of luck. i know that you are going to be successful

 

[munkypooh]

Good Luck and Best Wishes for the start of your journey to your new life and all it shall bring you!

 

[fat-girl-slim08]

Thanks Guys for the support!!:hug99:

Well Yesterday went really well, just had soup and shakes all day, but then, Last night I must confess I ended up having a bolw of crunchy nut cornflakes, I just had too, Once I ate them I felt really bad and dissapointed in myself, But, Its done now and today is a new day!!
I did manage to lose 1lb yesterday so at least I still lost something.
I can't believe its Thursday already and only 2 more days untill my Opperation, I am getting really nervous now.
Todays weight 212.3lbs

 

[fat-girl-slim08]

Well today is the last day before my Op tommorrow,
I am having all kinds of feelings, wondering if I am doing the right thing, asking myself am I sure that this is what I want, and hoping that it works for me and I lose all the weight and keep it off, I have a Million & One questions going on in my head right now.
I just keep telling myself Yes and its because, of all the ailments I have .
My list,
I have had bulimia since the age of 22 and its a very hard life dealing with this and hiding it from everyone. If I carry on making myself sick and using Laxatives I know one day I will die from it. PCOS which is the main part of my problems as I have all the symptons,Deppression, fatigue, no energy all the time,very heavy periods when they come,Anxiety, Panic attacks, never leave the house,never socialise,all ways hiding from people when they knock on the door, never answer the phone,Headaches & Migraines,can't hold a job down. and there is loads more, but just can't think right now, and so its gonna make me so much better and healthier.
My mind has gone blank right now and I just can't think so I will leave it here for now.
Todays Weight 212.4lbs

 

[Big Dave]

ive got me fingers crossed for ya. i hope all goes well and you have a speedy recovery.

 

[munkypooh]

There is always a lot more to deal with than just losing the weight. The emotional journey is as important as the physical one, but by starting on the physical journey, you can begin to heal both aspects as you keep stepping in the right direction.

Very best wishes for the op, and there will be folks here to give you the support you need when you get back :hug99:

 

[fat-girl-slim08]

Thanks for the support guys, It really means a lot to me!!
Anyways its been 5 days since my Op and I am feeling better each and every day, I am Not hungry at all, Its so weird, I just sip away all day long and never get hungry. In fact sometimes I feel bloated as if I have just ate a big meal, But I have only had a little half cup of milk or something, Its really good.
Its unreal how, I am not hungry at all lol, and I just keep drinking and sipping away at my drinks.
You know what aswell, I smoked about 30ish cigarettes a day before my Op and when I went in on Staurday morning didn't have one until Monday aftenoon, Then had another later on that night, Tuesday I had 3, wednesday I had 3 and Today NONE!!!!!! So thats it now, I am really gonna do it to No more Fags for me. Its great Because I am not eating, and I am not smoking, Usually when I have something to eat I want a ciggy straight after, but because I'm not eating its so much easier to pack in smoking, and believe me I was a Real proper smoker for 23 years so I am doing real good too.:8855:
Todays Weight 206.4lbs

 

[munkypooh]

Glad to hear things are going well for you
Keep us updated on your progress!

 

[fat-girl-slim08]

Lizzi, Thats really awfull about your friends, I am really gonna do it this time, You know, I have smokd since I was 15 years old, and don't get me wrong I absolutly love a ciggie, But, I actually Paid for my Op and It was a Lot of money as you'l know, and I look at it like this, I am 38 yeasr old now and WANT to be Healthy and fit,Its got to the point that No more will I make excuses for being fat and Un fit, I really want to do this for me and my kids and hubby, because I want a life now, A Proper life, where we go out walking more with the dogs and getting lots of fresh air,instead of staying in day in and day out.
This is gonna be a Great new year and It feels like a second chance at life and I am gonna take real good care that I don't spoil it for nothing.

Well woke up this morning and feeling ok again, day 2 No smokes and down another 2lbs Only 6 days out today and that 8lbs down so far.
This is great!!!!

