Not all who wander are lost...
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Missy conway
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Hey and welcome I've been away for 3 1/2 years and have re joined what to lose 16lb
vegemite
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Hi @Missy conway . It's definitely the eating plan that works the best for me. It's like normal eating. I just have spent so many years loosing my way and assuming that meant failure...crazy
So, I've come to he conclusion that food and alcohol wise, weekends are terrible for me. Great socially but I either lose control or I don't have as much control. Rather than thinking that's a failure and I may as well not bother if I can't do it 'perfectly', I'm going to concentrate on the other 5 days of the week. I'm sure at some point the weekends will find their groove.
So Friday night I had a wonderful Deer pie that I had bought at Denby months ago with mash, veg and gravy......and of course wine. lol
Saturday one of my daughters made me breakfast so not strictly on plan. Then I went to the cinema with another of my daughters and had popcorn and some kind of slushy thing. We shared.
Then we went to Prezzo and I had a calzone and an amazing honeycomb cheesecake. Then nibbles while watching Eurovision last night..
Today, I'm in control of breakfast and lunch but I'm going to a friends for a buffet tonight so I'm not sure what will be there and then it's out for cheap shots after that.
See, very social, loads of fun, but terrible food wise. There are definitely things I can tweak but this is a life changing marathon, not a quick sprint.
So, I've come to he conclusion that food and alcohol wise, weekends are terrible for me. Great socially but I either lose control or I don't have as much control. Rather than thinking that's a failure and I may as well not bother if I can't do it 'perfectly', I'm going to concentrate on the other 5 days of the week. I'm sure at some point the weekends will find their groove.
So Friday night I had a wonderful Deer pie that I had bought at Denby months ago with mash, veg and gravy......and of course wine. lol
Saturday one of my daughters made me breakfast so not strictly on plan. Then I went to the cinema with another of my daughters and had popcorn and some kind of slushy thing. We shared.
Then we went to Prezzo and I had a calzone and an amazing honeycomb cheesecake. Then nibbles while watching Eurovision last night..
Today, I'm in control of breakfast and lunch but I'm going to a friends for a buffet tonight so I'm not sure what will be there and then it's out for cheap shots after that.
See, very social, loads of fun, but terrible food wise. There are definitely things I can tweak but this is a life changing marathon, not a quick sprint.
vegemite
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Had a lovely breakfast and lunch yesterday. I made the chicken, potato and spinach curry. It was wonderful.
Lots of alcohol last night and a weatherspoons breakfast this morning for my queasy tummy. Walked around town for exercise and then back home for an on plan tea.
I'm going for an early night tonight so I'm on form for tomorrow.
Lots of alcohol last night and a weatherspoons breakfast this morning for my queasy tummy. Walked around town for exercise and then back home for an on plan tea.
I'm going for an early night tonight so I'm on form for tomorrow.
vegemite
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My day started out amazingly.
After a good nights sleep, I got up and went for my planned walk to the local park. Came home and did house work. Cut the grass. Got through a few things on my to do list. And food was all good.
Then mid afternoon I just started to struggle mentally. I cooked the tea at about 5pm to have when I got back from my Slimming World class and then it all went bad at about 6pm....I didn't go to class, I went to the shop and bought crap food....I have no idea what went wrong. I'm annoyed and disappointed and yet I also am trying to be gentle with myself cause I'm obviously not in a great head space....
Tomorrow is another day, though and I'll just keep at it. At some point it has to fall into place.
After a good nights sleep, I got up and went for my planned walk to the local park. Came home and did house work. Cut the grass. Got through a few things on my to do list. And food was all good.
Then mid afternoon I just started to struggle mentally. I cooked the tea at about 5pm to have when I got back from my Slimming World class and then it all went bad at about 6pm....I didn't go to class, I went to the shop and bought crap food....I have no idea what went wrong. I'm annoyed and disappointed and yet I also am trying to be gentle with myself cause I'm obviously not in a great head space....
Tomorrow is another day, though and I'll just keep at it. At some point it has to fall into place.
vegemite
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I had a terrible night's sleep last night so I'm going to struggle this afternoon.
But while I wasn't sleeping I was thinking about the whole terrible eating thing of yesterday. It is fair to say there are things in my life that I can do nothing about but that are making me sad.
But I can do something about me. That includes accepting that I can't change things and allowing myself to feel what I'm feeling instead of trying to stuff it down with terrible food and then feeling worse. I think it's going to be a learning curve.
I'm also putting down my eating and exercise plans as a to do list to check off everyday. I like a good list and I'm hoping that linking that together will help me to 'complete' it.
But while I wasn't sleeping I was thinking about the whole terrible eating thing of yesterday. It is fair to say there are things in my life that I can do nothing about but that are making me sad.
But I can do something about me. That includes accepting that I can't change things and allowing myself to feel what I'm feeling instead of trying to stuff it down with terrible food and then feeling worse. I think it's going to be a learning curve.
I'm also putting down my eating and exercise plans as a to do list to check off everyday. I like a good list and I'm hoping that linking that together will help me to 'complete' it.
vixter
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Aw vegemite, that is so sad to read. I can empathise with every word though. All I will say is please no matter what happens the rest of this week, go to your class next week. Stopping going to SW was the biggest mistake of my life, and I am so glad I have rejoined. If I hadn't stopped I could have had a couple of kids and only work part time or something instead of being barren and stressed. Big hugs for you.
vegemite
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Thank you so much @vixter . I spend so much time umming and ahhinh about whether to continue going to class, but I know that it's best if I do and if I just keep at it.
I'm looking for my class to be a support network for me but I go on my own and I don't know anyone and even though I know these things take time.....I'm inpatient!
I'm looking for my class to be a support network for me but I go on my own and I don't know anyone and even though I know these things take time.....I'm inpatient!
vegemite
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I've had a good day today and I've managed to tick everything off my list. Had another bad night's sleep though. Alot of stuff on my mind, obviously. I'm going to have to try to find a way to sort that out...
So:
Organised Park walk done....I've stopped thinking I need to do it first thing and I've decided I just need to do it everyday. After great weather all day, I set off just as it started to rain. lol. Still a lovely walk, though I need to hunt out my headphones so I can listen to music or something.
On plan.....done.
Food today:
Breakfast: banana
Lunch: Monkfish tail, bacon and salad.
Tea: Pork mince stir fry and noodles
It was all really yummy.
Food diary....all filled in. I've been doing this for a couple of weeks now. I find it quite helpful, even though I haven't really been putting in syn values, just seeing my food has been helpful.
So:
Organised Park walk done....I've stopped thinking I need to do it first thing and I've decided I just need to do it everyday. After great weather all day, I set off just as it started to rain. lol. Still a lovely walk, though I need to hunt out my headphones so I can listen to music or something.
On plan.....done.
Food today:
Breakfast: banana
Lunch: Monkfish tail, bacon and salad.
Tea: Pork mince stir fry and noodles
It was all really yummy.
Food diary....all filled in. I've been doing this for a couple of weeks now. I find it quite helpful, even though I haven't really been putting in syn values, just seeing my food has been helpful.
vegemite
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Another good day of getting to do's done.
I had my grand daughter today so we did my walk this morning. She was fast asleep by the time we got to the park so no time in the swing. lol
Food went well:
Breakfast: Shreddies, banana, muller light
Lunch: Boiled eggs and salad
Tea: Chinese chicken curry and rice
It was all very yummy. I'm enjoying the feelings of achievement.
I use a lovely day per page diary to put in my food and exercise @vixter . Though I'll have a look online and see what the slimming world one is like
I had my grand daughter today so we did my walk this morning. She was fast asleep by the time we got to the park so no time in the swing. lol
Food went well:
Breakfast: Shreddies, banana, muller light
Lunch: Boiled eggs and salad
Tea: Chinese chicken curry and rice
It was all very yummy. I'm enjoying the feelings of achievement.
I use a lovely day per page diary to put in my food and exercise @vixter . Though I'll have a look online and see what the slimming world one is like
vegemite
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I had a weird day yesterday. I had my grand daughter again and I think I may have just been tired.
Breakfast was on plan and then lunch went a bit crazy....toast and vegemite and cheese, toast and egg mayo and then a tub of chilli that I had made early in the day with cheese...and of course butter on my toast...I wrote it all down in my food diary
Then I went to Whethersppons last night and very impressively I got back on plan food wise and had steak, salad and jacket potato. A few glasses of rose and a very small piece of birthday cake. Very happy with myself.
