MrsP
Full Member
Right so after losing 5 stone on the Cambridge weight plan I feel I can no longer go on using that method. Let's be frank, it's not exactly healthy way to lose weight has taught me sweet FA on how or what my body needs ( I used to plan days off just to binge then take laxatives as I couldn't handle the guilt)
Its time I learnt what my body needs and what I know I am meant to be.
So a little about myself... I'm Fay and I'm 26 married and mum to 3 beautiful children ages 6,4 and 2. I was always a size 10, 10 stone dead on kind of girl. Always had that perfect figure that we all want (at the time I still thought I was fat, yet looking back I was deluded lol) all the curves in the right places, then something' happened.....
KIDS! Now I love them to pieces wouldn't chnage them for the world, but my first pregnancy was the start of my weight issues.
Aged 19 and pregnant with the man I loved to bits was fabulous we got a flat together and I really loved my new role of mummy to be and housewife or house girlfriend at the time! I was very lucky despite having a stonking huge bump very early on, i didn't gain hardly any weight at all! That was until I got something called SPD, it was painful I couldn't walk around properly and if I did it wasn't for long. Getting up the stairs was a massive task. During this time saw my size 10 body grow into a size 14 within a matter of weeks, I was so fed up and depressed of feeling 'fat' and not being able to do the basic of things saw me eat eat eat, I had swapped my water for full fat coke and my fruit ( i used to live on fruit) for haribo tangfastics! I was falling to bits, my depression also started at this point.
Eventually the time came and I went into labour naturally on my due date! I was delighted and felt very prepared! I'd got to fully dilated at home and got to hospital midwives were shocked and popped my waters and said lets getting pushing! I was in this state for what seemed like an age, midwives rushing in and out i'm afraid your baby is distressed Fay his heart rates dropping and we are worried about his oxygen levels I think the best option is emergency c section! I was like a deranged witch for the next 5-10 ( my mother almost died after a c section going horribly wrong and spent 4 months in hospital) I was pettrified! I went to theatre scared for my life and my beautiful unborn sons life.
Thankfully all went well and I recovered without problem. My son was beautiful. I'd grown him, me , my body , I'd created this beautiful child dependant on me. Gradually over a matter of weeks I started to feel more and more depressed to the point i wouldn't let anyone not even hubby to touch my son, it reached its peak and I had a whacking great breakdown resulting in me ballooning to a size 22! From a size 10-22 in poss a year was destroying! I never got over all my hiccups and stayed that size even got bigger and had 2 more children getting bigger and bigger each time! It was horrible. I feel like my slim days are done and I'll never look lie that again , that as Neil I lost on the Cambridge and now I see and realise I can achieve my dream of being a slimster once again!
So I guess that's a verrrrrrry long winded chapter of my life! I'm drawing a close to all my issues and depression and the fat tag that has been hanging round me for long time! I'm taking matters in to my own hands and doing cal counting! I feel like way I shall learn what my body needs and portion control etc!
I've decided to stick to 1200 calories per day on recommendation from my fitness pal app.
Today is my start date!!
Hope I haven't bored anyone with my long winded talk! Lol
Here's to my journey to slimdom!
Fay xxx
Its time I learnt what my body needs and what I know I am meant to be.
So a little about myself... I'm Fay and I'm 26 married and mum to 3 beautiful children ages 6,4 and 2. I was always a size 10, 10 stone dead on kind of girl. Always had that perfect figure that we all want (at the time I still thought I was fat, yet looking back I was deluded lol) all the curves in the right places, then something' happened.....
KIDS! Now I love them to pieces wouldn't chnage them for the world, but my first pregnancy was the start of my weight issues.
Aged 19 and pregnant with the man I loved to bits was fabulous we got a flat together and I really loved my new role of mummy to be and housewife or house girlfriend at the time! I was very lucky despite having a stonking huge bump very early on, i didn't gain hardly any weight at all! That was until I got something called SPD, it was painful I couldn't walk around properly and if I did it wasn't for long. Getting up the stairs was a massive task. During this time saw my size 10 body grow into a size 14 within a matter of weeks, I was so fed up and depressed of feeling 'fat' and not being able to do the basic of things saw me eat eat eat, I had swapped my water for full fat coke and my fruit ( i used to live on fruit) for haribo tangfastics! I was falling to bits, my depression also started at this point.
Eventually the time came and I went into labour naturally on my due date! I was delighted and felt very prepared! I'd got to fully dilated at home and got to hospital midwives were shocked and popped my waters and said lets getting pushing! I was in this state for what seemed like an age, midwives rushing in and out i'm afraid your baby is distressed Fay his heart rates dropping and we are worried about his oxygen levels I think the best option is emergency c section! I was like a deranged witch for the next 5-10 ( my mother almost died after a c section going horribly wrong and spent 4 months in hospital) I was pettrified! I went to theatre scared for my life and my beautiful unborn sons life.
Thankfully all went well and I recovered without problem. My son was beautiful. I'd grown him, me , my body , I'd created this beautiful child dependant on me. Gradually over a matter of weeks I started to feel more and more depressed to the point i wouldn't let anyone not even hubby to touch my son, it reached its peak and I had a whacking great breakdown resulting in me ballooning to a size 22! From a size 10-22 in poss a year was destroying! I never got over all my hiccups and stayed that size even got bigger and had 2 more children getting bigger and bigger each time! It was horrible. I feel like my slim days are done and I'll never look lie that again , that as Neil I lost on the Cambridge and now I see and realise I can achieve my dream of being a slimster once again!
So I guess that's a verrrrrrry long winded chapter of my life! I'm drawing a close to all my issues and depression and the fat tag that has been hanging round me for long time! I'm taking matters in to my own hands and doing cal counting! I feel like way I shall learn what my body needs and portion control etc!
I've decided to stick to 1200 calories per day on recommendation from my fitness pal app.
Today is my start date!!
Hope I haven't bored anyone with my long winded talk! Lol
Here's to my journey to slimdom!
Fay xxx
