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Banned
And I feel so ashamed! :ashamed0005: I have never been so positive in my life about doing this diet and it’s the only thing that I want to do for myself however last night I broke it. It was all going well until my OH’s sister rang and as usual she had something nasty to say about me. I have never done anything to this woman she hates me because I am the reason his brother is marrying out of his race and she can’t stand white people. I have never been raciest in my life and believe that everyone is equal no matter what shape, colour or sizes. On every occasion she puts me down and says that I am not good enough and as always the weight matter comes up and that he could do so much better than being with me. The fella was trying in his own way to stick up for me and told her that I was on a diet and had lost 11lbs, which added fuel to her fire. I told the fella before I started this diet that I didn’t want any of his family to know, my own family don’t either as they don’t approve of vlcd’s and I knew they would judge me in a bad way. The only person that knows about the diet is a very good supportive friend and she knows all too well why I am trying to get myself out of this rut.
Two hours later after the phone call I received a few nasty texts from her, they read “hey fatty, I heard ya are a diet and I had to write this text to tell you that I have never laughed so hard in my life and know that ya are never going to do it “Ya white trash will always be ugly, wen ya look in the mirror ya will only see a lump of ugly blubber looking back. Have ya ever seen black or asian fat women? We don't use our mouths as a railroad for food!! Ya are an ugly fat white b*****d and I will do everything in my power to see that you don’t get married to my brother”
Well anyways I felt really upset and cried my heart out, as she is right I do feel I am ugly so I turned to food for comfort. I couldn’t stomach much but had a small veg curry and rice (homemade); it ended up making me feel sick which in a way was good. I didn’t let my OH know what the text said as I don’t want him to fall out with her, family is family and don’t believe in coming between anyone and anyways I know he would be livid.
What I really should have done was logged onto this site but I wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone and didn’t want to be judged. I just hope that I haven’t done too much harm with being in ketosis.:cry:
Now hopefully I can get back on track…………….. :sad0071:
Two hours later after the phone call I received a few nasty texts from her, they read “hey fatty, I heard ya are a diet and I had to write this text to tell you that I have never laughed so hard in my life and know that ya are never going to do it “Ya white trash will always be ugly, wen ya look in the mirror ya will only see a lump of ugly blubber looking back. Have ya ever seen black or asian fat women? We don't use our mouths as a railroad for food!! Ya are an ugly fat white b*****d and I will do everything in my power to see that you don’t get married to my brother”
Well anyways I felt really upset and cried my heart out, as she is right I do feel I am ugly so I turned to food for comfort. I couldn’t stomach much but had a small veg curry and rice (homemade); it ended up making me feel sick which in a way was good. I didn’t let my OH know what the text said as I don’t want him to fall out with her, family is family and don’t believe in coming between anyone and anyways I know he would be livid.
What I really should have done was logged onto this site but I wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone and didn’t want to be judged. I just hope that I haven’t done too much harm with being in ketosis.:cry:
Now hopefully I can get back on track…………….. :sad0071:
