Cherryade
Full Member
Hello! Here's my first ever diary!
I am an emotional eater. I like luxury, good quality food and drink and celebrate with food, commiserate with food and eat when Im bored, happy, sad etc.
I am a step mummy to 2 lil ones of 7 and 10 who I bring up with my partner. We would like to complete our 'unconventional' family with a baby of our own. My first, his last. The kids have been nagging us for years for a sister.... we would love to give them one but my weight, age and polycystic ovarian syndrome means we have obstacles to overcome.
Im 36 yrs old, 5' 9, size 18-20 and my last weigh in was 18st 12lb. It has taken me @ a year to lose @ 2 stone. My heaviest ever was @ 21 stone.
I have kick started my plan this week, having been on and off plan depending on my mood for the past year. Now is the time to get on with it. My next birthday is on its way and if we stand any chance of completing our family then I have to take responsibility for what goes in my gob!!
I see a consultant due to my pcos. He wants to see some good results in the next 3 weeks, hence the spur to get back on the wagon. He says I may need surgery to remove my cysts so aiding conception and my weight is the difference between a caesarian style op or key hole surgery.....
I exercise by walking and cycling and find SW the only plan that is realistic for me and my family. I am pretty fit for a 'big girl' and can ride 10 miles quite happily. My problem is actually doing it! So this week has seen a new me, Ive been sticking to plan, going on @ 5 mile bike rides every day and am feeling good about it all.
Downfalls...
I get v easily dissapointed at weigh in's and think 'ah sod it' and fall off plan if I dont have a really good loss. I need to sort this to succeed.
I eat the same things and get bored and fall off the wagon. I have got some fab recipes from this site and Im hoping it will be my saving grace this time round!
I can be v easily led. My sister (who has always been v slim) thinks she's being nice to me by encouraging 'treat' foods. I love and respect and look up to her and often I give in thinking 'yea she's right I DO deserve this treat'. Often the treat is a high syn pud and I then feel guilty afterwards... and usually wreck the rest of my day... or week. I need to work out how to deal with this.
My partner is v supportive but doesnt understand SW - I will prepare a low syn 'treat' and he looks and says 'should you be having that?' and thinks SW cant work as its not hugely restricting and thinks all diets should be..... I get fed up explaining that is does work.... and the fact Ive dropped 2 stone in the last year surely proves that?!
Positives
I love the feeling of getting back in my favourite clothes
I love the summer and feeling lighter in the summer is a real treat for me - lighter me, lighter clothes, lighter days
I love riding my bike and feeling strong
I love the fact that I have heard so many women say they fall pregnant when they have lost weight. I hope my time comes soon.
Im almost at the end of week one (this is day 5) and its been really good so far. Im hoping for a good loss as I want to get 12lb off before I see my consultant on the 15th May. But tbh any loss is a good loss as he and I just want to see a reduction, Ive been plato'ing at around 19 st for months now.
o0o0o0 that was cathartic! Im glad I had the courage to write all that down!
Thanks for reading if you have got this far!!
I am an emotional eater. I like luxury, good quality food and drink and celebrate with food, commiserate with food and eat when Im bored, happy, sad etc.
I am a step mummy to 2 lil ones of 7 and 10 who I bring up with my partner. We would like to complete our 'unconventional' family with a baby of our own. My first, his last. The kids have been nagging us for years for a sister.... we would love to give them one but my weight, age and polycystic ovarian syndrome means we have obstacles to overcome.
Im 36 yrs old, 5' 9, size 18-20 and my last weigh in was 18st 12lb. It has taken me @ a year to lose @ 2 stone. My heaviest ever was @ 21 stone.
I have kick started my plan this week, having been on and off plan depending on my mood for the past year. Now is the time to get on with it. My next birthday is on its way and if we stand any chance of completing our family then I have to take responsibility for what goes in my gob!!
I see a consultant due to my pcos. He wants to see some good results in the next 3 weeks, hence the spur to get back on the wagon. He says I may need surgery to remove my cysts so aiding conception and my weight is the difference between a caesarian style op or key hole surgery.....
I exercise by walking and cycling and find SW the only plan that is realistic for me and my family. I am pretty fit for a 'big girl' and can ride 10 miles quite happily. My problem is actually doing it! So this week has seen a new me, Ive been sticking to plan, going on @ 5 mile bike rides every day and am feeling good about it all.
Downfalls...
I get v easily dissapointed at weigh in's and think 'ah sod it' and fall off plan if I dont have a really good loss. I need to sort this to succeed.
I eat the same things and get bored and fall off the wagon. I have got some fab recipes from this site and Im hoping it will be my saving grace this time round!
I can be v easily led. My sister (who has always been v slim) thinks she's being nice to me by encouraging 'treat' foods. I love and respect and look up to her and often I give in thinking 'yea she's right I DO deserve this treat'. Often the treat is a high syn pud and I then feel guilty afterwards... and usually wreck the rest of my day... or week. I need to work out how to deal with this.
My partner is v supportive but doesnt understand SW - I will prepare a low syn 'treat' and he looks and says 'should you be having that?' and thinks SW cant work as its not hugely restricting and thinks all diets should be..... I get fed up explaining that is does work.... and the fact Ive dropped 2 stone in the last year surely proves that?!
Positives
I love the feeling of getting back in my favourite clothes
I love the summer and feeling lighter in the summer is a real treat for me - lighter me, lighter clothes, lighter days
I love riding my bike and feeling strong
I love the fact that I have heard so many women say they fall pregnant when they have lost weight. I hope my time comes soon.
Im almost at the end of week one (this is day 5) and its been really good so far. Im hoping for a good loss as I want to get 12lb off before I see my consultant on the 15th May. But tbh any loss is a good loss as he and I just want to see a reduction, Ive been plato'ing at around 19 st for months now.
o0o0o0 that was cathartic! Im glad I had the courage to write all that down!
Thanks for reading if you have got this far!!
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