MrsWills
Full Member
Oh my god another restart for me! im fed up of failing i feel like im never going to get anywhere. Ill tell you a bit about me.
I started taking Xenicla in November 2012 and in my first week i lost 10 pounds. I went steady on then and the most i lost was 28 pounds. I felt slinky and sexy and noticed difference in my body so i thought id give myself a little break.
Its now June 2012 (obvs) and i put alot of weight back on but still an overal loss of 20 pounds. I feel like in yo-yoing. Im waiting for IVF and need to get down to a BMI of 30 or under in 6 months. Im getting married next April and will be a bridesmaid for my best friend in May. I feel like crap to be honest. My friends are all amazing people and we have been best friends since yr 7 in school. We've pretty much grown up together but they dont understand the struggle i have with my weight. My 2 best friends are size 8 an 10. I have another close friend who is size 6!! 6!! We all went out last night and had a fantastic time! but i kept looking at them and then at me the pictures are awful i look like im double - no triple thier size. i dont think its worth going out any more i just make myself feel like crap and i dont need this.
I am also living with my in laws and saving for wedding / our own house (which we will be buying July 2014) so i just feel like im constantly stressed worrying about everything and then in the grand schem,e of things i think well ill have a day off diet and i cant get back on it!! oh yeah ive recently quit smoking and all i want to do is eat eat eat!!!! Im going mad.
Sorry such a long post but it just feels good to get it out tbh.
Anyone feel the same way or in a similar position??
I started taking Xenicla in November 2012 and in my first week i lost 10 pounds. I went steady on then and the most i lost was 28 pounds. I felt slinky and sexy and noticed difference in my body so i thought id give myself a little break.
Its now June 2012 (obvs) and i put alot of weight back on but still an overal loss of 20 pounds. I feel like in yo-yoing. Im waiting for IVF and need to get down to a BMI of 30 or under in 6 months. Im getting married next April and will be a bridesmaid for my best friend in May. I feel like crap to be honest. My friends are all amazing people and we have been best friends since yr 7 in school. We've pretty much grown up together but they dont understand the struggle i have with my weight. My 2 best friends are size 8 an 10. I have another close friend who is size 6!! 6!! We all went out last night and had a fantastic time! but i kept looking at them and then at me the pictures are awful i look like im double - no triple thier size. i dont think its worth going out any more i just make myself feel like crap and i dont need this.
I am also living with my in laws and saving for wedding / our own house (which we will be buying July 2014) so i just feel like im constantly stressed worrying about everything and then in the grand schem,e of things i think well ill have a day off diet and i cant get back on it!! oh yeah ive recently quit smoking and all i want to do is eat eat eat!!!! Im going mad.
Sorry such a long post but it just feels good to get it out tbh.
Anyone feel the same way or in a similar position??
