Grandma
Totally Focused
Well, I guess its time I got myself back on here now I'm trying to get some semblance of reality back into my life. Its over two weeks since Ken died, and I know its early days, but he wouldn't have wanted me to mope about or feel sorry for myself. I'm doing ok, having lots of wobbly moments over little things, but generally feeling quite positive and determined to continue to be the person he loved and would want me to be.
I've stayed on CD all the time and haven't wavered, which has been good for me. Its meant that I haven't had to worry about thinking about what to eat and then not get round to it. So its been an easy option really in these circumstances. I didn't do well with having all my shakes every day in the last two weeks, and I've been short on water several days this week - which has been reflected in the slower loss this week - and I'm now working hard at getting that back to normal.
I hit the scales at 16st 13lbs this morning - 90lbs (6st 6lbs) off in 21 weeks. I'm really chuffed with that as you can imagine!! My size 22 clothes that I bought a few weeks ago are now loose and several I haven't yet worn need to go back to be changed for smaller sizes! I feel good about myself for the first time in 16 years!
I've also booked my flights to go to Cornwall to stay with my son in law's mother for a week at the beginning of August. I'm proud of myself for doing it and making the decision - although I'm nervous about flying by myself for the first time ever - and about going on holiday for the first time without Ken. I just want to get all these 'firsts' out of the way as quickly as possible. But I've gone on long enough!
Thanks again for all your messages of support, hope, love and care. You really are terrific people to know.
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I've stayed on CD all the time and haven't wavered, which has been good for me. Its meant that I haven't had to worry about thinking about what to eat and then not get round to it. So its been an easy option really in these circumstances. I didn't do well with having all my shakes every day in the last two weeks, and I've been short on water several days this week - which has been reflected in the slower loss this week - and I'm now working hard at getting that back to normal.
I hit the scales at 16st 13lbs this morning - 90lbs (6st 6lbs) off in 21 weeks. I'm really chuffed with that as you can imagine!! My size 22 clothes that I bought a few weeks ago are now loose and several I haven't yet worn need to go back to be changed for smaller sizes! I feel good about myself for the first time in 16 years!
I've also booked my flights to go to Cornwall to stay with my son in law's mother for a week at the beginning of August. I'm proud of myself for doing it and making the decision - although I'm nervous about flying by myself for the first time ever - and about going on holiday for the first time without Ken. I just want to get all these 'firsts' out of the way as quickly as possible. But I've gone on long enough!
Thanks again for all your messages of support, hope, love and care. You really are terrific people to know.
x