Royal Purple
Full Member
I've been trying to restart CD for the longest time, and for the past few days I've gained so much weight and being so put out thinking about how I was so much lighter in the past and how much time/money I've wasted.
It's been really depressing for me over the past few years and this time round I'd do anything to get out of this. I'm so sick of hating myself and hiding at home because I'm too afraid to face the world. I don't want to be looking on at other girls wishing I were as skinny as them anymore. I want to BE them.
Well, not really BE them, just become as skinny and thin as them. I swear, some people are just so lucky. They can eat all they want, not sweat a drop, never have had to worry seriously about their weight before, and still remain so skinny.
:raincloud:
Anyways, just had my weigh-in today. I still have about 40lbs to go.. To think just a few days ago it was 37lbs, but I just had to binge like a stupid pig to raise the bar by that much.
It's been really depressing for me over the past few years and this time round I'd do anything to get out of this. I'm so sick of hating myself and hiding at home because I'm too afraid to face the world. I don't want to be looking on at other girls wishing I were as skinny as them anymore. I want to BE them.
Well, not really BE them, just become as skinny and thin as them. I swear, some people are just so lucky. They can eat all they want, not sweat a drop, never have had to worry seriously about their weight before, and still remain so skinny.
:raincloud:
Anyways, just had my weigh-in today. I still have about 40lbs to go.. To think just a few days ago it was 37lbs, but I just had to binge like a stupid pig to raise the bar by that much.