Smoffi
Full Member
Hi all, I'm :cry:here, and have been almost all night...
When I started SW the first time around 12 months ago, i never did the plan more than about 75% but lost over a stone in 5 weeks.. then stopped going and went off track over christmas, put most of it back on, came back in Feb, and again about 80% on plan, for about 3 weeks lost minimum of 3lb a week.. slipped again, stopped going to group.
Well around 6 weeks ago after a scare with my health - gall stones, and needing an op, which I was told (like I didn't know) by the surgeon was risky at my size (over 22 stone at that point). He told me I should try to lose as much weight as I could during the waiting time - about 8 weeks (still haven't heard a date btw). There was talk about me having obesity surgery at the same time, but that was decided against, but he advised me I would need it eventually.
I went back to my group, and since then I have been on plan 100% I've not cheated once, and although I've hovvered around 10 syns a day, even they have been healthy chocies - ie made up of extra hexa & hexb choices mostly.
I've also been excercising almost every day, I was swimming everyday, but the cold (it was an outdoor pool) has put pay to that, but I've bought Zumba for the kinect and been doing that every day..
However my weight losses since 're-dedicating' myself have been no more than 1lb a week! I was convinced I could lose 2 stone before the op if it was 8 weeks away, but so far I've struggled to even get my half stone.
It makes no sense! I've done my best to stay positive, to see it as 'any loss is a good loss' 'better off than on' all the usual platitudes, but the last 12 hours I've run out of positiveness.
I made the decision the first time I went to my group after the hospital that I'm NOT having obesity surgery, after finding out some of the things they don't tell you.
I'm off to church this morning, and will put on 'the face' again, when people tell me how well I'm doing (a lot of people there follow me on facebook and my blog and see all the effort I'm putting in, and they're very good) I'll say the usual,"I wish it was going faster, but I'll get there" But inside I'll be in floods of tears - I just hope they don't penetrate the facade, because if they do I will totally lose it!
Sorry to vent.. have told hubby how I feel and he's very good, he's doing the plan too, but he's nowhere near as overweight as I am, and I don't think really gets the way I feel.
On a positive not.. I've not had a gall stone attack since I re-started, so hopefully I can at least delay the operation!
*hugs & blessings*
Smoffi
When I started SW the first time around 12 months ago, i never did the plan more than about 75% but lost over a stone in 5 weeks.. then stopped going and went off track over christmas, put most of it back on, came back in Feb, and again about 80% on plan, for about 3 weeks lost minimum of 3lb a week.. slipped again, stopped going to group.
Well around 6 weeks ago after a scare with my health - gall stones, and needing an op, which I was told (like I didn't know) by the surgeon was risky at my size (over 22 stone at that point). He told me I should try to lose as much weight as I could during the waiting time - about 8 weeks (still haven't heard a date btw). There was talk about me having obesity surgery at the same time, but that was decided against, but he advised me I would need it eventually.
I went back to my group, and since then I have been on plan 100% I've not cheated once, and although I've hovvered around 10 syns a day, even they have been healthy chocies - ie made up of extra hexa & hexb choices mostly.
I've also been excercising almost every day, I was swimming everyday, but the cold (it was an outdoor pool) has put pay to that, but I've bought Zumba for the kinect and been doing that every day..
However my weight losses since 're-dedicating' myself have been no more than 1lb a week! I was convinced I could lose 2 stone before the op if it was 8 weeks away, but so far I've struggled to even get my half stone.
It makes no sense! I've done my best to stay positive, to see it as 'any loss is a good loss' 'better off than on' all the usual platitudes, but the last 12 hours I've run out of positiveness.
I made the decision the first time I went to my group after the hospital that I'm NOT having obesity surgery, after finding out some of the things they don't tell you.
I'm off to church this morning, and will put on 'the face' again, when people tell me how well I'm doing (a lot of people there follow me on facebook and my blog and see all the effort I'm putting in, and they're very good) I'll say the usual,"I wish it was going faster, but I'll get there" But inside I'll be in floods of tears - I just hope they don't penetrate the facade, because if they do I will totally lose it!
Sorry to vent.. have told hubby how I feel and he's very good, he's doing the plan too, but he's nowhere near as overweight as I am, and I don't think really gets the way I feel.
On a positive not.. I've not had a gall stone attack since I re-started, so hopefully I can at least delay the operation!
*hugs & blessings*
Smoffi