When my reminders went off for my daily to dos, I was pleasantly surprised to remember that I'm working at being on plan Monday to Friday, so I didn't have to not check it off. And I'd done my walk and filled in my food diary so I'm up to date. Very pleased.
Today I slept most of the morning. I think I was catching up on my sleep and I got up with no hangover.
Went for my walk and filled in my food diary and stayed on plan, without even really trying but just because it felt healthy and good to do so.
Breakfast/lunch: Scrambled eggs with mushrooms on wholemeal toast and banana and kiwi fruit with muller light
Tea: Bacon and pea risotto and salad (the risotto was lovely. I'm amazed at how much I enjoyed it)
Breakfast was on plan and then lunch went a bit crazy....toast and vegemite and cheese, toast and egg mayo and then a tub of chilli that I had made early in the day with cheese...and of course butter on my toast...I wrote it all down in my food diary
Then I went to Whethersppons last night and very impressively I got back on plan food wise and had steak, salad and jacket potato. A few glasses of rose and a very small piece of birthday cake. Very happy with myself.
When my reminders went off for my daily to dos, I was pleasantly surprised to remember that I'm working at being on plan Monday to Friday, so I didn't have to not check it off. And I'd done my walk and filled in my food diary so I'm up to date. Very pleased.
Today I slept most of the morning. I think I was catching up on my sleep and I got up with no hangover.
Went for my walk and filled in my food diary and stayed on plan, without even really trying but just because it felt healthy and good to do so.
Breakfast/lunch: Scrambled eggs with mushrooms on wholemeal toast and banana and kiwi fruit with muller light
Tea: Bacon and pea risotto and salad (the risotto was lovely. I'm amazed at how much I enjoyed it)
vegemite
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Another day of getting the check list done. I'm really pleased with my progress so far.
Tomorrow is weigh in day so I'll see where I'm at.
Food: On plan
Brunch: Wholemeal toast, boiled eggs, bacon, peppers, celery, tomatoes and kiwi fruit and muller light
Tea: Bacon and pea risotto and chinese chicken curry and rice
I got hungry only a few hours after lunch but instead of going off plan I just ate something from the freezer earlier and then had seconds. Really pleased with myself.
Organised walk done:
I was watching tv while having lunch and I could feel myself fidgeting cause I wanted to get the dishes done and get out and do my walk.
Food diary: All filled in....and I didn't have to write anything down that was off plan.
Tomorrow is weigh in day so I'll see where I'm at.
Food: On plan
Brunch: Wholemeal toast, boiled eggs, bacon, peppers, celery, tomatoes and kiwi fruit and muller light
Tea: Bacon and pea risotto and chinese chicken curry and rice
I got hungry only a few hours after lunch but instead of going off plan I just ate something from the freezer earlier and then had seconds. Really pleased with myself.
Organised walk done:
I was watching tv while having lunch and I could feel myself fidgeting cause I wanted to get the dishes done and get out and do my walk.
Food diary: All filled in....and I didn't have to write anything down that was off plan.
vegemite
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I've just been back to my slimming world class...I didn't stay, I couldn't face it, but I got weighed for the first time in 3 weeks.
I've lost 2lbs, so I'm 17.11.
Yesterday when I was thinking about getting weighed, I thought I'd be pleased if I was my starting weight (18.3!!!!!), happy if I stayed the same as my last weigh in (17.13) and ecstatic if I'd lost weight...so I've lost weight and I'm not ecstatic. I'm gutted I haven't lost more. Disappointed I'm even this weight and annoyed that I've been at slimming world for over a month and messed about and not stuck with it and so have only lost 6lbs.
When I joined I wanted to get to my club10 before I went away on holiday in the middle of June and because I've not got on with it, I'm not going to be able to reach that now. I know that if I just keep doing what I'm doing the weight will come off and I'll feel healthier and fitter and stronger and that's my goal, but right now....I'm just feeling a bit down and really frustrated that I sabotaged myself and I've wasted time that I could have been using moving forward towards my goal.
I've lost 2lbs, so I'm 17.11.
