Ok, I'm not really sure where to begin, but I know I need help. I'm overweight, unhappy, feel ridiculously unattractive, lonely and afraid I will never find someone to love and who'll love me back. I've got credit cards I need to pay off but keep spending on to cheer me up when I'm down but it's always food I use as a comfort. People perceive me as a happy, friendly and outgoing person who's confident at work but deep down I'm a mess. When I look in the mirror I cry because I don't like what I see, I try and be positive but its one step forward two steps back. Im binging on a daily basis now which disgusts me but I can't seem to control it. To top it off, its xmas day in 4 days and I really want to enjoy it but can't find the energy to really get into the spirit of it. I feel like I'm putting on a show when I say I'm excited about it but the way I feel, all I want to do is stay in bed and hibernate. I'm also out on ny eve with my mates who are all coupled up and I know ill be the girl on her own. I think about food all the time like its ruling my life. I just don't know what to do to get out of this hole.