Todays Weight 204.7lbs

 

[fat-girl-slim08]

Whoop!! Whoop!! arty0049:arty0049:arty0049:arty0049:arty0049:
I feel so Happy today!!!!:bliss::bliss::bliss:
Its My first week annasurgery and I have lost in total........ Drum roll please...............................arty0016:11lbs In one week, This time last week I hadn't even had the opperation, It was 12.30 when i went down to theatre and I weight 212lbs and now 201lbs Whoop!! Whooop!!!!arty0023:
Todays Weight 201.4lbs

 

[munkypooh]

Whoop!! Whoop!! arty0049:arty0049:arty0049:arty0049:arty0049:
I feel so Happy today!!!!:bliss::bliss::bliss:
Its My first week annasurgery and I have lost in total........ Drum roll please...............................arty0016:11lbs In one week, This time last week I hadn't even had the opperation, It was 12.30 when i went down to theatre and I weight 212lbs and now 201lbs Whoop!! Whooop!!!!arty0023:
Todays Weight 201.4lbs

That is brilliant!
I think you can safely say you made the right decision!!

 

[fat-girl-slim08]

Munkypooh, Oh yessss I did lol, You now I have just spent about nearly 3 hurs in Morrison getting our shopping in and you know, I was never hungry once and people were goings crazy buying chocolates and selection boxes and stuff, and I never even batted an eyelid, I LOVE CHOCOLATE by the way I was a chocoholic, but, I can't even have a hot chocolate drink without feeling sick and dizzy, so I guess, probably no more chocolate for me again. which might i ad is a good thing because with me and chocolate its a love hate relationship, cos I love It but it made me FAT, so I also Hate it.
Anyways I am Just rambling on now. OH another good note, still had no Fags Yippeeeeeeeeeee. Thats 3 whole days now, I'm not going back there neither!!!!

 

[munkypooh]

It's lovely to hear that everything is going so well and you are feeling so positive

I'm doing well today, we went shopping and I bought 4 huge boxes of chocs, 2 bottles of wine, and lots of veg. The chocs and wine are presents, but the veg is all mine!!! :8855: It's all the stuff that's 0 points on Weight Watchers

 

[fat-girl-slim08]

Hey Munkpooh good for you lol,
Well, For 2 days now I haven't lost anymore weight, but, I think it might be down to TOM Arrrgggg, and also sorry to be so graphic, but haven't had a pooh in 2 day niether, so I am trying my hardest to drink plenty of water, so Hopefully will get things moving again, I keep thinking I'm not gonna loose any more and It wouod be typical of me lol, after paying all that money out!!
Anyways, I treated myself yesterday and bought myself a Wii, "Yay" and all night last night my hubby set it all up and we where experimenting on it, I got the wii fit and feel excited about it as I have heard a lot of good things about it and it will help me on my weightloss journey!!
I am gonna switch it on when I manage to drag myself away from minimins and have a little work out.

 

[munkypooh]

.......also sorry to be so graphic, but haven't had a pooh in 2 day niether......

Snap!!! :8855: I didn't do well at weigh-in yesterday for that reason!! Plus eating my dinner before I went at 7pm cos I was hungry!!! :booboo:

 

[fat-girl-slim08]

""YAY"" Sorry to be so graphic, but I finally went to the loo for a number 2 lol, I feel so much better now and I really do need to keep up with plenty of water, I was ver constipated and felt all bunged up lol, My weight has gone down a lb now so hopefully I will start losing again,
At times I get frustrated because I am so impatient and I know I really do need to chill out and the weight will come off slowly. Its very mentally hard as I am not hungry but, i see my self wanting something to eat, but only to feel something hard in my mouth lol, This is gonna take time to get used to.
Another good note, I played on my wii fit and its really good, I was on it for 45 mins and done a little work out, so "yay" to me!!

 

[fat-girl-slim08]

It Is 2 week today since I had my Op and I weighed myself and I have lost 15lbs in 2 weeks, Which I am very pleased about. It was only a 4lb loss this week, but, If I lose 4lbs a week I will be happy.

 

[munkypooh]

Good going! You should easily be at target by summer at that rate

My weight has stayed pretty much the same for a few weeks now, but at this time of year that's about the best I'm going to do! If I get back from the Xmas hols without gaining anything I think I can cope with that!

 

[fat-girl-slim08]

Its three weeks today since my surgery and I lost 3lbs this week, I'm not overly excited about it but, at lease its a loss and it is christmas so its better than gaining like i usually do over christmas.
in total thats now 23lbs
Todays weight 194.1lbs