Yesterday when I was thinking about getting weighed, I thought I'd be pleased if I was my starting weight (18.3!!!!!), happy if I stayed the same as my last weigh in (17.13) and ecstatic if I'd lost weight...so I've lost weight and I'm not ecstatic. I'm gutted I haven't lost more. Disappointed I'm even this weight and annoyed that I've been at slimming world for over a month and messed about and not stuck with it and so have only lost 6lbs.
When I joined I wanted to get to my club10 before I went away on holiday in the middle of June and because I've not got on with it, I'm not going to be able to reach that now.
I know that if I just keep doing what I'm doing the weight will come off and I'll feel healthier and fitter and stronger and that's my goal, but right now....I'm just feeling a bit down and really frustrated that I sabotaged myself and I've wasted time that I could have been using moving forward towards my goal.
vegemite
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I've spent the last two weeks pissing about, self sabotaging...bleaugh
I've got less than 2 weeks till I go away and financially it's a very tight month. So I've decided to get back on it myself and then when I get back from holiday I'm going to go back to group but to one that a friend of mine goes to. I'm hoping that will help.
I've spoken to my consultant (he also does that group) and he thinks it's a good plan. It's nice to feel supported.
So, back to my check list tomorrow...
I've got less than 2 weeks till I go away and financially it's a very tight month. So I've decided to get back on it myself and then when I get back from holiday I'm going to go back to group but to one that a friend of mine goes to. I'm hoping that will help.
I've spoken to my consultant (he also does that group) and he thinks it's a good plan. It's nice to feel supported.
So, back to my check list tomorrow...
vegemite
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I'm back ...
I can't believe I started this thread in 2016!
Anyway, Not all who wander are lost...it just seems we lose our way but I'm back. I'm not in a group and that's okay with where I am at the moment.
I do have someone to be accountable to though and I've got my notebook ready and I've found this old thread, so here I am.
I'm not the heaviest I've ever been but this is the longest I've been this heavy and if I don't do something about it, this will become my new norm.
Let the journey begin
I can't believe I started this thread in 2016!
Anyway, Not all who wander are lost...it just seems we lose our way but I'm back. I'm not in a group and that's okay with where I am at the moment.
I do have someone to be accountable to though and I've got my notebook ready and I've found this old thread, so here I am.
I'm not the heaviest I've ever been but this is the longest I've been this heavy and if I don't do something about it, this will become my new norm.
Let the journey begin
vegemite
Full Member
I've been on plan the last few days.
Work can be a real danger area. A lot of feeders and people who seem to not want to eat the cake unless someone else is too, but I've not had any problem with saying no.
Yesterdays food was:
Breakfast: banana
Lunch: Light carbonara (from the eat well for less cook book) and salad
Tea: Chicken curry and rice (I used a jar but it makes 3 servings, so only 3 syns)
Today is a quiet day at home pottering about doing housework etc. The weather here is still overcast and drizzley so no gardening will be happening but I may get myself out for a walk.
Work can be a real danger area. A lot of feeders and people who seem to not want to eat the cake unless someone else is too, but I've not had any problem with saying no.
Yesterdays food was:
Breakfast: banana
Lunch: Light carbonara (from the eat well for less cook book) and salad
Tea: Chicken curry and rice (I used a jar but it makes 3 servings, so only 3 syns)
Today is a quiet day at home pottering about doing housework etc. The weather here is still overcast and drizzley so no gardening will be happening but I may get myself out for a walk.
vegemite
Full Member
Another day on plan.
I worked today. A long day as a hospital escort so I thought I may be tempted by coffee at the very least, but, no.
Food today:
Breakfast: banana
Lunch: Chicken fajita pasta bake & salad
Tea: Chicken curry & rice (a portion from the curry I made on Friday)
Feeling really tired and wonder if it's an effect of dropping the junk? It's only been a few days, but...
I worked today. A long day as a hospital escort so I thought I may be tempted by coffee at the very least, but, no.
Food today:
Breakfast: banana
Lunch: Chicken fajita pasta bake & salad
Tea: Chicken curry & rice (a portion from the curry I made on Friday)
Feeling really tired and wonder if it's an effect of dropping the junk? It's only been a few days, but...
