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Feel so alone

#1
Hey guys :(

I'm feeling really down today. My whole family (plus boyfriend and other odds and sods) are having a roast chicken dinner and I don't know whether to hide or face my demons and sit with them. Just feel really flipping miserable to be honest. I know it's long term goals etc... but right now I'm so hungry, cold and down in the dumps that I just want to tear into food.
I HATE being fat. I HATE the fact that I can't have a normal relationship with food and have become this disgusting blob.
I just sometimes wish I wasn't me.


Sorry guys... just needed to blow off some self-pitying steam.

x
 
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#2
Babe blow off as much steam as you like - go on do it - scream - AAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH! It's the best feeling just to get it all out there.

Remember you can do this. You are a strong beautiful powerful woman who has it within her to be slim, happier and more comfortable in her own skin.

Sitting with them and watching them eat may be torture - but you will have to face people eating in front of you at some point. I made myself watch my friends eat pizza, takeaways and Subway in my first week to shock it out of me. And it's worked. But it's a personal thing I guess.

You could always go and have a lovely bubbly bath with an ice cold glass of sparkling water and pamper your evening away!

Remember - nothing will be as satisfying than when you reach your goal xxx
 

irish molly

Maintaing LT loss on GL
#3
you know, it is early days for you. Once you get into the swing of it, you will feel so much better. I found myself so bored at mealtimes. It is only when you do tfr that you realise just how much time we spend around food. If you cant face mealtimes yet, then go do something else. Join them for a coffee when they have finished. Just keep the new you in mind!!
 
#4
Hey :)
I know exactly how you feel all my family are going for a curry tonight which is my favourite ever food at my favourite ever curry house :(
I'm sooo jealous! But I keep reminding myself how good i'll feel when I go for my weigh in this wknd! And when i've reached my target weight there will be plenty of time to have curry :) (just a low fat one with a small side of rice though lol)
I'll be on here most of the night so let me know if you need to chat :)
xxx
 

Tootiefrootie

Wants it Gone!
#5
Im in the same predicament myself- there are leftovers in the fridge that looked and smelt so yummy- I did have the thought "sure what is one meal"? NOOOOOO I resisted and I cant believe I did it but I had to throw out the leftovers- I know its such a waste of food but Im like you determined girl, I hate being fat and I want rid of it end of... Stay strong, dont flinch- we can do it!!!

Best of luck xxx
 
#6
My Dad did homemade pizzas for him and my mum's tea tonight, the smell has been driving me wild! I went down to make a cup of peppermint tea earlier, and of course there were leftovers...
Pre-lipotrim I would have just helped myself - not because I was hungry or anything, but simply cos it was there and it was naughty! I'm coming to realise more and more each day that I wasn't really hungry when eating. I was very tempted to take a slice, but realised it was purely out of habit. I wasn't even remotely hungry when I thought about it!
And I LOVE Slinky's philosophy: nothing will ever taste as good as being slim will feel! Wise words indeed :D
 
#7
Stay strong hunnie:) The roast chicken dinner will be there in a few months, when you finish this diet.
Your choice to do this diet, so just remember the reason why you started this..do something nice for you while they are eating....in a few weeks you be much stronger.
It' s that crazy little voice in your head, like we all have telling us we need it , want it etc.
Just thing how proud you be when you have resisted...good luck xxx
 
#8
sometimes when im feeling like that, i'll put on a face pack and lie down, when its going dry you cant move your mouth! aha! or paint your fingernails- then you cant pick anything up or they will smudge! even if you do it a couple of times in one go till the feeling passes. i know exactly how you feel- i found an old pair of jeans the other day and i remember thinking i was massive when i bought them on holiday... now the waist of them would just about fit one of my legs in it!!! slowly but surely, a more healthy relationship with food will happen xxx
 
#9
Hi Determined Girl,
Always have a blow off here thats what we are for and I know for a fact I couldn't have gotten through LT without this site and without all of you!! I know its hard but you are just starting and this WILL get easier, the start of this diet is definetly the most difficult but you will succeed....your name says it all DETERMINES GIRL. Go relax, read a book, watch TV, go to the shop and buy yourself a magazine or a bottle of water at the shop. Just imagine that roast dinner they are eating is riddled in fat and cholesterol and how that wuld just clog up your arteries and slow you down! You are not a blob by the way, you are a wonderful, determined and bright person who can get to their goal, you can do it xxx
 

YumyMumy

Crawling to the finish!
#10
stay with the plan hun, if you can fight your demons now, then think how proud you will be of yourself when you have a new slim self. You can go to any social event in the world but you HAVE to learn to control what you eat and not let the roast control you! virtual hugs xxx
 

exiguous

Silver Member
#11
Totally with you YumyMumy the new confidence will make it allllllll worth it
 
#12
Hey guys... well firstly a BIG thanks for your support. I don't feel at all alone because the support and advice you guys give is just amazing- you're such a lifeline. Secondly... I sat and chatted with them through dinner...and it really wasn't bad. I think they felt worse seeing me not eat! I realised I can still be the gregarious, bubbly person I usually am.

Molly- yeah... I find myself bored all the time! It's amazing the time spent eating...and planning to eat...and thinking about what I've eaten. Maybe with all this extra time I could learn a new language or something!! I guess I DO really love food... I love cooking it for friends and family.... I love preparing it...and CLEARLY (lol) I love eating it. I guess it's the realisation that food shouldn't define such a huge part of my lives. My Dad was saying tonight 'it's just fuel'... and I really realised that it's become this God in my life... and that's just unhealthy.

Thank you all so much for your comments. You're stars...and my icons!

Big love x
 

irish molly

Maintaing LT loss on GL
#13
Good on ya! Glad you feel more positive. We have to face these mini crises every day and must do our best to stay strong!! Onwards and downwards!!!
 
#14
Good on you Determined Girl, your Dad speaks a lot of sense actually, food keeps us going...we shouldn't be slaves to it!
You are 100% in control of what you have now and you will see the weight come off with this diet! So glad you are feeling better you know...it does get easier, and then you will see how much in control you are! Its also not forever and you can look forward to enjoy healthy foods again! You come on here whenever u feel bad and we'll do our best to help u out xxx
 

Catt

Silver Member
#15
Aww sorry you were feeling down hunny. It can be a very lonely and anti social place being on a tfr diet. The benefits far outweigh the downside in the longrun though.

I am glad you feel supported and have made it through this hurdle. Stay strong and know you are not alone and we are all here for you when the going gets tough.

Good Luck xxx
 

MiniB

Here we go again!
#16
So glad you are feeling better now. You are one very determined girl and should remember that. Just get this first week out of the way and it all becomes so much easier. I agree though, I think people around us feel more guilty for eating in front of us than we feel bad about not being able to eat.

Keep going, you're doing good and that first weigh in isn't far away. Can't wait to the see result! Good luck.
 


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