cery
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Hey guys, I am Cery and on yet another attempt to ditch the weight. I have always been bigger than I should be, though when I look back I would be soooo happy to be that weight now! Don't you just love hindsight? 
Anyway, I gave up smoking and met my partner in 2006 and weighed around 16 stone. We then had our first child in 2009 rapidly followed by our second 15 months later. A mix of being content, no motivation, denial, horrific post-natal depression and at my heaviest earlier this year I weighed in at 21 st 13 Since then I have fluctuated and I started SlimFast 3 weeks ago at 20st 13 and have lost 8lbs so far.
My partner and I are due to marry end of December this year, we have always meant to then the kids came along etc etc. I figure anything less than I am now is a bonus, but inside I am gutted and kicking myself because I won't be the size I would like to be. I hate having my photo taken, and have less than a handful of pictures of me with my beautiful children which makes me so sad.
I have gone for SlimFast because I find when I have a choice of things to eat I do ok initially and then start to spoil things by eating too much or the wrong things creeping back in. I am hoping that as the weight comes off, the self confidence will kick in and give me some self control to start introducing sensible meal sizes. At the moment I am feeling very tentative and it wouldn't take too much for me to chuck in the towel but each pound strengthens my resolve
I am not going to lie, whilst I know I should be happy to have lost the 8lbs, there is a part of me that is saying 8lbs?! Is that all?! You have all this weight to loose, you should have lost more than that. I am trying to tell that part of me to shut up
Anyway, essay over lol
Anyway, I gave up smoking and met my partner in 2006 and weighed around 16 stone. We then had our first child in 2009 rapidly followed by our second 15 months later. A mix of being content, no motivation, denial, horrific post-natal depression and at my heaviest earlier this year I weighed in at 21 st 13 Since then I have fluctuated and I started SlimFast 3 weeks ago at 20st 13 and have lost 8lbs so far.My partner and I are due to marry end of December this year, we have always meant to then the kids came along etc etc. I figure anything less than I am now is a bonus, but inside I am gutted and kicking myself because I won't be the size I would like to be. I hate having my photo taken, and have less than a handful of pictures of me with my beautiful children which makes me so sad.
I have gone for SlimFast because I find when I have a choice of things to eat I do ok initially and then start to spoil things by eating too much or the wrong things creeping back in. I am hoping that as the weight comes off, the self confidence will kick in and give me some self control to start introducing sensible meal sizes. At the moment I am feeling very tentative and it wouldn't take too much for me to chuck in the towel but each pound strengthens my resolve
I am not going to lie, whilst I know I should be happy to have lost the 8lbs, there is a part of me that is saying 8lbs?! Is that all?! You have all this weight to loose, you should have lost more than that. I am trying to tell that part of me to shut up
Anyway, essay over lol
